Pain is better then nothing at all

I know my last post said that I was going to talk about rape. Well after careful deliberation I have but one thing to say on that subject.

Rape is BAD.

That is all. Enough is enough. Anything more is a waste of my time.

Yes a waste of my time. There is no happy ending so deal with it. Evil exists in the hearts of humans and always will. We will hurt each other until the end of the world...or our species (which is hopefully soon). Trying to "eradicate" it is like saying you hate sunburn so lets get rid of light. It is not going to happen.

Humans are bastards and monsters when given the chance. We take what we want and don't give a care to whom we hurt in the process. Watch kids sometime when they are playing. Oh yes all is peace until one of them wants something the other has and when the child asks is told no, then watch out. There is taking, pushing and often violence. The victor has the toy and the loser is crying to mommy. It is nature working her wonderful bitchy will. Survival of the fittest, to the victor goes the spoils.

Oh and for all those hopeful people out there...NICE GUYS FINISH LAST! Which in a race where only the winner survives, means extinction. Yup a dirt nap and if lucky a minor footnote about what a mistake it was to even try the hole compassion thing. As the top of the food chain we had better realize that our only predator is ourselves and since nature prefers balance it is going do what is needed.

What does that mean?! Are you kidding me? Are you that naive? It means that with 8 billion of us with no sign of stopping, that one way or another we are going to start dying in rather large numbers. Plague, ice ages, drought you think of the calamity and it is going to happen sooner or later.

OH and to all those "save mother earth" loons out there, WAKE UP! This planet was hit by a friggin meteor the size of a state which wiped out every last dinosaur and it survived. To think that we lowly meat sacks have a chance of doing anything lasting to this planet is arrogant and ignorant.

The ass you had be concerned with saving is the human races. Either that or truly adopt you mindset and start mass murder to relive our burden from the ecosystem. Even then you aren't saving the Earth, just this version of its external life system.

Yeah I sound bitter and jaded. Well I am. Then again so are you if you are really honest about it. I have just decided to stop trying to be all nice and happy while my insides ache with pain and turn hollow.

So as the title says, I have decided to live in my pain instead of nothing at all. Most likely none of you will want to be around me with my voicing this new attitude, so be it. For too long I have asked question of the universe, questions that have gone without an answer, the silence growing inside me like a cancer, until I am hollow.

No more.

Life is a series of suck, fail and illusions of better times. Revel in ignorance or suffer with knowledge. In the end we are all connected but utterly alone. We face the darkness of the ever after with neither friend or family. Cold, naked and ill prepared. There is no shelter here, there or anywhere. Run, run as fast as you can but no matter where you go there you are.

Yup the only hope is that the pain will be less, different or we can create an illusion that it is happiness.

Cut the flesh, let the blood flow, this is the only relief we can know.

and in the end when faced with all this truth we will lie to ourselves and say that happiness is out there, that there is someone for everyone, we can make a difference and that our lives mean something.


Meanwhile a dark creator sits and laughs.

I don't care anymore.