Matt-man VS. The Virus

Hail and well met

Well I have been out of communication for a couple of days due to an incursion of a virus. Not sure where it came from but it is gone now. Had to reformat and reload everything, which really sucks. I have a ton of music that I have to reload and that is going to eat a lot of time one of these days. I really need to acquire a separate hard drive for my music so that I don't have to keep reloading it, not to mention all those important files that I had to scramble or lose.

My friend Jim was able to help me out and now I am back in business.

So I still have that subject that I mentioned earlier to talk about. Well some things have changed slightly since then. Not much but they do force me to reevaluate my position.

I have received an application for the Post Office, which will make getting in much easier. The test info still is in limbo but if they take me on I can take the test later.

No matter what happens, here is what is going to happen this year (even if it kills me). I am going to Carbondale to seek housing and to scope out the local job market, including the postal situation down there. I want to find a apartment and I intend to commute between down there and up here for probably a year. Once I have the year under my belt I will decide what I am doing from there.

I just have to get away from here. To much has hold of me around here. Too many memories, both good and bad. I find there are bars and chains that I have excepted as who I am and what I can/cannot do. The harder I try and break them the more they bind and constrain me. I need to get out on my own and away from these things.

I know that I am going to miss a lot of people. Things are not going to be easy, but that is why I am cohabitating for awhile. I just need to be on my own (meaning away from my parents mostly) providing for myself (which I am almost doing now) and charting my own course (which I am not really doing now).

That is an interesting analogy, charting a course. Sailors use the stars to determine their location and which direction to go in. In much the same way we use the people in our lives like stars. They provide direction and give us an idea of where we are going. Sometimes we need to realize that certain stars (people) are no longer in our skies and we need to stop trying to use them to get our bearing otherwise we go in circles. That is what I am trying to do, clear my sky a little (well two stars in particular) and move on.

Well not as eloquent as I would have liked but there it is. It is open for discussion at any time just ask. I do intend to talk about this other then here, but this seemed a good way to get the message out to everyone all at once without interruption.

I am not just packing up and leaving in the night. I will still be around and I will still hang out.

Well not much more for me to say (bullshit, there is a lot more to say). Well not here anyway (more like the truth). I will see all later this weekend, or as soon as I can make the trip.

Nicky, Joe, Josh I am coming!!!!

Miles and Kristin I am bringing Chris, even if I have to bring an iron lung!!!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!