Matt-Man at a loss for words

Well just discovered that I managed to lose several pieces of poetry that really meant something to me because I thought it was safe to leave them on the internets. One is safe for the moment but I don't know for how long. So I will have to reclaim them and hope, like that is going to happen.

Yes I am down. Yes I hate myself. Yes I want the hollow pain inside to stop. No I won't do what I would have to do to end it and yes that means suicide. Oh and no finding someone won't fix it cause I had my chances and blew it. I don't have the skills or ability to pick up women and learning at this point is just a little pointless. Kinda like going to school.

I have to accept that I choose to stay outside till way to late in the party and now I am that guy that gets to stand around watching everyone else coming down from the big fun and helping them till I am alone.

As always alone. Empty, hollow, useless, lame, stupid, loser. Yeah for me. Look upon me and know your life is better then mine and find comfort. Stare upon me and realize you are better then me and gain confidence. Take stock of my life and discover how full yours is by comparison and find contentment.

Sleep well knowing that the other end of the bell curve is right in front of you.

I am nothing so let the world rejoice!

Hail the complacent zero!!!!!