Matt-Man Lost In Transition

Hail and well met

Well it is about time I posted on current events. It is not easy at all considering what I have to impart. To be totally truthful it is quite painful.

There is a lot of information that goes into what I am about to say but I don't feel like putting it here. I don't even guarantee that if you ask I will tell you.

Terri and I have ended our relationship.

I don't want anyone bad mouthing Terri (not that I think anyone would but some of you can be very protective as friends)what happened between us was talked over and mutually decided upon. We are still friends and don't roll your eyes and tell me that it is not possible, it is and we are. She is still dear to me and I care about her.

It is a simple matter of reality. Right now we are not in a position to be what the other wants or needs. Staying together would only make things worse cause we would both be trying to fit the square peg in the round hole...(oops that didn't sound as good in type as it did in thought, but it is me :P ).

Yes it hurts. Quite a bit more then I thought it would but I will endure. Right now all I can do is live day to day and hope one of them will not begin with me realizing she is not with me. The struggle against depression continues with good days and bad days. This is a good day and it is why I am posting today. Trust me a bad day would not be good (kinda reminds me of the self indulgent bull I was typing a couple of years ago).

I know I made some mistakes. I know I failed on many levels. I know I let her down. I don't plan on focusing on those because they are not going to change. All I can do is try and learn from them and move forward.

Yeah way easier to say then do.

So that is what is going on for the most part. Well I am working on my games again and a trip to see the guys in St. Lois is in the works.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!