Matt-Man Can't Find Them So He Grinds Them

Hail and well met

Well just sitting here at 12:30ish in the evening and to be honest I don't have any idea what I am going to put here.

To put into words I am sitting in neutral and just spinning my wheels. Cannot seem to go forward and no way in hell I am going back. So here I sit, slowly going insane.

As I figure it no one still reads this thing so why do I bother? Well for one thing I ain't doing this for you. Sorry if that seems crass or blunt but it is the truth. This is a way for me to vent what is going on in my life and get it out of my head. I do appreciate those that do stop by and read. Thanks for the consideration.

How can I go forward, every time I try something seems to crop up and SMACK I hit the new wall. All I can figure is that I am missing something that needs to be dealt with in the here and now so I cannot go forward until it is put to rest.

Of course that being said I don't have a God blessed idea what that would be. But then again nobody ever does. Just have to back up and inspect the world around me (thanks Mikey for that advice cause it always seems to help).

I sat down today and really looked at what I had on my games...Yeah I lost a hell of a lot of work when the hard drive crashed. To be honest it almost got me depressed cause I don't know if I can get all of it back. That was kind of the point of putting it in the computer so I didn't have to remember it. Well now it is gone and I have to start from scratch. Well that ain't going to happen again cause I am going to take steps. Probably have to just hard copy all of it so that I have it on hand.

That was probably the worst I had felt all day...well except for reading something that brought up real sad memories.

Wish I hadn't already talked to Terri cause I really wanted to call her and talk about it. Not that she needs me dumping my emotional baggage on her door step. She has enough trouble right now, don't need to add to it. I would go into it but don't know if she is cool with me telling tales here so suffice it to say her life is getting real hectic.

At least I have two things...no three. First I have Terri in my life and that counts for a lot right now. Two I have all my friends and what she doesn't count for they do. and I have Iron Kingdoms.

Listen guys lets get this going again soon. I have tried to put my foot down before and it didn't go far. So I am going to take a more laid back approach. I would like to play next Friday unless this Friday will work (although I am not nearly prepared enough for this Friday) lets just play. I really need it and I know that everyone has fun. Of course the Loft is a freezer right now so I am going to talk to Val and see if the Possum Lodge is available. If not then maybe we should find another place cause I don't want to lose any extremities.

Ok well that is almost all I have to say. I am also preparing a survey of sorts for you all to look at for the upcoming BMM (beyond mere mortals) game this summer. It is a series of question for you character that may help in formulating his/her creation, well their personality that is.

There that is all of it. I will be posting the survey on the 37 inchers forum so look for it in the next couple of days.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!