I'd Sleep with Matt-Man...

Hail and well met

Yeah I would have to say that if given a chance I would sleep with Matt-Man, of course I have to since I am Matt-Man but it is a good feeling to know that if I ever found myself at a bar I wouldn't mind going home with me.

I do have to say that things are not really great. I don't know what is wrong but I know I am not right. No I don't intend to spiral into a boring post about me (and lets face it I am quite boring). No I am just trying to get a handle on why all of a sudden I am unable to get away...

Wait I may have just put my finger on it and I don't really like it one bit.

I was getting away from my P's when I went out to lansing before and now I don't have to do that to be me I can be me right here. I am not being repressed by the set of conditions that I was living in. Wait that really makes me an asshole. Cause I used people as an escape from my situation and now that that situation has changed I seem to be unable to head out and see them?

Oh CRAP! What the fuck is wrong with me? NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!

I don't want to think that I can do something like that but it is apparent that I have and am doing that. That only means one thing, I have to change what I a doing.

I will cut myself a little slack as it is the first time in my life I am free to be the me that has always been locked up while I was living at my P's house. It is kind of like not having something for a real long time and then being able to have it and going ape shit. There is a word for that, what is it?

Oh yeah binging.

Alright then I have to stop binging and take control of my life and change.

Crap what was I originally going to post on? I lost sight of it in the light of self realization. Damn bright light...

No

Damn sunrise, hurts my eyes!

Ben for Pope!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

(when I remember what I was going to post about I will, until then this is it....sorry)