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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

He's back, he's bad, he's Matt-Man and he is...

Hail and well met one and all

I am sitting at the Matt-comp 5000 in my place to sleep and keep my shit.

The trip was in a word...AMAZING!

I think I have said that to several people already but it deserves to be said again.

I will give a play by play of the trip sooner or later but not now. I am just posting to say hey to all and to let the world know that I am back.

I don't have much time to type right now as I have stuff that I have to get done. You know pay bills and get stuff and see people. The usual kind of thing when you have been gone on a vacation.
I do want to say this though. Everything looks different since I got back. I don't know if I can explain it in words that will make sense, but I will try. Everything seems in focus for the first time. The colors of things seem...I don't know...Clearer or cleaner. Sharper is the word I think that best fits the bill. I feel different I think. I hope it makes sense to you, cause if it does please feel free to explain it. I like it but I want to understand it.

Ok well that is all I really have time for right now. I really need to get this stuff done so I will go and hope to see everyone sooner then later, unless you are at school or somewhere else. Then I hope to see you as soon as possible and I will type at you when possible.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!
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3 comments:

Impervia said...

Welcome home.

12:53 PM
Anonymous said...

To begin: This verbal onslaught is not meant to start a flame war. Those that guess this posters identity STAY OUT OF THIS!!!!!!! Out of respect for me please. Though this is a public forum this is between Matt & I. I post here today for selfish reasons. I’m not good with socialization. I’m not one who discusses things when I’m aggravated, I yell a lot. Like you I post to get things off my chest, to deal with situations. I suppose this is how I chose to deal with my feelings toward you now. I choose to post here now because I do not want to have contact with you now or ever again. I do not fear for my safety but for yours. I do not say this standing up proudly beating my chest. I say this because I’m not very rationale these days. These days it’s getting harder for me to stay rationale. I do not know how I’ll react; nothing may happen at all, and perhaps I’m being a bit melodramatic. When people that are close to me betray me rational thought goes out the window. Friends, family they used to mean so much, but as more who I thought were close turn there backs on our history…….well lets just say my grip on reality starts to unravel. It’s all we really have in this world that’s worth anything. The funny thing about all of this is none of it FUCKING MATTERS!!!!! This world is a joke & we’re all just floating down the sewer to a bigger pile of shit. You can’t be a Jedi in this day & age Matt. You want to know why? Because they are all FUCKING DEAD!!!!!! The Empire killed them all!!! Hope & Faith are words we all cling to to trick ourselves into holding on for a better tomorrow. Let you in on a little secret……IT’S ALL BULLSHIT!!!!! BECAUSE WE ARE ALL CATTLE!!!!!!!! The people that really run the show already know what they want to do & how to manipulate us were they want us (conspiracy of fear) So we believe because we want to, so we can sleep better at night.
Maybe I write this because I’m a coward & cannot face you. I know you will figure out who this is Matt you’re not stupid. In the same token I ask that if you choose to deal with this you keep it between us, out of respect to our old friendship. Does that still make me a coward? You were a brother & you turned your fucking back YOU ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!
You call yourself oblivious, to me that’s a cop out. I think you just stopped giving a shit & got on with your life. I think if you don’t want to deal with something or someone you just ignore it. You couldn’t say anything back that could hurt me because I’ve got more self-loathing inside me then you could ever hope to have. It’s been fun checking this blog out & getting caught up on your life. As funny as it sounds I wish you well. I can’t offer any more words of encouragement; I ‘m all used up.


“Greed. Hate. Lust.
Divide. Disgust. Distrust.
Happiness comes in a pill,
From a fifteen-story windowsill.
You'll love me till I die,
Or at least until I try.

And no time will fade away,
The rumors and the lies.
And no one will remember,
If you even said goodbye.

The after words don't mean a thing,
The problems still persist.
Don't think about the story,
And the bullshit that you missed.

What's the point in dying,
When the world thinks you're already dead?
What's the point in crying,
With the rain beating down on your head?
What's the point in lying,
If no one believes what you say?
What's the point in dying,
If you're already dead anyway?”

9:44 AM
Anonymous said...

Yeah, um, welcome back, and stuff?

9:45 PM

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