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Hail and well met


I am wondering why it seems that a reversal of sorts has taken place. In my youth I remember the word "love" being used all the time, in conversations and songs and movies. But these days I am hearing it less and less, and when it is used it seems to be spoken in hushed tones with an air of dirtiness about it. When did "love" become a dirty word?

On the other side of the equation is another four letter word. In my youth this word was all but forbidden. Use of it was shocking and frowned upon. It never ever appeared in titles and rarely in lyrics or lines. Now adays it is everywhere and while it is still not found in titles it is almost a prerequisite for lyrics and movie lines. This word I speak of is "fuck".

Now I am not saying that I don't use it, I do. I am not speaking of censorship either. I am simply saying that it is a strange shift of language that we now find "fuck" almost more acceptable then "love".

Have we decided to adopt a purely sexual and hedonistic way of life and no one told me? Is the act of having sex more important then who it is with? These are the kind of questions that crowd my mind from time to time and more of late.

I have always viewed sex as something that is shared between two people that love (oh that dirty word) each other and wish to share themselves completely, and of course in time to have children (that is what the basic purpose of sex is by the way). I cannot say that I have every really understood this crazy attitude that sex is just sex and should be done whenever with whomever. Maybe it is the ignorance of a virgin speaking but it just doesn't make sense.

I don't look at a woman and immediately concern myself with how I think she might be in bed. Yes I do check them out, it is a natural response in human males. I like the female form, it is one of the most beautiful things in the universe, but it is not the only thing nor the most beautiful. That is reserved for an intangible thing that can take many forms. I speak of "love"(again with that word).

To be honest I had never really understood love very much. I had never felt that way about someone before. I have many friends and I love them but this "love" that I speak of is different. It is something that completely changes your way of thinking and seeing the world. It is a completion of you, on the inside. It makes things make sense that didn't before.

Trust me it is not perfect, it can make things more difficult. Things that made sense now won't, You will find that things that were comfortable before are painful and it can make you crazy. Troubles are par for the course (a golf reference). And there are no guarantees either that the person that you feel for will feel the same for you. I am sure that every psychologist in the world just had their radar pop up. A little screen with a target set on me, saying "Oh goodie anozer vun for ze couch. Zank ze Freud!"

Well put away the stenos boys, cause you I ain't buying.

No I will not try and analyze this feeling away as some latent tension over my need to suck my moms tit, or some such bullshit. It is what it is and no where is it written that everyone will love everyone else in that way. No all we can do when faced with this is to simply accept the fact and meet the other person on their level. If they are willing to be friends then so be it. If they don't want to talk to you at all then walk away. Whatever it is just do it and accept it.

You can want all you want but you had better accept what you can get. Otherwise you end up with nothing at all. And that is spoken from experience.

Love is something that I will hold dear to me. I don't care if it is not stylish or trendy or in. I will hold on to my views of love until I die (probably alone) I just wish that I could find others that felt the same, and that is why this is here.

So I think that I lost my focus but that is not uncommon for me. I tried.

I probably could go on for hours and pages, but I have other things to do.

Woot for working out!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

I love you all (such a dirty old man)