So Who is this Matt-Man anyway?

Hail and well met.

Have you ever had a moment when all the fragments of reality that you thought you understood jumped up and came together for a split second to give you a tremendous "STUPID IN THE HEAD!" (a blow across the back of the head by a loved one for doing something really detrimental or plain dumb) . Well that happened today. I have to say that for maybe the third or forth time I got pulled up by the short hairs.

Now I really don't feel ready to completely explain the circumstances around this event but I can express the meaning of this event. Yeah it sounds vague and cryptic but that is what makes it fun :)

A series of events today forced me to reevaluate my outlook on life and the way I am living it. Well there was a GIANT discrepancy between the two. I did something that made no sense. I take things in my life seriously and devote the time I need to them. But time and time again I find I come up short when deadlines come. I had one of those things happen today and I really didn't want this situation to pass me by because I failed to live up to my obligation. As I thought about it I came face to face with the truth that although I take these things seriously, I don't take my life seriously at all. I don't have much respect for my life or the time I have been given. I didn't put it together that I had to manage my time so I could do the things that needed to be done, do them right and not just focus all the time to get something trivial done right now. In the end no matter my intentions I fail to accomplish the things I have to set forth to get done. It also follows that at the end of the day I am unreliable even though I really did intend to get things done.

Well I have decided to respect my life a little more and as such do more to manage my time to accomplish those things that I have promised to do by the time I said I would do them. I will spend the time to prepare for those things that I am going to do.

I know that it is not going to be an easy road and it will up to me to do what is needed to be done.

I have to give thanks to the universe and the creator for giving me that little bit of clarity. Now I have to do all that I can to make the most of it.

I cannot wait for certain events to come to fruition so that I can share what is going on. Some may think I am crazy but trust me I am wide awake and my eyes are wide open. But anymore would give it away.

I thank all of you for being my family, friends and more. I love you Terri!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!