Hail and well met
Things have gotten annoying. My car is giving me a royal pain in the ass. Yesterday it decided to overheat while I was working. Luckily one of the other subs could come out and drive while I delivered the mail. When I got back and started my car it was fine, on the drive home it was fine. No sign of over heating at all. This morning when I went to work it was fine. Then I started delivering the mail and it overheated again. So I had to deliver the mail with the heater blasting, what fun. So it appears that something is wrong possibly the fan or something else. Anyway it has totally screwed me. I was supposed to go up and be with Terri for her Relay for Life in Antioch. That is out. I was also hoping to get out to Lansing, that is also out. So here I get to sit on my ass with nothing to do.
Well that is about the size of it. My car is going in on my first day off which is Tuesday. I hope it is cheap cause right now I am getting really close to broke. I was trying to save some cash for GenCon but at this rate I will not even bother going. Dammit this really sucks.
The biggest thing is that I cannot go see anyone. Time is running out for hanging out, let alone maybe trying to play a game.
Well I hope everything is going well with everyone.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Matt-Man...What were you expecing.......Nixon??
Hail and well met one and all
Welcome to my blog.
Yes Yes I know that it has been here for awhile and I have posted a number of things here but every once and awhile it is important to stop and realize that maybe some people have stumbled on this blog and do not know me in person like most of the readers do. Of course they should go running and screaming in terror at what they read here cause I am a crazy lunatic but hey if they happen to share my insanity then welcome aboard, feel free to say hi or anything what so ever.
Also it is important to make a distinction between what came before and what will come after. Yes I have done this before but it usually accompanied me totally tossing away my blog and starting a new one. Well not this time. I have no reason to change the blog just because I have changed. But what you might ask has changed?
I have discovered my passion. Oh I have spoken on numerous occasions about how I am the defender of creativity and the champion of imagination. Well true as that may be it is also a fact that I have done little or nothing to aid that cause. That is about to change. I discovered a whole pile of stuff that I had acquired to make games with. Games that I made or were making. I have realized that my most happy moments (aside from the time I spend with Terri and my friends) are when I am plugging away at a game. From designing the story or premise to actually formulating the rules I love it all. I feel complete when I am doing it and I get a sense of satisfaction from it as well.
Now don't get me wrong I intend to keep my day job, although it may not be needed if things really take off. Oh and don't think I don't hear the naysayers "there is no market for that" "It is just a pipe dream". Yeah maybe it is but it was also the pipe dream of a little man that wanted to write stories and publish them. Stan Lee is one of my greatest inspirations and a hero of mine. He never set out to do what he did, he didn't go to school to do it and he had no training in it either. If he can do all that he has done then I can do what I dream as well. Again it won't be easy but I will make it happen!
So please realize that I am serious and I will not brook any down playing or nay saying. I don't have time to defend my choice nor am I inclined to. If you don't like it then either keep it to yourself or expect to be ignored. No I don't believe that anyone really wants to do either of those but just in case there is the warning. No one can sue me for not taking the proper precautions with hazardous matt-erial.
HA HA yes I said it and I meant it.
So I am just back from having 300 dollars I don't have ripped from my ass for my brakes. What really sucks is that I just had them done not more then a month an a half ago. Well it appears the motherless sons of mutant lame goats didn't do a good job or a proper job. Anyway my mechanic fixed it but it is going to hurt. I may have to curtail my outside activities which sucks. The one things I cannot forgo is the Relay for Life this weekend with Terri, I promised to be there and I will.
Yeah I know again a Sunday that supers may not happen, but from the way people were acting I don't think anyone really cares about it anyway.
So I am going to be blitzing this all over. August the 5th I would like to invite anyone and everyone to join myself and my good woman at the Bristol Renaissance Fair. Now I know it is short notice but it is a chance for a large group to go (since people are going back to collage). I was thinking of heading up Saturday night and people could camp out or sleep inside (remember Terri has 2 cats and 1 dog) Then an early morning jaunt up to the fair and a good day had by all.
Let me know cause if it won't work we can move it back to the 19th.
Ok that is all the time I have to type right now. See everyone soon.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Welcome to my blog.
Yes Yes I know that it has been here for awhile and I have posted a number of things here but every once and awhile it is important to stop and realize that maybe some people have stumbled on this blog and do not know me in person like most of the readers do. Of course they should go running and screaming in terror at what they read here cause I am a crazy lunatic but hey if they happen to share my insanity then welcome aboard, feel free to say hi or anything what so ever.
Also it is important to make a distinction between what came before and what will come after. Yes I have done this before but it usually accompanied me totally tossing away my blog and starting a new one. Well not this time. I have no reason to change the blog just because I have changed. But what you might ask has changed?
I have discovered my passion. Oh I have spoken on numerous occasions about how I am the defender of creativity and the champion of imagination. Well true as that may be it is also a fact that I have done little or nothing to aid that cause. That is about to change. I discovered a whole pile of stuff that I had acquired to make games with. Games that I made or were making. I have realized that my most happy moments (aside from the time I spend with Terri and my friends) are when I am plugging away at a game. From designing the story or premise to actually formulating the rules I love it all. I feel complete when I am doing it and I get a sense of satisfaction from it as well.
Now don't get me wrong I intend to keep my day job, although it may not be needed if things really take off. Oh and don't think I don't hear the naysayers "there is no market for that" "It is just a pipe dream". Yeah maybe it is but it was also the pipe dream of a little man that wanted to write stories and publish them. Stan Lee is one of my greatest inspirations and a hero of mine. He never set out to do what he did, he didn't go to school to do it and he had no training in it either. If he can do all that he has done then I can do what I dream as well. Again it won't be easy but I will make it happen!
So please realize that I am serious and I will not brook any down playing or nay saying. I don't have time to defend my choice nor am I inclined to. If you don't like it then either keep it to yourself or expect to be ignored. No I don't believe that anyone really wants to do either of those but just in case there is the warning. No one can sue me for not taking the proper precautions with hazardous matt-erial.
HA HA yes I said it and I meant it.
So I am just back from having 300 dollars I don't have ripped from my ass for my brakes. What really sucks is that I just had them done not more then a month an a half ago. Well it appears the motherless sons of mutant lame goats didn't do a good job or a proper job. Anyway my mechanic fixed it but it is going to hurt. I may have to curtail my outside activities which sucks. The one things I cannot forgo is the Relay for Life this weekend with Terri, I promised to be there and I will.
Yeah I know again a Sunday that supers may not happen, but from the way people were acting I don't think anyone really cares about it anyway.
So I am going to be blitzing this all over. August the 5th I would like to invite anyone and everyone to join myself and my good woman at the Bristol Renaissance Fair. Now I know it is short notice but it is a chance for a large group to go (since people are going back to collage). I was thinking of heading up Saturday night and people could camp out or sleep inside (remember Terri has 2 cats and 1 dog) Then an early morning jaunt up to the fair and a good day had by all.
Let me know cause if it won't work we can move it back to the 19th.
Ok that is all the time I have to type right now. See everyone soon.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Matt-Man is ALIVE....HE'S ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!
Hail and well met
Ok Matt-man is not dead, maybe a zombie but not dead.
The Force is not a dream nor is it stupid
Oh yeah and there is a God and he hates when you say there isn't one.
No I wasn't visited by an angelic being that made me see that I was being a dumbass. I was just sitting watching "That 70's Show" and I realized that things are what they are and I need to get off my butt. Yeah there are things that are not cool in my life but they aren't going to fix themselves nor will sitting around feeling sorry for myself and whining about how things suck going to get them done. Yeah it is hard when your energy is sucked out of by life but that is the way it is.
I am not giving up. It ain't going to be easy and I have a shit-ton to learning to do but if I want my dreams to become reality I have to make it happen......
DAMN! DAMN! DAMN!
I hate that phrase! I really do. It was the crappy catch phrase at Toy's R Us back in the day. It was so annoying to hear those lazy managers stand there and spout off all this crap that we had to do and then top it off with "So lets make it happen.". Such hypocrites cause they would then go and hide in the managers office or the SKU booth to avoid actually working. I hated them so much, almost as much as that phrase and here I am using it.
And meaning it, and understanding what it means! CRAP!
Ok that really depresses me. Takes all the wind out of my sails.
Well I can tell you one thing. I may "make it happen" but dammit I am doing it my way. NO TIES! NO UGLY SMOCKS! AND NO FUCKING GIRAFFES!!!!!
Yeah take that, no giraffes.
Well this post has gone way off target but I feel better.
I will talk to everyone soon, and I will post a more lucid...um post....damn that sounds stupid but what else can I call it...Oh I know a word thingy!
Yeah like I can be lucid, ha who am I kidding.
May the Force be with all of you
Excelsior!!!
Ok Matt-man is not dead, maybe a zombie but not dead.
The Force is not a dream nor is it stupid
Oh yeah and there is a God and he hates when you say there isn't one.
No I wasn't visited by an angelic being that made me see that I was being a dumbass. I was just sitting watching "That 70's Show" and I realized that things are what they are and I need to get off my butt. Yeah there are things that are not cool in my life but they aren't going to fix themselves nor will sitting around feeling sorry for myself and whining about how things suck going to get them done. Yeah it is hard when your energy is sucked out of by life but that is the way it is.
I am not giving up. It ain't going to be easy and I have a shit-ton to learning to do but if I want my dreams to become reality I have to make it happen......
DAMN! DAMN! DAMN!
I hate that phrase! I really do. It was the crappy catch phrase at Toy's R Us back in the day. It was so annoying to hear those lazy managers stand there and spout off all this crap that we had to do and then top it off with "So lets make it happen.". Such hypocrites cause they would then go and hide in the managers office or the SKU booth to avoid actually working. I hated them so much, almost as much as that phrase and here I am using it.
And meaning it, and understanding what it means! CRAP!
Ok that really depresses me. Takes all the wind out of my sails.
Well I can tell you one thing. I may "make it happen" but dammit I am doing it my way. NO TIES! NO UGLY SMOCKS! AND NO FUCKING GIRAFFES!!!!!
Yeah take that, no giraffes.
Well this post has gone way off target but I feel better.
I will talk to everyone soon, and I will post a more lucid...um post....damn that sounds stupid but what else can I call it...Oh I know a word thingy!
Yeah like I can be lucid, ha who am I kidding.
May the Force be with all of you
Excelsior!!!
Friday, July 20, 2007
Matt-Man...What we talking about?
Hail and well met
Well I know I have been out of the loop. It has been real hard to run the routes I have been running, getting up at 6 to be to work by 7 and then work until 3 or 4 (on a good day that is). I get home and find I lack any energy to do much of anything but doing a few thing around here and then get to bed for the next day. I was hoping that I would be getting better at it by now but it does not seem to be working out that way.
I would normally apologize here for being gone but that is not going to happen. I am not sorry just...I guess the word is disappointed. It appears that I have been under some delusion about how life could (or as I believed, should) work. Now I can see that any idea of being my own anything was stupid. I am just a cog in someone else's machine and that is all I can ever hope to be. I don't have the skills or talents to break out and leave the slave pits behind. When I should have been learning such skills and garnering such talents I was "having fun". Stupid! I am so dumb.
I could list off a number of things that I am pissed at right now. The biggest problem is that the only one that really sticks is ME.
Yeah I thought I had come so far. Had reached such pinnacles and left these thoughts behind. Well it appears that all I was doing was lying to and disillusioning myself. I am a loser of the first magnitude and a failure to rival my Father.
Way to go Dad! You succeeded in making a better dumbass then you. GREAT!
Whatever.
There is no God.
The Force is a stupid dream
and super heroes are for children or lunatics.
Matt-Man is dead.....
Well I know I have been out of the loop. It has been real hard to run the routes I have been running, getting up at 6 to be to work by 7 and then work until 3 or 4 (on a good day that is). I get home and find I lack any energy to do much of anything but doing a few thing around here and then get to bed for the next day. I was hoping that I would be getting better at it by now but it does not seem to be working out that way.
I would normally apologize here for being gone but that is not going to happen. I am not sorry just...I guess the word is disappointed. It appears that I have been under some delusion about how life could (or as I believed, should) work. Now I can see that any idea of being my own anything was stupid. I am just a cog in someone else's machine and that is all I can ever hope to be. I don't have the skills or talents to break out and leave the slave pits behind. When I should have been learning such skills and garnering such talents I was "having fun". Stupid! I am so dumb.
I could list off a number of things that I am pissed at right now. The biggest problem is that the only one that really sticks is ME.
Yeah I thought I had come so far. Had reached such pinnacles and left these thoughts behind. Well it appears that all I was doing was lying to and disillusioning myself. I am a loser of the first magnitude and a failure to rival my Father.
Way to go Dad! You succeeded in making a better dumbass then you. GREAT!
Whatever.
There is no God.
The Force is a stupid dream
and super heroes are for children or lunatics.
Matt-Man is dead.....
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
?????Ok it appears that I cannot enter a title for this post????
So here it goes the old fashion way.
Matt-Man is on the Job!
Hail and well met
Well things have been a bit strained as of late. I have been working which is good. On the other hand it has been insanely hot when I worked and it has been kicking my ass (quite literally but I won't go into details). It has affected my ability to do much of anything. Working on my move has come to a complete halt, well almost I did accomplish some things today but not nearly as much as I need to have done by now.
Yeah I know all things take time but this is just getting to me. I mean I need the money (boy that is an understatement) but I also need the time to get the things done that I have to get done. I guess the big problem is just the physical affect it is having on me.
I also have been dealing with the fact that I have not been able to spend the time with Terri that I need to. Oh yes believe me it has become a need and a want. I like being around her, I like the way I think around her and the way she makes me feel (no sickos I don't mean that way...but that is amazing as well) I know that I love her and I want to do the best I can to make it possible for us to be together, and that is the other half of the problem. I don't think the Post Office is going to allow that to happen. I don't know if I can explain it in words but I just have this sinking sensation that I cannot depend on this job to see me though. Maybe it is just my past experiences creeping in to my mind but it is there.
Meh I am not getting anywhere with this and I know that it doesn't resolve anything. I have to make some decisions and take some chances. Boy that is tough given my past. Ah yes old wounds never really do heal you just forget about them until they come up again and it all comes flooding back. The pain the loss and the crashing of dreams.
Again I am saying meh. I am going to do what I have to do cause the other option is to give up on having a life with Terri...well if she wants one with me.
What is going to happen will happen and there is nothing I can do about it but enjoy the ride. Maybe I can choose the seat I am sitting in? I used to sit in the back but maybe now is the time to sit in the front?
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
So here it goes the old fashion way.
Matt-Man is on the Job!
Hail and well met
Well things have been a bit strained as of late. I have been working which is good. On the other hand it has been insanely hot when I worked and it has been kicking my ass (quite literally but I won't go into details). It has affected my ability to do much of anything. Working on my move has come to a complete halt, well almost I did accomplish some things today but not nearly as much as I need to have done by now.
Yeah I know all things take time but this is just getting to me. I mean I need the money (boy that is an understatement) but I also need the time to get the things done that I have to get done. I guess the big problem is just the physical affect it is having on me.
I also have been dealing with the fact that I have not been able to spend the time with Terri that I need to. Oh yes believe me it has become a need and a want. I like being around her, I like the way I think around her and the way she makes me feel (no sickos I don't mean that way...but that is amazing as well) I know that I love her and I want to do the best I can to make it possible for us to be together, and that is the other half of the problem. I don't think the Post Office is going to allow that to happen. I don't know if I can explain it in words but I just have this sinking sensation that I cannot depend on this job to see me though. Maybe it is just my past experiences creeping in to my mind but it is there.
Meh I am not getting anywhere with this and I know that it doesn't resolve anything. I have to make some decisions and take some chances. Boy that is tough given my past. Ah yes old wounds never really do heal you just forget about them until they come up again and it all comes flooding back. The pain the loss and the crashing of dreams.
Again I am saying meh. I am going to do what I have to do cause the other option is to give up on having a life with Terri...well if she wants one with me.
What is going to happen will happen and there is nothing I can do about it but enjoy the ride. Maybe I can choose the seat I am sitting in? I used to sit in the back but maybe now is the time to sit in the front?
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Matt-Man on a Mission
Hail and well met
Well I have been digging into the background of that mysterious trailer at the beginning of Transformers. What I have found is little to nothing.
The production company for the film is Bad Robot. This is the same company that did the TV series Alias and Lost. They are also the company behind the new Star Trek movie.
From what I gather it is a giant monster movie as I figured, but not Godzilla. The film is going to be shot from a first person perspective using home video cameras. The way it sounds there will be little or no shots of the monster in question only the carnage and madness that ensues. Sounds interesting and I would go see it. I will keep my ears and eyes open on the subject.
Oh and by the way it is being called CLOVERFIELD as a working title for security and secrecy reasons. Apparently there was a Youtube video of the trailer but it was pulled by Paramount for copyright issues. Yeah like that will last more then a couple of days before it shows up again.
Anyway it sounds intersing and I have to say the trailer caught my attention and peeked my interest. In fact I would have to agree that it is one of the best trailers I have seen in a while.
Ok that is all for now. I have to get ready and head out to the loft for the PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Well I have been digging into the background of that mysterious trailer at the beginning of Transformers. What I have found is little to nothing.
The production company for the film is Bad Robot. This is the same company that did the TV series Alias and Lost. They are also the company behind the new Star Trek movie.
From what I gather it is a giant monster movie as I figured, but not Godzilla. The film is going to be shot from a first person perspective using home video cameras. The way it sounds there will be little or no shots of the monster in question only the carnage and madness that ensues. Sounds interesting and I would go see it. I will keep my ears and eyes open on the subject.
Oh and by the way it is being called CLOVERFIELD as a working title for security and secrecy reasons. Apparently there was a Youtube video of the trailer but it was pulled by Paramount for copyright issues. Yeah like that will last more then a couple of days before it shows up again.
Anyway it sounds intersing and I have to say the trailer caught my attention and peeked my interest. In fact I would have to agree that it is one of the best trailers I have seen in a while.
Ok that is all for now. I have to get ready and head out to the loft for the PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Friday, June 29, 2007
Matt-Man is Bust
Hail and well met
Well as the title says I am bust, broke, nearly penniless. I just got paid and after making sure I have gas money for the next two weeks to get to and from work I have not much left. I have had to push off paying some bills and just got an email from Stand Up about my account being past due.
Yeah it sucks and I am feeling a little down on myself at the moment. I mean what good is it to be employed if you still are broke and unable to cover your bills.
Meh I really don't want to get into that here. I did it years ago and basically bored myself and everyone else to tears. Life sucks and that is that.
I could go on for hours and pages on my view of the world right now. Again it is pointless and futile.
Well the real suck news is that I will have to curtail most of my trips to Lansing. So you won't be seeing me for the next couple of weeks. I do plan on making it out to Supers on Sunday and I am going to squeak out getting to Transformers on Monday, after that I will be going to work and then sitting home.
Yup that is my life in a nutshell. Just like my father before me. Work, eat, sleep. Yes just live to work for someone else. As far as dreaming is concerned I am going to take a hint from my sleep and quit it. What is the point. In my experience they are good for is wasting a lot of time and effort to try and make them real only to have them ripped away and torn to shreds in front of you by bastards that don't deserve to breath let alone live.
Damn it I wasn't going to rant. Sorry but I am going to let it stand. Forgive me for wasting you time.
Whatever
Well as the title says I am bust, broke, nearly penniless. I just got paid and after making sure I have gas money for the next two weeks to get to and from work I have not much left. I have had to push off paying some bills and just got an email from Stand Up about my account being past due.
Yeah it sucks and I am feeling a little down on myself at the moment. I mean what good is it to be employed if you still are broke and unable to cover your bills.
Meh I really don't want to get into that here. I did it years ago and basically bored myself and everyone else to tears. Life sucks and that is that.
I could go on for hours and pages on my view of the world right now. Again it is pointless and futile.
Well the real suck news is that I will have to curtail most of my trips to Lansing. So you won't be seeing me for the next couple of weeks. I do plan on making it out to Supers on Sunday and I am going to squeak out getting to Transformers on Monday, after that I will be going to work and then sitting home.
Yup that is my life in a nutshell. Just like my father before me. Work, eat, sleep. Yes just live to work for someone else. As far as dreaming is concerned I am going to take a hint from my sleep and quit it. What is the point. In my experience they are good for is wasting a lot of time and effort to try and make them real only to have them ripped away and torn to shreds in front of you by bastards that don't deserve to breath let alone live.
Damn it I wasn't going to rant. Sorry but I am going to let it stand. Forgive me for wasting you time.
Whatever
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Matt-Man flies high
Hail and well met
Wow things have been running past at break neck speed and I seem to be in like neutral or something. I know this move thing is driving me crazy on some levels cause no matter how hard I try I just don't seem to be getting ahead. Also I have some other brands in the fire but now the wood is running out. Stupid jobs and not giving hours. The more I try and get done the less gets accomplished. I don't even have 4 different campaigns this summer and I still seem to be lost, in a haze.
On the plus side I have more energy then usual and don't find my self getting tired as much other then the lack of sleep. That can be addressed though. I am feeling healthy and not having as bad a allergy season as I used to.
I do miss swimming though. I need to get over to the pool at least once this season.
OH just to let people know that are going to be around this weekend Terri is coming down either Saturday after work or Sunday in the morning. She is bringing Grizzly down so we will be limited in what we do but she did mention doing the pool ;) Yes I do have a sick mind. Anyway if anyone is around I don't know what is going on for sure but keep me in the loop so I can make adjustments to whatever we are doing.
So I went and saw Rise of the Silver Surfer. I liked it as a sequel and thought it was decent. No it was not a perfect depiction of the comic book...but how would that even be possible? I mean really if they were doing a literal depiction then it would have been the Mole Man and not Galactius in this film. Oh yeah that would have been worth seeing, like the most lame villain in the marvel universe even with his recent return in ...I don't know what the story line is but he is still lame. I for one am glad they did decide to tackle the Surfer and I believe they did a good job. And with the pop up at the end of the movie we can rest assured that he will make his return and possibly even of Galactius. I had a good time and like it so that is what matters.
I am looking forward to Transformers and the Golden Compass. I still want to track down Black Sheep and see it.
I also want to get the Supers Game off the Ground better and move the story forward. I do have to talk to you Ben and get you the information on the Freehold. Also I have to find out which ones of you may be considering joining or not. I know Archer is in but what about the rest? I know all of you don't have access to this blog but spread the word amongst those that don't and let me know. I will also post something on the boards.
Ok well I am done blogging right now. I will see everyone tomorrow if Fading Suns is going on otherwise I plan on getting wet...IN THE POOL YOU SICKOS!
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Wow things have been running past at break neck speed and I seem to be in like neutral or something. I know this move thing is driving me crazy on some levels cause no matter how hard I try I just don't seem to be getting ahead. Also I have some other brands in the fire but now the wood is running out. Stupid jobs and not giving hours. The more I try and get done the less gets accomplished. I don't even have 4 different campaigns this summer and I still seem to be lost, in a haze.
On the plus side I have more energy then usual and don't find my self getting tired as much other then the lack of sleep. That can be addressed though. I am feeling healthy and not having as bad a allergy season as I used to.
I do miss swimming though. I need to get over to the pool at least once this season.
OH just to let people know that are going to be around this weekend Terri is coming down either Saturday after work or Sunday in the morning. She is bringing Grizzly down so we will be limited in what we do but she did mention doing the pool ;) Yes I do have a sick mind. Anyway if anyone is around I don't know what is going on for sure but keep me in the loop so I can make adjustments to whatever we are doing.
So I went and saw Rise of the Silver Surfer. I liked it as a sequel and thought it was decent. No it was not a perfect depiction of the comic book...but how would that even be possible? I mean really if they were doing a literal depiction then it would have been the Mole Man and not Galactius in this film. Oh yeah that would have been worth seeing, like the most lame villain in the marvel universe even with his recent return in ...I don't know what the story line is but he is still lame. I for one am glad they did decide to tackle the Surfer and I believe they did a good job. And with the pop up at the end of the movie we can rest assured that he will make his return and possibly even of Galactius. I had a good time and like it so that is what matters.
I am looking forward to Transformers and the Golden Compass. I still want to track down Black Sheep and see it.
I also want to get the Supers Game off the Ground better and move the story forward. I do have to talk to you Ben and get you the information on the Freehold. Also I have to find out which ones of you may be considering joining or not. I know Archer is in but what about the rest? I know all of you don't have access to this blog but spread the word amongst those that don't and let me know. I will also post something on the boards.
Ok well I am done blogging right now. I will see everyone tomorrow if Fading Suns is going on otherwise I plan on getting wet...IN THE POOL YOU SICKOS!
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Matt-Man Double Dips...
NO I DON'T MEAN IN THAT WAY! YOU SICKOS!!
No I was on line and happened to find this and it looks hilarious! Take a look. I have to find a theater to see it in.
http://www.blacksheep-themovie.com/
No I was on line and happened to find this and it looks hilarious! Take a look. I have to find a theater to see it in.
http://www.blacksheep-themovie.com/
So Who is this Matt-Man anyway?
Hail and well met.
Have you ever had a moment when all the fragments of reality that you thought you understood jumped up and came together for a split second to give you a tremendous "STUPID IN THE HEAD!" (a blow across the back of the head by a loved one for doing something really detrimental or plain dumb) . Well that happened today. I have to say that for maybe the third or forth time I got pulled up by the short hairs.
Now I really don't feel ready to completely explain the circumstances around this event but I can express the meaning of this event. Yeah it sounds vague and cryptic but that is what makes it fun :)
A series of events today forced me to reevaluate my outlook on life and the way I am living it. Well there was a GIANT discrepancy between the two. I did something that made no sense. I take things in my life seriously and devote the time I need to them. But time and time again I find I come up short when deadlines come. I had one of those things happen today and I really didn't want this situation to pass me by because I failed to live up to my obligation. As I thought about it I came face to face with the truth that although I take these things seriously, I don't take my life seriously at all. I don't have much respect for my life or the time I have been given. I didn't put it together that I had to manage my time so I could do the things that needed to be done, do them right and not just focus all the time to get something trivial done right now. In the end no matter my intentions I fail to accomplish the things I have to set forth to get done. It also follows that at the end of the day I am unreliable even though I really did intend to get things done.
Well I have decided to respect my life a little more and as such do more to manage my time to accomplish those things that I have promised to do by the time I said I would do them. I will spend the time to prepare for those things that I am going to do.
I know that it is not going to be an easy road and it will up to me to do what is needed to be done.
I have to give thanks to the universe and the creator for giving me that little bit of clarity. Now I have to do all that I can to make the most of it.
I cannot wait for certain events to come to fruition so that I can share what is going on. Some may think I am crazy but trust me I am wide awake and my eyes are wide open. But anymore would give it away.
I thank all of you for being my family, friends and more. I love you Terri!
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Have you ever had a moment when all the fragments of reality that you thought you understood jumped up and came together for a split second to give you a tremendous "STUPID IN THE HEAD!" (a blow across the back of the head by a loved one for doing something really detrimental or plain dumb) . Well that happened today. I have to say that for maybe the third or forth time I got pulled up by the short hairs.
Now I really don't feel ready to completely explain the circumstances around this event but I can express the meaning of this event. Yeah it sounds vague and cryptic but that is what makes it fun :)
A series of events today forced me to reevaluate my outlook on life and the way I am living it. Well there was a GIANT discrepancy between the two. I did something that made no sense. I take things in my life seriously and devote the time I need to them. But time and time again I find I come up short when deadlines come. I had one of those things happen today and I really didn't want this situation to pass me by because I failed to live up to my obligation. As I thought about it I came face to face with the truth that although I take these things seriously, I don't take my life seriously at all. I don't have much respect for my life or the time I have been given. I didn't put it together that I had to manage my time so I could do the things that needed to be done, do them right and not just focus all the time to get something trivial done right now. In the end no matter my intentions I fail to accomplish the things I have to set forth to get done. It also follows that at the end of the day I am unreliable even though I really did intend to get things done.
Well I have decided to respect my life a little more and as such do more to manage my time to accomplish those things that I have promised to do by the time I said I would do them. I will spend the time to prepare for those things that I am going to do.
I know that it is not going to be an easy road and it will up to me to do what is needed to be done.
I have to give thanks to the universe and the creator for giving me that little bit of clarity. Now I have to do all that I can to make the most of it.
I cannot wait for certain events to come to fruition so that I can share what is going on. Some may think I am crazy but trust me I am wide awake and my eyes are wide open. But anymore would give it away.
I thank all of you for being my family, friends and more. I love you Terri!
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Friday, June 08, 2007
Matt-Man is Matt-Man- Except No Imitations
Hail and well met
Yup I have decided to re-commit myself to being the superhero that I am. No this doesn't mean that I am not feeling the feelings that I spoke of in my earlier post. What it means is how I am choosing to deal with those feelings.
I am thinking like a superhero! I am going to overcome them in a spectacular way that proves my wits and skills are a match for anything I face. That is what being a superhero is all about.
Lets face it, Super Heroes are not just a cape and powers. There are any number of heroes out there that don't even have super powers to speak of. What really separates Super Heroes from mundanes is how they think. When Spider-man realized he had powers he did what any normal thinking person would, how do I make money with these. Well we know that in the story he didn't stick with that game plan. Instead he decided to do something crazy and insane. He put on a costume and fought bad guys. Now someone out there is going to say that it is all a comic book and has not standing in everyday life...
BULLSHIT!
If you think that is true then ask yourself this. With no powers at all and only the limits of mundane science would you fight crime? Well everyday men and women get up and don their "costumes" and do just that. They are called Police officers. Hey what about running into a burning building to save someone? Yeah firemen.
What about going against the universal belief that something cannot be done. So ingrained in the world is this idea that every top person in that field denounces it as impossible and seeking to do it is grounds for commitment into a facility for the criminally insane.
Well that one has several different answers. The Wright brothers, Thomas Eddison, Alexander Graham Bell just to name a few. These people all did exactly the opposite of what the common consensus was. More importantly they succeeded!
You see this is why I believe in championing imagination and creativity. I don't know how but I am going to make it and make it BIG.
Get ready out there cause I am putting on the Matt-Man costume and kicking some villainous evil stinky ass.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!!
Yup I have decided to re-commit myself to being the superhero that I am. No this doesn't mean that I am not feeling the feelings that I spoke of in my earlier post. What it means is how I am choosing to deal with those feelings.
I am thinking like a superhero! I am going to overcome them in a spectacular way that proves my wits and skills are a match for anything I face. That is what being a superhero is all about.
Lets face it, Super Heroes are not just a cape and powers. There are any number of heroes out there that don't even have super powers to speak of. What really separates Super Heroes from mundanes is how they think. When Spider-man realized he had powers he did what any normal thinking person would, how do I make money with these. Well we know that in the story he didn't stick with that game plan. Instead he decided to do something crazy and insane. He put on a costume and fought bad guys. Now someone out there is going to say that it is all a comic book and has not standing in everyday life...
BULLSHIT!
If you think that is true then ask yourself this. With no powers at all and only the limits of mundane science would you fight crime? Well everyday men and women get up and don their "costumes" and do just that. They are called Police officers. Hey what about running into a burning building to save someone? Yeah firemen.
What about going against the universal belief that something cannot be done. So ingrained in the world is this idea that every top person in that field denounces it as impossible and seeking to do it is grounds for commitment into a facility for the criminally insane.
Well that one has several different answers. The Wright brothers, Thomas Eddison, Alexander Graham Bell just to name a few. These people all did exactly the opposite of what the common consensus was. More importantly they succeeded!
You see this is why I believe in championing imagination and creativity. I don't know how but I am going to make it and make it BIG.
Get ready out there cause I am putting on the Matt-Man costume and kicking some villainous evil stinky ass.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!!
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Matt-Man Runs Out of Gas
Hail and well met
No I did not actually run out of gas. It is a metaphor for what I am feeling right now. I have been reading up on some blogs and ran into an interesting metaphor as well, one that kind of parallels my feelings.
In some ways I find that I am in my metaphorical car that now has no gas and find that even if I did I don't know where the hell I am going. That really frustrates me to the core. I had so many dreams and I thought I still did but I find that I really don't believe in them much any more. I have this great game (at least that is what everyone says to me after they play it or see it) but yet not one person really seems interested in making it with me. So what the hell is the point? I don't have the cash to fund it so it is floating in limbo.
But here is the thing. I cannot give up on it. I tried just now to write that it was dead and inside of me I screamed. I have to hold on to my dreams and believe that I will one day see them made manifest.
I have my job... Yeah believe me that if I wanted to sell my soul and life to the Post Office I could have a crappy job that will pay me maybe 40 or 50 grand a year. Now if anyone really knows the job market and the cost of living they realize that that is not a good wage. It basically just covers that basics and leaves nothing else. Yes there is sick and vacation leave but the hoops can be a real bitch. For me it just doesn't equal out to being chained six days a week to a job that can fluctuate everyday from reasonable to insane.
Oh and then you have the Union.
Now don't get me wrong it has a place. I personally joined even though I didn't have to but here is the crux of my problem. For all that it does to make sure we are represented it also protects those that don't deserve to stay employed. I see it every day, people not doing their job and making everyone else work harder for no more cash to make up the difference.
God I hate bitching about having a job but all I see is a set of chains and bars that will have me kneeling 20 more years of my life away whilst getting me no further to my dreams. I don't want to end up a bitter heartless self centered bastard. I see the world and I want to live in it as a participant not a passenger.
GAHHHHHH I won't! I have options and I plan on exercising them to the extreme. I have been sitting back and playing it safe. Well fuck that couch. It hasn't done squat for me so far so there is no reason to keep it up anymore.
It is time to become dangerous and do dangerous things.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
No I did not actually run out of gas. It is a metaphor for what I am feeling right now. I have been reading up on some blogs and ran into an interesting metaphor as well, one that kind of parallels my feelings.
In some ways I find that I am in my metaphorical car that now has no gas and find that even if I did I don't know where the hell I am going. That really frustrates me to the core. I had so many dreams and I thought I still did but I find that I really don't believe in them much any more. I have this great game (at least that is what everyone says to me after they play it or see it) but yet not one person really seems interested in making it with me. So what the hell is the point? I don't have the cash to fund it so it is floating in limbo.
But here is the thing. I cannot give up on it. I tried just now to write that it was dead and inside of me I screamed. I have to hold on to my dreams and believe that I will one day see them made manifest.
I have my job... Yeah believe me that if I wanted to sell my soul and life to the Post Office I could have a crappy job that will pay me maybe 40 or 50 grand a year. Now if anyone really knows the job market and the cost of living they realize that that is not a good wage. It basically just covers that basics and leaves nothing else. Yes there is sick and vacation leave but the hoops can be a real bitch. For me it just doesn't equal out to being chained six days a week to a job that can fluctuate everyday from reasonable to insane.
Oh and then you have the Union.
Now don't get me wrong it has a place. I personally joined even though I didn't have to but here is the crux of my problem. For all that it does to make sure we are represented it also protects those that don't deserve to stay employed. I see it every day, people not doing their job and making everyone else work harder for no more cash to make up the difference.
God I hate bitching about having a job but all I see is a set of chains and bars that will have me kneeling 20 more years of my life away whilst getting me no further to my dreams. I don't want to end up a bitter heartless self centered bastard. I see the world and I want to live in it as a participant not a passenger.
GAHHHHHH I won't! I have options and I plan on exercising them to the extreme. I have been sitting back and playing it safe. Well fuck that couch. It hasn't done squat for me so far so there is no reason to keep it up anymore.
It is time to become dangerous and do dangerous things.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Matt-Man and the Whirwind
Hail and well met
Well it has been a LONG time since my last post. I have been running around like a chicken with its head cut off. Between getting ready for loth and then going to preparing for the bachelor party that took place over the weekend not to mention trying to get my shit organized so I can move out in a couple of weeks. I have been going crazy. No literally I have been really losing it. Part of me thinks that I am not ready for moving out and as of late I have started to agree. I have so much stuff to do and every time I start to do it I get exhausted and tired. In some respects it feels like depression and others are something I am not familiar with at all.
Meh what does it matter.
Well speaking of loth I have to say it was AMAZING!!!! I love that place and look forward to going again soon. Everything about it just allows me to feel better about everything. I know I slept better then I have in a while. I did not make it down to the creek this time but next time for sure. I bought a sarong (not sure of the spelling but the computer is not correcting me so maybe I got it right) which is a common garment from south Asia, most notably from Malay. It is a simple rectangle of cloth that is tied at the waist and can be viewed as a skirt of sorts although it is worn by both men and women. It is quite comfortable and very easy to keep clean. I think I will be wearing them quite a lot in the future.
I haven't had the time to speak with anyone since Friday so I hope the rest of the weekend went well. It was ok here. I got home late Friday night and got right to bed to prepare to work on Saturday. That was ok but I was totally exhausted by the time I got home. I ended up falling in and out of consciousness until I finally crashed into the bed around midnight. Then got up and went over the P's house (still hard not to call it home) to get packed for the trip out to my friend Joe's house for the bachelor party. It was a blast. Got to see almost the whole group from the old days and catch up. I would go into details but what happens at bachelor parties must stay at bachelor parties. It is a law I think and I would not want to be guilty of breaking the law. Nope it is not good for business for a super hero to go around breaking the law. Suffice it to say that everyone had a blast. Oh and in case you were wondering...NO we did not have stripers or porn or any of the usual sex related stuff that goes on at bachelor parties. We gamed and talked and drank which about covers the majority of the events of the evening.
Well the party ended on Monday morning cause we had to vacate the lodge we were staying in. I rolled back into new Matt-cave somewhere around 1pm Monday and pretty much crashed into the couch then the bed and just recuperated from the last 6 days.
For all those that may have been looking for me I apologize for not communicating. I have been so tired I have not had the energy to call anyone back. I know I missed Nick this weekend but it could not be helped.
As far as everything else is concerned it is what it is.
I don't know what to think anymore about anything. I just feel so blah about everything. I start getting worked up about something and then BLAM it just crashes big time and I lose all enthusiasm. I do know that the weather is partially to blame cause I HATE hot weather. Warm is not bad but HOT sucks not to mention the humidity. I just hate sweating and being sticky.
Gahhh enough of the bitching and belly aching. I have better things to do.
I will see everyone wednesday for War Machine. I may not play this week due the fact that I am going to be working on my stuff tomorrow but I do want to show up. I have found a shit ton of stuff for making scenery and want to see it go to good use. So I plan on bringing all of it I can and seeing if Val thinks it can be used and when it can be made cause I don't plan on keeping it unless it is used soon.
Ok well I am done typing for now. I will talk to type to all real soon.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Well it has been a LONG time since my last post. I have been running around like a chicken with its head cut off. Between getting ready for loth and then going to preparing for the bachelor party that took place over the weekend not to mention trying to get my shit organized so I can move out in a couple of weeks. I have been going crazy. No literally I have been really losing it. Part of me thinks that I am not ready for moving out and as of late I have started to agree. I have so much stuff to do and every time I start to do it I get exhausted and tired. In some respects it feels like depression and others are something I am not familiar with at all.
Meh what does it matter.
Well speaking of loth I have to say it was AMAZING!!!! I love that place and look forward to going again soon. Everything about it just allows me to feel better about everything. I know I slept better then I have in a while. I did not make it down to the creek this time but next time for sure. I bought a sarong (not sure of the spelling but the computer is not correcting me so maybe I got it right) which is a common garment from south Asia, most notably from Malay. It is a simple rectangle of cloth that is tied at the waist and can be viewed as a skirt of sorts although it is worn by both men and women. It is quite comfortable and very easy to keep clean. I think I will be wearing them quite a lot in the future.
I haven't had the time to speak with anyone since Friday so I hope the rest of the weekend went well. It was ok here. I got home late Friday night and got right to bed to prepare to work on Saturday. That was ok but I was totally exhausted by the time I got home. I ended up falling in and out of consciousness until I finally crashed into the bed around midnight. Then got up and went over the P's house (still hard not to call it home) to get packed for the trip out to my friend Joe's house for the bachelor party. It was a blast. Got to see almost the whole group from the old days and catch up. I would go into details but what happens at bachelor parties must stay at bachelor parties. It is a law I think and I would not want to be guilty of breaking the law. Nope it is not good for business for a super hero to go around breaking the law. Suffice it to say that everyone had a blast. Oh and in case you were wondering...NO we did not have stripers or porn or any of the usual sex related stuff that goes on at bachelor parties. We gamed and talked and drank which about covers the majority of the events of the evening.
Well the party ended on Monday morning cause we had to vacate the lodge we were staying in. I rolled back into new Matt-cave somewhere around 1pm Monday and pretty much crashed into the couch then the bed and just recuperated from the last 6 days.
For all those that may have been looking for me I apologize for not communicating. I have been so tired I have not had the energy to call anyone back. I know I missed Nick this weekend but it could not be helped.
As far as everything else is concerned it is what it is.
I don't know what to think anymore about anything. I just feel so blah about everything. I start getting worked up about something and then BLAM it just crashes big time and I lose all enthusiasm. I do know that the weather is partially to blame cause I HATE hot weather. Warm is not bad but HOT sucks not to mention the humidity. I just hate sweating and being sticky.
Gahhh enough of the bitching and belly aching. I have better things to do.
I will see everyone wednesday for War Machine. I may not play this week due the fact that I am going to be working on my stuff tomorrow but I do want to show up. I have found a shit ton of stuff for making scenery and want to see it go to good use. So I plan on bringing all of it I can and seeing if Val thinks it can be used and when it can be made cause I don't plan on keeping it unless it is used soon.
Ok well I am done typing for now. I will talk to type to all real soon.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Monday, May 21, 2007
Matt-Man and the Grand Trip
Hail and well met
This post is a long time in coming but that could not be helped. I am currently sitting in front of my friends computer in what will soon by my domicile. I am so tired lately but I figured out why. I have been trying to do everything right now, move in, pack to move in, watch the house, prep for Loth, pack for Loth, and a host of other things. I realized today that I cannot do all of these things all at the same time since most of them are exclusive things. So I have decided to stop trying and pick one then another and another until they are done, making sure to do them in an order that is concurrent with the coming events. So the trying to move in will have to wait until I have packed to move in, the watching the house must take precedent over packing (since I am here not at the Parents house) and most importantly I must prepare for Loth since I am leaving on Wednesday...OMG THAT IS ONLY TWO DAYS AWAY!!!!!!!!
What the heck am I doing on this computer I have so much to get done! Sorry to be abrupt but I have to get to work. See all as time permits.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
This post is a long time in coming but that could not be helped. I am currently sitting in front of my friends computer in what will soon by my domicile. I am so tired lately but I figured out why. I have been trying to do everything right now, move in, pack to move in, watch the house, prep for Loth, pack for Loth, and a host of other things. I realized today that I cannot do all of these things all at the same time since most of them are exclusive things. So I have decided to stop trying and pick one then another and another until they are done, making sure to do them in an order that is concurrent with the coming events. So the trying to move in will have to wait until I have packed to move in, the watching the house must take precedent over packing (since I am here not at the Parents house) and most importantly I must prepare for Loth since I am leaving on Wednesday...OMG THAT IS ONLY TWO DAYS AWAY!!!!!!!!
What the heck am I doing on this computer I have so much to get done! Sorry to be abrupt but I have to get to work. See all as time permits.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Matt-Man and the nature of change
Hail and well met
Man when things decide to get strange they don't do it half assed do they. I have had things turned upside down and sideways in the last 3 days. In many ways I am still reeling from the situation. I don't want to go into the details yet cause they are delicate and personal on an extreme level.
I am just saying this cause it is going to really affect me. I may be out of it for a couple of weeks. So if I seem lost or crazy just mention it and I will do what I can do to refocus on what is going on.
Oh and no I don't have some crazy illness nor does anyone in my family.
Later all
Man when things decide to get strange they don't do it half assed do they. I have had things turned upside down and sideways in the last 3 days. In many ways I am still reeling from the situation. I don't want to go into the details yet cause they are delicate and personal on an extreme level.
I am just saying this cause it is going to really affect me. I may be out of it for a couple of weeks. So if I seem lost or crazy just mention it and I will do what I can do to refocus on what is going on.
Oh and no I don't have some crazy illness nor does anyone in my family.
Later all
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Matt-Man on Movies
Hail and well met
Ok so as I take yet another break from packing my life away I find that there is a subject that I have been lacks on. That is the subject of a particular movie that went unoticed by myself and others. It slipped under the radar, hell it has super stealth technology. The movie of which I speak is called "FANBOYS".
I will not even try and explain it to you all I can do is lead you to the water of life but you have to decide to jump in an drink. Here a some links and if you are in the area let me know cause I have a movie with the trailer on it. Hell if you know anyone with "Pulse" the American release it is the first trailer on the film.
Here is the IMDB entry and here is one of the only places I have found the trailer online
So that is all the time I have for now. Have to get back to packing my life away.
See all as time permits.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Ok so as I take yet another break from packing my life away I find that there is a subject that I have been lacks on. That is the subject of a particular movie that went unoticed by myself and others. It slipped under the radar, hell it has super stealth technology. The movie of which I speak is called "FANBOYS".
I will not even try and explain it to you all I can do is lead you to the water of life but you have to decide to jump in an drink. Here a some links and if you are in the area let me know cause I have a movie with the trailer on it. Hell if you know anyone with "Pulse" the American release it is the first trailer on the film.
Here is the IMDB entry and here is one of the only places I have found the trailer online
So that is all the time I have for now. Have to get back to packing my life away.
See all as time permits.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Monday, May 07, 2007
Matt-Man and the Task of Packing
Hail and well met
Today is the first day that I am starting to gather all of my stuff and get it ready for the impending move. Now I know that I have had many years to accumulate stuff but I never really realized how much stuff I have laying around here collecting dust until now.
Wow there is so much stuff that I have to muck through. Stuff that I haven't touched or looked at for years. Part of me wants to keep it and try and finish it but another says "Hey you are never going to get to it, so get rid of it and lighten the load". So now I have to decided the criteria for either keeping or tossing stuff. I suppose I knew deep down it was going to come to this but just didn't want to except it.
Anyway right now I am taking a break cause it is hard going through all of it. There are a lot of memories tied to some of that stuff and at times it is like swatting at flies while I am trying to work. Never the less I have to get it done. I figure I will be selling some of it so it can go to good use somewhere.
Other then that I am doing quite well. Hoping to see Spiderman 3 tomorrow with Mikey. I don't know what it is but I know I have been waiting for this film but it ain't crucial. Some films I want to run out and see right away but not this one. In fact I have to say that there are no films right now that I am really excited about.
I am set for going to Lothlorien and will have my registration in later today. I will also be sending out the reply to the wedding invitation for Joe and Allison's wedding on the 16th of June. Also good to go for the bachelor party. It should be good times all around.
Everyone is getting ready for the summer return of the 37 inch gamers. I have to get cracking on the story for the super hero game I am running. Funny how time flies by when you have stuff to do.
All in all things are good. Some feeling of pause with the move coming though. I guess it is normal with a change of this magnitude. Transition is the word I am looking for. I am in a transitional phase and it requires some patience as it takes form and effect.
Not much more to say right now. Will talk or type to everyone soon.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Today is the first day that I am starting to gather all of my stuff and get it ready for the impending move. Now I know that I have had many years to accumulate stuff but I never really realized how much stuff I have laying around here collecting dust until now.
Wow there is so much stuff that I have to muck through. Stuff that I haven't touched or looked at for years. Part of me wants to keep it and try and finish it but another says "Hey you are never going to get to it, so get rid of it and lighten the load". So now I have to decided the criteria for either keeping or tossing stuff. I suppose I knew deep down it was going to come to this but just didn't want to except it.
Anyway right now I am taking a break cause it is hard going through all of it. There are a lot of memories tied to some of that stuff and at times it is like swatting at flies while I am trying to work. Never the less I have to get it done. I figure I will be selling some of it so it can go to good use somewhere.
Other then that I am doing quite well. Hoping to see Spiderman 3 tomorrow with Mikey. I don't know what it is but I know I have been waiting for this film but it ain't crucial. Some films I want to run out and see right away but not this one. In fact I have to say that there are no films right now that I am really excited about.
I am set for going to Lothlorien and will have my registration in later today. I will also be sending out the reply to the wedding invitation for Joe and Allison's wedding on the 16th of June. Also good to go for the bachelor party. It should be good times all around.
Everyone is getting ready for the summer return of the 37 inch gamers. I have to get cracking on the story for the super hero game I am running. Funny how time flies by when you have stuff to do.
All in all things are good. Some feeling of pause with the move coming though. I guess it is normal with a change of this magnitude. Transition is the word I am looking for. I am in a transitional phase and it requires some patience as it takes form and effect.
Not much more to say right now. Will talk or type to everyone soon.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
A Matt-Man for all seasons
Hail and well met
Once again I sit here in front of the computer typing into it letting anyone and everyone out there what is going on in my life.
And why not? I think my life is interesting on many levels so why shouldn't you want to read what is going on? Well for the laughs for one.
Anyway to the point. I have to thank the Creator for smiling down on me. First of all I have the most amazing woman in my life. We talked this past weekend and have decided to work through my stupidity. I thank you sweetie! I really love her and I know it. I only hope that one day I am worthy of having her in my life.
On the other point of my past post. Well I have spoken to a friend of mine and it appears that I will be moving out of here and in with him. When is up in the air right now but the way things seem to be going it will be sooner then later. But that is just a guess as things are still in motion and the future is hard to read.
I am doing ok and things are moving forward on many levels just not as fast as I would like (like that is new? RIGHT) I have some new prospects and plan on going with the flow and seeing where it takes me.
I have to run now as it is time for me to hit the hay as I work tomorrow. I will post again soon.
Until then true believers!
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Once again I sit here in front of the computer typing into it letting anyone and everyone out there what is going on in my life.
And why not? I think my life is interesting on many levels so why shouldn't you want to read what is going on? Well for the laughs for one.
Anyway to the point. I have to thank the Creator for smiling down on me. First of all I have the most amazing woman in my life. We talked this past weekend and have decided to work through my stupidity. I thank you sweetie! I really love her and I know it. I only hope that one day I am worthy of having her in my life.
On the other point of my past post. Well I have spoken to a friend of mine and it appears that I will be moving out of here and in with him. When is up in the air right now but the way things seem to be going it will be sooner then later. But that is just a guess as things are still in motion and the future is hard to read.
I am doing ok and things are moving forward on many levels just not as fast as I would like (like that is new? RIGHT) I have some new prospects and plan on going with the flow and seeing where it takes me.
I have to run now as it is time for me to hit the hay as I work tomorrow. I will post again soon.
Until then true believers!
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Matt-Man trips on his cape
Hail and well met
Things have gone down hill as of late. I won't go into details just yet as some things have yet to be resolved and as such I don't feel comfortable revealing anything just yet.
First of all I screwed up with Terri. It is all my doing. Things are strained between us right now but I am praying we can come out of this stronger then we ever were before. Of course there is the other possibility which I don't wish to talk about but think about every night, which makes sleeping rather hard. I just feel so stupid. I have broken something that was perfect and complete. There is no turning back or fixing it, all that I can pray for is that what was sundered by my act can be
reforged.
Secondly my father decided to let me know that the family is in rather tight financial trouble. That means that I will have to do some quick thinking before things really the fan. That also has been weighing heavy on my mind.
Again I won't go into details more then I have said here, at least not until things get a little more resolved. But as you can guess not the best formula for a good nights sleep nor a good field to cultivate a positive mind set.
I ain't getting down or depressed. Fuck that noise! That will only make the things I fear come to pass. So take that fears and go bug someone else.
We all should never forget that we are the creation of the Creator, Maker, All-Father , Universe or whatever you call it. He don't make things that are flawed or weak and powerless. So all the power we need is within us. That means that there is nothing that any of us can't face and overcome. In other words we are invincible!
So to the world I say bring it on! Cause I am just in the mood to kick some fucking ass! (sorry for all the swearing but it seems appropriate to the situation and mood)
That being said it has taken its toll on my mood and mind so if I seem a little withdrawn or more quiet the usual (if that is even possible) you now know why. Feel free to ask me about it if you like but don't expect a moping, whining, rant. Nope none of that crap from me. I may wane melancholy and a bit morbid but not beaten or defeated cause I am INVINCIBLE! I still feel pain and I suffer for my stupidity but it can only make me stronger.
So I endure. I continue. I plod forward along my blind path to God knows where.
Won't you join me for a stumble?
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
I AM INVINCIBLE!
Things have gone down hill as of late. I won't go into details just yet as some things have yet to be resolved and as such I don't feel comfortable revealing anything just yet.
First of all I screwed up with Terri. It is all my doing. Things are strained between us right now but I am praying we can come out of this stronger then we ever were before. Of course there is the other possibility which I don't wish to talk about but think about every night, which makes sleeping rather hard. I just feel so stupid. I have broken something that was perfect and complete. There is no turning back or fixing it, all that I can pray for is that what was sundered by my act can be
reforged.
Secondly my father decided to let me know that the family is in rather tight financial trouble. That means that I will have to do some quick thinking before things really the fan. That also has been weighing heavy on my mind.
Again I won't go into details more then I have said here, at least not until things get a little more resolved. But as you can guess not the best formula for a good nights sleep nor a good field to cultivate a positive mind set.
I ain't getting down or depressed. Fuck that noise! That will only make the things I fear come to pass. So take that fears and go bug someone else.
We all should never forget that we are the creation of the Creator, Maker, All-Father , Universe or whatever you call it. He don't make things that are flawed or weak and powerless. So all the power we need is within us. That means that there is nothing that any of us can't face and overcome. In other words we are invincible!
So to the world I say bring it on! Cause I am just in the mood to kick some fucking ass! (sorry for all the swearing but it seems appropriate to the situation and mood)
That being said it has taken its toll on my mood and mind so if I seem a little withdrawn or more quiet the usual (if that is even possible) you now know why. Feel free to ask me about it if you like but don't expect a moping, whining, rant. Nope none of that crap from me. I may wane melancholy and a bit morbid but not beaten or defeated cause I am INVINCIBLE! I still feel pain and I suffer for my stupidity but it can only make me stronger.
So I endure. I continue. I plod forward along my blind path to God knows where.
Won't you join me for a stumble?
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
I AM INVINCIBLE!
Friday, April 13, 2007
Matt-Man behind the counter again
Hail and well met
Have to make this quick. Mr.S the current owner of GO Games had surgery on his knee. He was in a lot of pain so he called for help and Matt-Man answered. So here I am behind the counter again, it feels so weird. Not the same as if I ran the place but it does bring back memories.
So the short of it is that I here during the Magic tournament and no Iron Kingdoms...not sure that this was a good idea, but it was the right thing to do.
May the Force be with you...wait what do you need it for I am the one facing down dozens of crazy magic players. May the Force be with me
Excelsior!!!
Have to make this quick. Mr.S the current owner of GO Games had surgery on his knee. He was in a lot of pain so he called for help and Matt-Man answered. So here I am behind the counter again, it feels so weird. Not the same as if I ran the place but it does bring back memories.
So the short of it is that I here during the Magic tournament and no Iron Kingdoms...not sure that this was a good idea, but it was the right thing to do.
May the Force be with you...wait what do you need it for I am the one facing down dozens of crazy magic players. May the Force be with me
Excelsior!!!
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