Matt-Man is Inspriation!!!!

Hail and well met

First off I have to give a shout out to Sara Jay for her recent email containing some amazing posters. I hope she doesn't mind but I am reposting them here for all to see. Hilarious! I laughed harder then I have in a long time.

Okay well it appears that I am having technical difficulties reposting those posters. Grrrrr why cannot things just work.

No matter. Thank you Sara Jay for sharing those with me and everyone you mailed them to. Keep it up cause they are funny.

Now on the the second reason for this post, besides the fact that I haven't posted in awhile. As some of you may know and some may not, in the past I have posted blogs on MySpace that were written adventures of Matt-Man. Several months ago I stopped for several reasons. Among them were a desire to polish the whole thing top to bottom so it worked better, then I wanted to solidify the universe it takes place in and finally I wanted to write the stories with continuity in mind, you know longer story arcs that mesh together not jump around all the time. There were other reasons that remain personal for personal reasons.

Well the time has come for me to kick my butt into gear and get things done. So with that in mind I began to write the adventures again. Originally it was to be returning to MySpace, but due to the interloping of Trans-Dimensional Error Imp Gnomes I have had to move it somewhere I could work everything out as I wished.

So without further ado here is the link to my new blog...

The Adventures of Matt-Man!!!


It is amazing! I even added a soundtrack! So here is to you all taking a look and liking what you see.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-man Addicted to the "YouTube"

Hail and well met

I just can't seem to get enough of watching stuff on YouTube. Here is one I just had to share today.





Laughing as I am typing.

I'm a Matt-Man, yes I am.

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man For Something Completely Different

Hail and well met

I just found these on YouTube and had to share them. Watch and enjoy.







Just one more this time..




These are all done by ItsJustSomeRandomGuy. Look him up to see many many more fun videos.

That is all I wanted to post. See you all later.

Excelsior!!!

Matt-man Bears All!

Hail and well met...

Hail...

HAIL...

Hail?

Ok come out from behind whatever it is you have jumped behind, I was talking metaphorically people. Besides this is a blog, not live and in person. I know the thought of me in all my glory is a frightening thought (right Neal?) but this is a serious post...well as serious as I can muster.

Listen I was reading a blog today and something in it struck me. Then I was working on my MySpace page and something else struck me, HARD. Those things forced me to face something from a new direction and understand what is going on in my life.

As I have stated in recent posts my sense of apathy. How I cannot seem to do anything with real passion or energy. I won't go into the whole thing cause it was long and verbose (like so much of my stuff is) besides that sums it up. Well after reading the blog I started categorizing my pictures on MySpace, I grouped the 37 inch gamers, people I knew from high school and then people from the two stores I worked at/managed. It was while gathering those pictures together I realized something.

I still had strong feeling about the loss of both of those stores, one worse then the other only because I was only assistant manger at the first one; while I ran the second one. It doesn't matter which one hurt more what mattered was that it hurt. I thought I had put these behind me and moved on. It appears that I have not or at least I have not healed from them or something. Then it struck me like a bolt of lighting, an epiphany if you will.

The problem I am having is not that I lack the energy but that I won't/can't/don't invest in anything emotionally, thus the feeling of lifelessness when I do them.

Without investing emotion into something you cannot expect to gain emotion from it, at least not anything that lasts. I know that is true because of what I gained from the time spent working at the stores. I got things out of those experiences, both good and bad but they are there and with me forever. Lately things come and go with little or no lasting impression.

The biggest proof of this is my inability to paint. I have tried on several occasions but again I just lack the energy to get anything accomplished. A few strokes of the brush and then I have to do something else or fall asleep. It is now clear that don't lose energy, there just isn't any there to pull from.

The big question is why? Why am I holding back on investing my emotions into the things that I know I love? What is blocking the flow that was so free before? This is the key and I must figure it out.

What could it be is easy. I answered it myself a second ago when I mentioned the lingering pain from past experiences...oh hell lets be honest cause I missed stating one.

Terri leaving me.

That one hurt and still does on some nights when I am laying in bed alone wishing to hear her voice next to me. Waking up to see her face, her smile and her eyes. God I miss her.

But that is not the point. The fact is I am just not investing my emotions in anything. Well that cannot be true because I do my job with energy and focus. Of course there is little in the way of a threat there as I am over my 1 year anniversary which gives me a little job security. That is not it either, it is more the fact that in all honesty aside from being broke I don't care if I lose that job or not. I don't care if they treat me like shit because I am not there to gain their approval. I don't want to make friends, I am there to work. I do the best I can and if that is not good enough then hard cheese, I don't care. I take a measure of satisfaction in my job and do it well but I take no pride in it. All I do is deliver the mail, like the rest of the quarter of million people that work for the Post Office in their various capacities. I just do my job and sometimes I make mistakes and sometimes I don't, just like anyone else.

Frak it all! I am invisible again.

I think that is what is holding me back. I am afraid of being special, of standing out. It makes me a target and I don't want to get shot again (figuratively speaking of course).

GRRRRRRR!

Well there is only one thing to do then.

STOP IT!

I don't mean going gang busters with my job, I mean with several other aspects of my life that I have let slip away because I know that if pursued there will be a big ole' target painted on my back, my front and all over me. Risk is the thing I am getting at. I am not taking any risks at all. Playing it safe. Lulling myself to sleep with thoughts that if I am patient enough it will all happen. Well that is bull straight from the bull's arse. I have to take risks if I want any of the rewards.

What is that line from "The Sound of Music"

"Nothing comes from nothing, nothing ever could."

If I venture nothing I get nothing, if I do nothing I accomplish nothing. Yeah it means that I don't get hurt, from the outside that is. All the while I am dying a little each and every day on the inside.

I have to fight and struggle and RISK everything. I know there will be pain and loss and failure but I can learn and grow from these. I owe it to myself and everyone that believes in me to do it. I owe it to God because he gave me the ability to do the things I can do.

I just have to be honest here. I don't have a damn clue how to do it.

I will find a way, I have to because I refuse to become a ghost again. I won't. I would rather die and get it over with then go back to that unlife. Since I don't plan on kicking the bucket anytime soon that only leaves me one option.

Get'er done!

I have some work to do. No I have a shit ton of work to do. I had better get started.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!!

Matt-man Says Generation-Shmeneration!

Hail and well met

Welp I was watching something on the computer and a commercial came on and referred to "Generation Z" which got me thinking about the whole labeling thing we have gotten in the habit of doing.

I understand it from a historical stand point but as I look back I realize that it has gone way beyond that. In many cases it appears that people have taken it upon themselves to find out what their "Generation" was all about and tried to life up to it. They have stopped defining themselves as individuals and instead adopt or co-opt the identity of the average person from their "Generation". While they sit around or do whatever they do it is apparent that they are happy as clams in their shells to stop trying to be themselves, individuals and slip into the cookie cutter existence dolled out to them by the "know it alls" whom tell them what it means to be of their "Generation".

I really see it in my generation, that would be the "X'ers" which I didn't really know until doing a little research on the subject. God I love Wikipedia.

Maybe I just don't get it. I have always been outside the "group" so to speak and was quite happy to be there. Being an only child I learned early on to get by on my own, since needing someone else left you vulnerable and incomplete. I mean what happens when someone has life drop in their laps and you are left alone, do you just shut down or do you deal with it? Well I learned to deal with it, on my own. I didn't need to belong to a "group" because I was one, literally, a group of "one";me.

I know that it has severely screwed with my mental and social development. It is probably the main reason I didn't rush off to collage, I didn't need to get away because I had already sequestered myself from the smothering around me. I had, I hate to say this but I see it now quite clearly, convinced myself I was "above" it. I also know I was totally wrong. I had not risen above anything, I had sunken below it. I was off the radar so to speak. Locked away in my room, painting, reading, writing and all the other stuff I did to fill my days and nights while I was alone, avoiding most social interaction.

It is a wonder I didn't end up some crazy basket case sending really nasty stuff through the mail while living in a cabin made from recycled cardboard boxes or something. Luckily I didn't become that although I have no idea what I have become.

In that is the truth of something that tasks me. What have I become? What am I? What am I going to be?

Stupid questions for someone who is 38, or maybe not. I guess that they are common for anyone to ponder at any age. Of course there is the "Mid-life" crisis theory. Yet I know it definitely not that.

I am not ragging on myself. I am not beating myself up. I am just realizing that I may be 38 physically but mentally I really haven't jumped past my mid 20's at best. Don't ask about emotionally, I know I don't.

Things happen for a reason. I know that if I had gone to collage it would have ended in disaster. I mean a real disaster. Were talking about evening news across the world covering the latest details of the crazed happening on that campus where that quiet, reclusive fat kid lost his mind and did something terrible. Trust me I can be honest enough to know I was in no mental or emotional condition for the environment of a campus.

I would have crawled into a shell and locked myself away totally losing touch with humanity not to mention reality. That can only lead to bad places. Trust me I know what lurks in the hearts of men...well at least this man. It would have been scary, no scratch that it would have been totally fracking terrifying.

I digress though as I didn't do any of that. I did manage to get out there a little. I did manage to find friends, something I have a knack for (of course keeping up with them is bit of a problem with me). I have involved myself with my fellow man, a little. I go out...once in awhile. Ok so I don't go looking for companionship and maybe I should.

Crap let me just say it. I am scared of it. Scared of going out into a crowed room of people I don't know and trying to talk to any of them, let alone the women of that crowd.

I am not one for idle banter. I don't chat well. Hell I can barely talk slow enough for anyone to understand and that includes myself. I try but it never works. I end up stuttering if I do and that is something I would love to understand; why do I talk the way I do?. What wires are screwed up in my head that I feel the need to try and speak at the speed of sound. (Ha that was a joke, albeit a bad one)I really have tried to slow down, I notice when I do and I even know when someone won't understand what I am saying. I force myself to slow down and it just causes a traffic jam in my head that comes crashing out of my mouth.

It is probably the second thing I hate about myself. You should all know the first one.

Anyway I again digress from the point and have lost it. No wait that is not true I am trying to escape talking about being mortified of interaction with those I don't know. Trying to weasel out of it. But then again it is my blog and I will quit when I want to. Even if it is an escapist effort to not continue. It fact I am surprised that I haven't stopped and erased this whole thing. Maybe I am trying to work it through. Hopefully I am ready to maybe face it and get over it.

Hmm talking about labeling a generation to my fear of interaction. That is quite a stretch and a little egocentric of me isn't it, turning this post around and about me. I guess I am a little self centered but again it is MY blog, so whatever.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man For Great Justice...

Hail and well met

So here I sit with a heavy heart. I was tooling around IMDB and stumbled upon an entry for the Justice League movie. I had a fear that DC would screw it up and from what I am seeing the gun is loaded and aimed at their foot with the finger flexing.

How can this be you ask. Well it is simple really. They lack the screen presence or standing in the industry to pull it off. Also they lack the patience to do it. Here is my reasoning. Marvel is on the cusp of launching what will be the most amazing franchise in movie history, eclipsing even the Lord of the Rings trilogy. Only because there will most likely be more then three of them and will be surrounded by a mounting number of side movies, including the first films for the main characters. Iron Man was the beginning and I have no doubt it will continue with Hulk, Thor and Captain America when they come out. It won't be the main theme of the film but as with IM it will be laced through the film with a reveal at the end. Marvel is willing to take the time and spend the money to secure a recognized group of actors and then draw them all into one film that everyone will go see because of the previous movies. Not to mention the effort that is being made to make these newer films with attention to the cannon of the comics as well as strong cinematography.

DC is just not being as smart about it. First of all the only two characters from the Justice League that have films are Batman and Superman. Now these are very successful in their own right but there has been little or no attempt to draw them together at all. Then you have the fact that neither of the actors that played the characters are mentioned in the cast listing for the Justice League film. Yeah you heard me right they are casting entirely new and unseen actors for these characters for the movie. So you are going to have confusion and mixed performances (can we say the many faces of Batman which weakened that already weak franchise). Ok so that is big check mark against it but maybe they will make up for it with great writing...NOT. After checking out the two co-writers I can only wonder if they didn't just walk out and toss a lawn dart at people walking by the office. The two are Kirean and Michele Mulroney, a brother and sister team with absolutely no writing history at all and I am not joking. Kirean has some acting under his belt on such blockbusters as "Navy NCIS: Naval Criminal Investigative Service", Greasewood Flat, "Touched by an Angel", "NYPD Blue" and both Star Trek: Next Generation and Enterprise. Oh boy with such MOVIE experience I just know we will have a TOTAL SCREWED UP MESS. If his resume is ok then here is what his sis has done... Sunny & Share Love You (2007) (writer and actress)...yeah that is it. At this point I was seeing a movie ending up like the 1994 Fantastic Four that ends up being given away at conventions for free when you buy some anime porn.

Ok so inexperienced writers and out of the blue casting, maybe the director can pull it off. I mean Marc Singer did a wonderful job on X-Men so there may be a fleck of hope, right? Can I get a HELL NO! The gentleman listed as director is George Miller (II) who has won an Oscar. So what films has he done? Well here is the list from IMDB.

# Happy Feet (2006)
# "HBO First Look" (1 episode, 2006)
- Happy Feet (2006) TV episode

# Babe: Pig in the City (1998)
# 40,000 Years of Dreaming (1997)
# Lorenzo's Oil (1992)

# The Witches of Eastwick (1987)
# Mad Max Beyond Thunderdome (1985)
... aka Mad Max 3
... aka Mad Max III (Philippines: English title)
# "The Last Bastion" (1984) (mini) TV mini-series (co-director)
# Twilight Zone: The Movie (1983) (segment 4)
# "The Dismissal" (1983) (mini) TV mini-series
# Mad Max 2 (1981)
... aka Mad Max 2: The Road Warrior (USA)
... aka The Road Warrior (USA)

Ok not that bad...if you want an 80's style action movie or pathetic schlock. I mean lets face it the last film he did was Happy Feet...HAPPY FEET?!?!?!

In case any of you have not seen it (I pray it is all of you) IT SUCKED. I watched about 1/3 of the film before I had to fake stomach cramps so I could excuse myself and come home, which was not that hard given the insipid, sickeningly thin premise the movie tried to doll out. I won't go any further.

Why does DC have to carry this rivalry with Marvel to this extreme? They should take a long look at the success that Marvel is having and instead of getting jealous or self-righteous, get down to business. Start by getting more of the main characters their own really good films, drop the hints and plant the seeds and then damn well deliver on them. It may take a few years but in the end you will have something that will really work, not some half assed attempt to throw something out there to appease the "fans", which may be what they say to press but really it is a slap in the face.

Unless things really change and soon the Justice League movie will be a lost cause.

On a happy note it is listed as "The project is tabled for now".

Well that about covers it for me. Not the usual fare from this blog but I had to get this off my chest. Personally things are ok. Some hiccups but that is to expected. I will weather them and come out on top as usual.

Oh and anyone not visiting the forum should cause I have posted about an event called "Zombie Fest" in October. Not going to go into details right now, probably in next post, but in a nutshell it is ZOMBIE CONVENTION!!!!!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man...What, you need more?

Hail and well met

Well I sit here typing today with a bit of a conundrum on my hands. You see I found something out this afternoon that should have me devastated. Right now I normally would be stressed out and pissed off, screaming at anything and everything in the 'verse for dumping this on me. Now I will get around to telling you what happened but this has to come first cause it has me, to be honest, scared.

Most of you know me for the light hearted fat man with a penchant for holding in his emotions until he blows (either his top or a gasket...he he he inside joke for now). Not one for handling stress or anger well at all. I try not to vent at anyone cause it is never fair to hurt someone you love for something that is not even remotely their fault and even if it is I tend to turn the other cheek. With all this bottled up emotion I tend to fly off the handle at times over the stupidest things. We all know it is true. Either that or fall into stupid depression from which I have to dig myself out.

Well as I learned what I did this afternoon I expected to sense the coming storm within. I braced myself and even prepared some lines and subjects for my resulting mood. As I stood there and waited for it to come I realized it wasn't. I was shocked but figured it was only a matter of time and it had not fully sunk in. So I went home and waited for it to rise. Time passed as it always does and I find that it is not there at all. Instead I think I feel nothing at all concerning what happened and in a way that worries me more.

You see as of late I have been realizing a new trend in my life. Apathy. A total lack of emotion and desire at anything. I tried with Iron Man and it did excite me a little but as soon as it was over...POOF gone. Nothing is sustained and fades so quickly. I keep trying to work on stuff and quickly fall off into watching something on TV or this blasted computer off the internet (NO ITS NOT PORN!...well not all of it ;) But all kidding aside it worries me that the harder I try and grasp some shred of discipline the easier it slips away.

In the end it worries me that I am falling apart on the inside, fading away. No that is not the right term for it or the idea either. I cannot explain what it is but it bothers me a lot.

So what did I learn this afternoon. Well it seems that my "new" van is not so good. A seal is not working right (hence the gasket joke earlier... come on it was funny)and the cost to figure out what exactly is wrong (not fix it but determine what needs to be fixed that is) would run conservatively around a thousand dollars. Well that is a no brainer. So once again I am on the search for a mail worthy vehicle that I can afford, I haven't even finished paying off this one. You see I should be worked up over all of this and it doesn't even phase me. I don't have any idea where the vehicle could come from nor can I afford another 3 month wonder. Yet here I sit not really caring one bit about it. I plan on just pouring oil down its gullet and drive it only for work. Which should also piss me off as it totally cuts me off from everyone and everything else.

And all I can say is "meh".

I wish life came with a owners manual or at least some helpful tips that popped up when you logged on.

May the Force be with you.

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man Hails Iron Man

Hail and well met

I am glad to say that the movie surpassed the trailer. It was amazing and that could be an understatement. Robert Downey Jr was absolutely perfect as Tony Stark. His attitude, his mannerisms and his quips were an outstanding representation of the comic book character. Gwyneth Paltrow as "Pepper" Potts was an incredible choice, her chemistry with Robert was golden and on the money. Jeff Bridges as Stane was inspired as I did not see it coming and it is a shame his character died because I would love to see him and Tony go toe to toe again. His demeanor and its ability to change both visibly and vocally was amazing. Oh and lets not forget Terrence Howard as Rhodes and although he had only a supporting role it was excellent and planted seeds for the future...can we say "Warmachine"? I knew you could!

I would go into to the special FX but all I have to say is this...

OMG AMAZING!

Yeah that about covers it.

So all in all I have to say that Iron Man was the current best Marvel Movie...cause Hulk is on the way!

Oh and before I forget if you haven't seen the movie yet, go see it and STAY THROUGH THE CREDITS! It is worth it.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man on Cloverfield

Hail and well met.

It has been awhile since I last posted. Things around here are doing well. I am in good health of body, mind and soul. Work is just that, work. I have recently revisited an idea I had last year and this time I have found the right way to go. I am still proceeding slowly and really taking the time to understand what I am getting myself into before I jump in head first and smack the bottom of the pool. It should be interesting to see where this takes me and what I get from it.

Now on to the meaning of the title. Well yesterday I bought the Cloverfield DVD and devoured it all in one sitting, well except for the director commentary. The movie is over 5 months old which is hard to believe that only that much time has past as it felt like almost a year had passed. I was a little disappointed with the DVD as it lacked any of the online material that made the build up for the film so much fun. I know that it would have been difficult to put on the DVD for DVD viewing but still at least mention it if not do a complete special feature on it. What was there was interesting and in some ways added to the fun of the film. Then there were a few things that kind of discolored it a little. No that is not entirely correct as I still fully enjoy the film and I am glad to have purchased it. I guess you could sum up what I am getting at by one statement.

This was not a Giant Monster (or Kaiju) movie but a tragic love story set against the backdrop of a disaster.

Yeah that about puts all the facts of it in order. J.J. Abrams is shown saying that his son and him made a trip to Tokyo and while there visited a number of toy stores. There he viewed that Godzilla was still a major factor in Japanese pop culture. He states that he wishes that America had such a monster, King Kong not withstanding. So he gives the impression that this is what stimulated him to make Cloverfield. Here is where I draw contention with his movie. If he set out to make a Kaiju film then it is without question an absolute and complete failure. As a amateur Kaiju film watcher I can say that hardly any of the required elements were there. Yes there was a giant monster but it had only a supporting part, bordering on bit or walk on if not for some later scenes. The conflict with the monster was no where near the center of the story nor did it recieve more then a passing mention in exposition. The army is seen fighting with it but their tactics and plans are never really shown except for the passing mention of the "Hammer Fall" protocol. While there was plenty of destruction of buildings it lacked the scope of the genre. Oh and the end was worse then spending an evening working with your date towards the big payoff only to have her fall asleep in the first five minutes after getting home. Yes there were a few explosions but those fell far short of the end of the film and the last scene didn't even show the monster. Unfortunately by comparison the American Godzilla was a better Kaiju film then Cloverfield.

Now that being said is Cloverfield a bad movie? Hell no! I loved it for what it was as I said before. It was a tragic love story set against the back drop of this monster rampaging around New York. I began to feel for these characters and wanted to know what was going on. I think the most engaging fact of the film is that I wanted to know more about what happened on the tape from the Conney Island day. I was clamoring for scenes. No I didn't want the whole movie to be about it but I found the contrast was amazing as well as the way it continued to draw you back to the humanity of the main character and his connection with Beth.

I was silently routing him on as he struggled with getting to her. Not to mention that along the way he has been watching his brother and friends die off due to this thing, in one way or another. Oh and did anyone else catch the irony of which one of the group survived...yes someone did survive! I totally missed it in the theaters but it struck me right between the eyes while watching the DVD. Ok for anyone that has not seen this film this could be viewed as a slight spoiler so stop reading and go out and watch the movie then come back and read on.

Lilly survives! The quite beautiful young lady gets on the Chopper and gets away! Someone made it out, just not our hero nor his lady which is why I call it a love story with a tragic end in a most classic way. Another way to put it is to call it a Classic Tragic Love Story or CTLS. Kind of looks like a short hand way to say cutlass.

"I'll take Swords for one billion!"

"What? No Mr.Connery that is S Words not Swords."

Sorry but I get distracted sometimes.

What else can I say about this film. I said I love it and then explained why it was not a Kaiju film but a CTLS. I dropped the bomb that someone survived. Hmm I could go into my thoughts on the little critters that fell off the monster but that is a long rant. I have some other insights on the thought process that went into the monster but again to long for this already long post. So I will let it go at that for now. I do want to share my views on the other aspects of the subject of this film so expect it in the future.

I am going to be seeing Iron Man tonight and I am planning posting on this experience but maybe on until Sunday as I work tomorrow and have gaming tomorrow night.

Looking forward to everyone being home, even if it is only for a short time.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man, Live the Journey!

Hail and well met

Well things are going quite well over here in the new Matt-Cave. I have gotten some things done and a load more to the next level. Not to mention taking a trip this weekend down to Normal IL (although I have to dispute the name cause who decides what is Normal)

Why Normal? Well it was to see two friends that I have not really spent time with since almost three years ago. Chris and Andy Wasowicz were customers at 3D House of Games at first and then developed in to fellow gamers in several RPG campaigns. Of course along they way they also became friends. Several years ago they moved down to Normal to go to school. While there they bought a house and now live there while going to school. They are quite the pair and many a fond memory are attached times spent with them.

Anyway they were having a party (yes one of those wild collage parties) and I was invited. So with a spring in my step I drove two hours down to Normal to get my collage drink on. Ok in truth I wasn't planning on getting hammered just a few cocktails and head back. Well the best laid plans of mice and Matt-Man. First of all I forgot the directions to their house, second I failed to get either ones new phone numbers which left me wandering around the streets of the campus trying desperately to seduce luck into having me stumble on their house. Just as I was considering stopping at the next parking space and getting out to scream "Chris, Andy WHERE ARE YOU?" I received a phone call from Chris and within a few minutes I was there.

Hugs and slugs all around (guys don't do kisses..well unless dinner is involved...WHAT?!). They have a cool house and to be honest I was a bit jealous. Yes it is true I Matt-Man have recently been yearning for a permanent Mat-Cave of my own. Enough of that on with the show. At that time they had a few of those they invited over and introductions were made. I am glad to have met them all. Then it was off to the kitchen, also known as the brewery, for a bomb for which the only name I have is KoKo-bomb because it tasted like chocolate goodness. I will have to get the formula. Then it was on to the jungle juice which tasted like fruit punch, really good fruit punch. Little did I know until later that it was filled with something called everclear. Yeah I know what it is so don't think of posting some wise ass comment. Well two glasses later I was feeling barely anything at all so when a drinking game was called to order I figured in my state I was in good shape to play.


DON'T YOU BELIEVE IT!

I don't know if any of you have ever heard of MAO but it is a crazy game that I love. First of all we were not informed of the rules and had to figure them out as the game went on, which led to a lot more drinking. After three games (I think) I was definitely feeling good. Then it was off to talking and smoking for several hours. When all is said and done I spent the night on their fold out couch as I was in no condition to drive. The next morning I felt ok with only a very light hang over (thank God for water) and when everyone else had roused themselves it was off to breakfast at IHOP. Goodbyes were said and I made the trek back home. Fun times!

So anyway now I am getting ready for a long work week as my regular is going on a mini vacation starting on Thursday and going till the following Wednesday. That will be a nice paycheck.

Hope all is going well for everyone out there.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Clsoetoflostdreams

The Classic IQ Test

My Result: Visionary Philosopher

Your mind's strengths allow you to think ahead of the game — to imagine or anticipate what should come next in just about any situation. Because you're equally skilled in the numerical and verbal universes of the brain, you can draw from multiple sources of information to come up with great ideas. The timelessness of your vision and the balance between your various skills are what make you a Visionary Philosopher.



In addition to your strengths in math and linguistics, you have a knack for matching and anticipating patterns. These skills and your uncanny ability to detect the underlying blueprint of most of life's situations add to your Visionary Philosopher mind.
Two philosophers who share the same combination of skills you possess are Plato and Benedict Spinoza. Spinoza had insight into how things worked in the world. He could envision a future based on the patterns he saw in life, and used mathematical logic as a structure within which to present his philosophical arguments. With that base he was able to use logic to formulate his theories. Borrowing from his linguistic strengths he wrote eloquent texts and, therefore, was able to bring his philosophical ideas and structure to the rest of the world. His story exemplifies the talents that are present in the Visionary Philosopher intellectual type.



Whatever you decide to do in life, you've got a powerful mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a wide variety of ways. You can expand your mind to understand a situation. Your strong balance of math and verbal skills will help you explain things to others. For example, if you were on an archaeological dig and discovered an object, you could probably use your deductive powers to figure out not only what the object was but also how it was used. Given your ability to put things together, you are more than capable of inventing a life plan that is in synch with your perspective on how things were, how they are, and how they might be one day.

What are you?
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Matt-Man....RISE!

Hail and well met!

I come to you tonight not from a borrowed computer but instead from the one and only Matt-Comp 5000! Oh yes the freedom of being able to go where I will when I will is such a freeing experience. Now don't get me wrong, I am in no way saying that anyone that allowed me to use their computer was being stingy or mean about it at all. Bill has been a saint about letting me use his computer and I thank him for it.

THANKS BILL!!!!!

It is just that there were things I wanted to do and couldn't. So now I surf with wild abandon from www.anteater.com to www.zebulon.com.

This will vastly improve my ability to work on the JFL and all related material. I have made some logo ideas, take a look.


This one is cool but I don't know about the 3 colors I have another one just in black.
Classic 80's T-shirt logo

What kind of idea would it be without a shield.


Ah the new classic slant logo.

Yup these are all ideas I am thinking of going with. Let me know what you think cause they will be available at Cafepress.com real soon...as soon I figure out how to get it to take the items I make and put them in the damn storefront! I can be so ignorant sometimes. But as Bill said earlier "It just takes some practice and things get easier."

So what else can I regale you with. Hmm not much really. I am doing ok and things are moving along rather well. I should be getting some stuff off to the guys in St.Louis real soon which get things one step closer to realization.

Yeah right now it is pretty smooth sailing. Oh my Itunes is having a problem and I gots to have my tunes so adieu for now.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man, a Call to Arms!

Hail and well met

To all my good friends and anyone else that reads this blog (I know there are some out there which is weird) I am sending out a summons. A few years ago while sitting with a friend of mine I came up with an idea. You see he as well am myself had discovered that no matter what we always seemed invisible to women. In a moment of inspiration I came up with something of a support group/sarcastic release for this feeling. After several hours of thinking about it I have decided to chuck my pride aside (it just keeps getting in the way anyway) and put it out there.

In the next few days or even weeks (depending on my schedule) I will be unveiling a Blog where I will start posting on my feelings concerning this. I also plan on creating a group of products on Cafe Press based on the theme. I may even look into a web site for it as well, but right now it is just the beginning and I don't want to overwhelm myself.

So with out any further ado I introduce to you...

The Justa Friends League!

May the Force be with you!

Excelsior!!!

Who Wouldn't Fight for Matt-Man?

Hail and well met

I must thank both Nicky and Ferric for their responses and their support. It does mean a lot to me.

I said I was going to post about my trip down to Carbondale. I went with Neal for two days. We got down there late Tuesday night and stayed through Thursday. It was a blast and I had an awesome time. I got to see Nicky, Chris, Joe and the whole gang. Being down there went a long way to rejuvenating me both physically and spiritually. Of course when I came back is when I had that fun conversation that was mentioned in the previous post, but it does not nor shall it every over shadow the great time I had.

I want to thank everyone down there for their hospitality and generosity. I only hope that one day I can repay the kindness.

When we got back on Thursday, we went over to Val and Mel's where some of the 37 inch gang had gathered. Miles, Kristin, Todd and NICK were there. Yes Nick was there and in good health. I really missed seeing him over the last couple of years. Much fun was had by all and it was rather late when I dragged my but to bed.

Not sure when I can make it down again or even if I can but I will keep it in mind. I also want to catch a trip out to Monmouth to hang with Miles before he graduates. Have to contact him and make devious plans.

MUUUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Other then that not much going on. I will see all when I can and hope to talk to anyone I cannot see.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-man for the Future

Hail and well met!

Well it has been a long time since I have been able to post. Mostly it has been because of technical problems but that should be no longer a problem very soon. So what can I say.

Well it has been rough on several levels. I feel very alone and I don't mean like having people around alone but the other kind of alone. Everyone keeps telling me that I am good looking and a great guy, so why is it that no matter what I do no one notices me. Of course I know that I don't really jump out there throw myself into the ring so to speak but that has never been my strong suit. Gah I hate trying to figure out what to do in these situations. I even tried to fill out the stuff for Yahoo personals but I found that it kept asking me to define what I am looking for. Wow was I sitting here with that deer in the headlights look. I have no idea what I am looking for and what they offered as way of options really didn't help. So I left it unfinished like so many other things in my life and moved on.

On another front I spoke to a couple of people whom probably thought they were helping me by tearing me down. I was speaking about my work on both my games and the ones for the guys down in St. Louis when I was stopped. I was informed that I was wasting my time and should wake up, grow up and dump these pipe dreams. All I was doing was proving I was a loser and setting myself for failure since there was no future in any of them. Then I was regaled with how I was seen as a lazy mooch who was living off others like some kind of leech. In their opinion I was slowing some people up and would only succeed in taking them down with myself. In fact when I boiled it all down I really don't know why they would have ever been my friends.

To say I was devastated would have been an understatement. I say would have been because I didn't stay depressed. I got pissed off. I mean really angry. Now I know that no one that reads this are among those that were involved with what was said or how I feel but I have to get this off my chest in a forum that will not allow me to speak out loud because every time I do in the privacy of my own space it devolves into swearing and throwing things.

So here is my diatribe and please don't take this to heart.

When I boiled it all down I came to a conclusion.

I DON'T GIVE A FLYING F@#K WHAT YOU ALL THINK!

As far as I can see you only say those things because you are scared to death of me and what I am accomplishing. You see while I am fighting for my dreams you sit there in your drunken stupor with not one dream at all. In fact your idea of a dream is where you can go on your vacation so you can get drunk and forget your pathetic so called life. I don't need to get drunk because I don't need to forget my life. No it may not be perfect but by God it is filled with more then you have. Oh and as far as not having a house, what has it done for you? As far as I can see all it has done for you is tie you down and suck the money out of you. Not to mention the wasted time and money on those stupid techno crap gadgets you have to run out and buy to try and fill your void of a life. You call me a loser well let me tell you something, when it comes down to it you are the loser.

When I get my games published and I will!, Millions will know my name. I will affect those lives and bring fun into their lives. The only people you will affect are the liquor store owners and the Bust Buy corporate accountants, oh and not to mention the credit card companies. They will mourn your passing only as a real parasite mourns its host.

I would go on but as I said before I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK.

IN FACT EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT YOU DON'T READ THIS I CAN ONLY HOPE YOU FEEL THIS. GO F@#K YOURSELVES AND HAVE FUN SPENDING THE REST OF YOUR LIFE DRINKING YOURSELF INTO OBLIVION WHILE SURROUNDING YOURSELF WITH USELESS TECHNO CRAP. I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT ME.

IN FACT IF ANYTHING HAS COME FROM THIS IS THAT I HAVE DECIDED THAT I DON'T CARE WHAT ANYONE THINKS OF ME AND I MEAN NO ONE!

Ok I am going to stop there. It feels good to get it off my chest. If my new outlook upsets anyone, well I would normally say I am sorry but in truth I don't care. It is where I am at and that is that.

I will post on a trip down to Carbondale later cause it was an amazing trip and I loved it.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man Bids Farewell to a Real Hero

Hail and well met.

Yesterday morning co-creator of D&D and so much more, passed away at the age of 69. I was informed by a good friend last night and this morning I have been reading many of the reports and posts concerning this.

I was going to try and type my feeling on this matter, but that will have to come later. Right now I just want to say that this man has touched so many and by doing so has made this world a better place. If not for his creativity I know I would not be where I am today or the person I am either. I know I owe him so much that words cannot begin to express.

Good friend you will be missed.

May the Force be with you.

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man Vs The Mundaemon

Hail and well met.

My title is the ultimate expression of what has been going on with me for the last several weeks. I have found that I like to name my troubles and give them a persona. The Mundaemon is a vile creature that seeks to undermine everyone's belief in themselves and their uniqueness. It rips apart a persons confidence in both themselves and their abilities. His goal is to beat everyone down into a lowly place from which they not only feel they cannot get out but more importantly don't deserve to get out.

As the trip down to meet with the gentlemen in St. Louis draws nearer I have struggled with this evil. Every minute of every day he mounts attack after attack against my belief in myself. My past is dredged up with its numerous failures and missed opportunities. My seemingly non-existent ambition and drive are a constant source of ammunition for his attacks.

The worst part of all of this is that for all my belief in myself what he is throwing in my face is, well, the truth.

I never have had a sense of ambition nor felt driven. I lack passion for anything. I try to feel it but as I have discovered if you have to feel it then you don't have it. From what I have gleaned it is just there and you don't really have to look for it. So how do I combat something that is the truth?

To say or believe in something contrary to the truth is to believe in a lie, isn't it? To draw a analogy from the bible it is building on sinking sand and it will fall. That is when I received a blast of inspiration.

In the bible there is the story of Lazarus. He had passed and been buried. Everyone knew it was true cause it had happened and they had seen the body. It was true yet Jesus showed up and said Lazarus was not dead but only sleeping. According to all that had been witnessed and by the perception the world at large Lazarus was dead but they were wrong. Jesus, although human in every way, was gifted with a mind that was not bound by the constrains of either the 5 senses we have nor the petty dogmatic constrains placed upon those that were there. He knew the true possibilities of what his Father had created and the potential if he believed in them. He stood their and called Lazarus out from his sleep and Lazarus came forth.

Well this could drive a man crazy because it is a conundrum. Everyone knew that Lazarus was dead because they saw it, it was the truth. Yet when Jesus showed up he said that Lazarus was just asleep, which by all the facts was a lie, yet when Jesus acted on his beliefs Lazarus came forth alive and well, which made the assertions of everyone else spurious in the least. Was it their fault? Were they guilty of lying? How in name of all that is Holy are any of us supposed to know what is truth if all we have to go on is what we gather with our 5 senses? It is maddening!!!!

I think the difference is in a little something called faith. According to Hebrews 11:1 " Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." In this statement the phrase "things hoped for" is what jumped out at me. When God created the world it did not exist. He believed in his ability to create what was not there and make it real. This power of creation was breathed into every one of us. Prior to Jesus walking on this world we could not fully walk in that power but after he was here we can. With this power we can make that which was not real, real. For us there are no limitations, well to a point. What we were is not important, just as the fact that Lazarus was (past tense) dead was not important. Jesus stood there and hoped for Lazarus to wake up and come forth. His faith in Gods power that God had given to every man (since he was just like every man) game his hope substance and when he spoke forth it became reality.

Another important part is the beginning of the verse. The very first word is "Now" which implies that there was a before in which faith was not the substance...ect. It is also important that there was no clarification on what would come after. No all it said was "Now". Well "Now" is now and now and now. The past doesn't matter because "Now" this is the way things are. This opens an interesting idea because I have been considering that although there is a past and will be a future, we only see the "Now". Even the past is colored by exactly where we are now. It is safe to say that all time is NOW because we only perceive it all now. Everything is in the NOW.

The last part of the verse is also extremely important. It says "the evidence of things not seen.". Well that says it, if things are not seen then they are not perceived and thus we cannot rely on our senses to determine anything about them. Thus we will be saying and believing things that are real by faith, but by the account of the 5 senses, a lie. It is a strange new world we live in where what is real is no longer determined by our 5 senses but instead by our faith in them and in our Creator.

This was the all the help I needed. I put all those thoughts and ideas to the side with a healthy sense of righteous indignation. I stormed right up to that place where this hideous abomination resided in my mind and preceded to kick its posterior.

All of those things may be true but only in the fact that they happened in the past. They do not determine the future nor my potential in that future and since all time is truly NOW that means they have not one thing to do with what I can do NOW. My hopes and dreams for the future are not wasted nor impossible for I have faith in what God has given me.

Now I can succeed in my endeavors!

Now I will succeed in my endeavors!

Now I am succeeding in my endeavors!

Now I don't for one minute think that it is all over with the Mundaemon. His forces lay in wait for just the right moment to strike. Legions of his Lehtarga-ticks are just chomping at the bit to take a hold of me and gorge themselves on my energy robbing me of it while the Mediocr-ites look for any opportunity to rush in and use their powers of illusion to make me believe that I am not special nor worthy of being special. Making themselves into insurmountable opponents that exploit past failures or flaws.

Well they will find me prepared! I have rediscovered a quote that is the central core of my belief and an expression of my faith.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Marianne Williamson

On that note I will leave you all as I have much to prepare for. I only hope that you can glean some helpful perspective on a situation in your own lives from what I share here. Yes I have a flare for the dramatic and even megalo-dramatic but after all I am...

MATT-MAN THE UNMASKED DEFENDER OF IMAGINATION AND DEFENDER OF CREATIVITY!!!!!!!!

May the Force be with you!

EXCELSIOR!!!!

Matt-Man with his early morning buttery Questionaires.

Hail and well met

Ok so it is not quite early morning anymore but when I started this it was.

1. Are you taller than your best friend?
Hmmm I do believe that I am just a bit taller then some of them but much less then others and many more that I haven't met yet so I don't know.

2. Do you have a favorite type of pen?
yeah one that writes.

3. Look at your planner for March 7th, what are you doing?
DAY PLANNER? What is this "day planner" of which you speak?

4. What color are your toenails usually?
Well to be honest I don't know what color you would call them. Is there such a color as "naked"? OH do I color them....None of your damn buisness! :P

5. What was the last thing you highlighted?
This quiz when I copied and pasted it...damn you mean with a pen, then I would have to say something printed on paper.

6. What color are the curtains in your bedroom?
Maroon

7. What color are the seats in your vehicle?
Greyish

8. Have you ever had a black and white cat?
Personally no, but by association yes.

9. What is the last thing you put a stamp on?
A letter...duh!

10. Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming?
No I don't and I don't know anyone who knows anyone who lives in Wyoming. In fact I don't know anyone who knows anyone who knows anyone who lives in Wyoming. I don't believe that there is even a Wyoming, it is all just a Govermetn conspericy.

11. Why did you withdraw cash from the ATM the last time?
Wow that would be a long time ago and I think it was just for the fun of spending 5 dollars to do it as well as to hear the machine make that rumbling metalic sound as it puked out my cash...WHY DO YOU THINK I HAD TO SPEND IT!!! Really who comes up with these questions?

12. Who is the last baby that you held?
Logan

13. Can you spell well?
Kan I spel, ha u betcha eye are abell 2. Awww you make me look bumber then usual.

14. Do you like Cinnamon toothpaste?
Mmmmm cinnamon toothpaste...so tastey...on ice cream.

15. What kind of car were you driving 2 years ago?
Dodge Caravan.

16. Pick one: Miami Hurricanes or Florida Gators:
The West Chutney Skinks

17. Last time you went to Six Flags?
a long time ago.

18. Do you have any wallpaper in your house?
Well it is not my house so no. Actually there is none in this house so no. Now that you mention it as I think back over my habitations I have to amend that statement and say that you are a poopy head and NO!

19. Closest thing to you that is yellow?
Ok will you please be a little more specific here. Do you mean totally yellow or with yellow on it? I mean technically any print color picture has some yellow in it but it may not be decernable to the human eye. So do you have to be able to discern it with the human eye? What percentage of total "Yellowocity" is require to achive it counting for the purpses of your question?AH HA I see a yellow CD cover!

20. Last person you gave a business card?
I don't give buisness cards, I just give buisness! And buisness is GOOD!

21. Who is the last person you wrote a check to?
Prpbably a bill collector or a store clerk...like 10 years ago.

22. Closest framed picture to you?
Dude why is it framed? What is up with the discrimination here? Are framed pictures "better" or something? Pictures are pictures framed or free, you remember that! (yeah there are no pictures framed or otherwise in this room)

23. Last time you had someone cook for you?
Well Mel cooked pancakes last week but I didn't have her do it for me, she just did. I mean Val was there and as her husband I would assume that she did it for him and I just benifited from the exchange.

24. How many email do you get in your inbox daily?
Just the inbox the I would have to say no more then a dozen. If you included like the spam bin then ALOT!

26. Last time you received flowers
Dude I am a guy and we don't get flowers.

28. Do you play air guitar?
no the chello.

29. Has anyone ever proposed to you?
That all depends on what you mean by "proposed".

30. Do you take anything in your coffee?
No, unless of coure she is willing...sorry that would be cream and sugar.

31. Do you own any Willow Tree figurines?
Ok I am going to ask that anyone reading this who knows the person that writes them to please do me a favor and get this perosn LAID!

32. What is/was your high school's mascot?
Rich East Rockets! Blast Off!

33. Last person you spoke to from high school?
James

34. Last time you used hand sanitizer?
When my hands we unsanitary...DUH!

35. Would you like to learn to play the drums?
I don’t want to work. I just want to bang on the drums all day!

36. What color are the blinds in your living room?
WHAT THE HECK!!! That question is so wrong! How insensitive can you be asking me about the “blinds” in my living room. They are people too and being blind does not define them. Then to ask what color they are? You are just not right in the head, what does their color have to do with anything. I think you need some serious help and to make a public apologize for this question.

Huh? Blinds on the windows to keep the light out not people that cannot see…CRAP

Cream and Grey.

38. Last thing you read in the newspaper?
Boy you just keep going don’t you. Gosh let me think real hard. Oh yeah….WORDS.

39. What was the last pageant you attended?
I refuse to answer on the grounds that it might do something I don’t want to happen.

40. What is the last place you bought pizza from?
Gosh that is such a tough one, you know with all the places out there. I think the last place was Hong’s Chinese Food… Cause it wouldn’t be as simple as just saying A PIZZA JOINT!

41. Have you ever worn a crown?
Nope

42. What is the last thing you stapled?
I don’t remember but in the future I can see some fingers being stapled to a board.

43. Did you ever drink clear Pepsi?
Yes and fell into a dimensional rift from which few returned.

44. Are you ticklish?
Yes but as with the ancient art of the Iron Skin Technique that spot is hidden from all but a chosen few (you know who you are :P)

45. Last time you saw fireworks?
Guy Falks day….dofus the 4th of July.

46. Last time you had a Krispy Kreme doughnut?
Long ago but I still carry it with my, I think it is my right hip or my butt.

47. Last person that im'ed you, and you actually responded?
Terri

48. Last time you parked under a carport?
Never

49. Do you have a black dog?
Not directly but by association.

50. what do you think of people who don't like tacos?
People that don’t like tacos? Are you kidding me, there are no such things. I mean for someone to not like tacos they would have to be like aliens or something.

51. Are you an aunt or uncle?
As I have no siblings it is impossible for me to ever be an Uncle. By the way thanks for asking and bringing up such a painful subject.

52. Who has the prettiest eyes that you know of?
Ah eyes the window to the soul. Eyes so beautiful that you can get lost in them, like swimming in the ocean. There are two answers to that one, Terri which is someone that I know and Michelle Phiefer the actress whom I don’t know but have seen in movies.

53. Last time you saw a semi truck?
Ok now I know you are grasping at straws. I work at the Post Office delivering mail so Saturday.

54. What is the last song you belted out in the car?
Well that is difficult as I drive for a living and I sing to a lot of songs on the radio. I do believe it was “Don’t stand so close to me”.

55. Do you have a little black dress?
Of course…wait what? No. Gah you and your trick questions!!



1. Does it matter to you if your bf/gf smokes?
No cause I do and wouldn’t be hypocritical about it if someone else does or doesn’t

2. How about drinking?
Same as above

3. Which do you prefer, beach or the mountains?
Well beach implies water and I love swimming while mountains imply climbing or hiking and while I don’t mind a good hike I prefer swimming. Also there tends to be less clothes involved with the beach. What? I am a guy so what do you expect.

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Hell yes! Of course that is a bit two faced as I don’t open up with important stuff like that. I guess in that I am a hypocrite.

5. Whats your favorite sport?
Sex. The best full contact sport that there is, ever was or ever will be.

6. Its saturday night, you're home alone, what do you do?
What? I run up stairs take a quick shower (cause I just finished work) and run out the door, head over to Val and Mel’s for role playing. Yes I am a dork and damn proud of it.

7. Who is your last text message from?
Track Fone telling me I got my minitues.

8. Can you do splits?
Oh yeah I can do splits, Banana are my favorites but I can also do pants and in a pinch I can sides. Oh you mean with your legs. Are you crazy? I am fat and a man of course I don’t do splits, I like my junk and don’t want to have it sucked up into my abdomen.

9. Do you like roller coasters?
My relationship with roller coasters has been a roller coaster ride…he he he. I used to love them then I gained a ton of weight and couldn’t do them anymore, then I lost some of the weight and now can do them again just don’t have the opportunity much.

10. When’s the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
Uh like anytime cause it is a awesome feeling when someone digs you like that.

11. What are you doing this weekend?
Well I work Saturday then later that evening I will be role playing and on Sunday I will just play it by ear.

12. Whats your favorite restaurant?
Hmmm well take out would have to be Hongs Chop Suey, fast food would have to be a tie between Chipotle and Potbelly but a sit down restaurant I would have to say Applebee’s.

13. Do you usually fall for the right or wrong girl/boy?
How do you define “right or wrong”? If you mean someone that can return what you feel then I have a perfect 50/50 record. If you mean someone that is good for you or not then I am lucky in that everyone I have fallen for has been good for me.

14. Have you ever hugged someone?
Oh yeah all the time.

15. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?
Um yes once and I regretted it for various reasons.

17. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Ok lets face I am a guy so I do look at the body of the person but in fact I tend to look at their face for their demeanor. Features that tend to stand out are eyes and mouth especially a smile.

18.Do you want someone you can't have?
Oh come on. Who doesn’t have someone in their life they cannot have but want? Like everyone, that is the nature of love and life.

21.Jeans or sweats?
Hmm tough one to answer cause I love sweats around the house but I prefer jeans out and about. I guess it is a tie unless you are implying doing one or the other.

22. Which year has been the best so far?
The last good year was a long time ago, I have good runs but not a year, at least not yet.

23.What are you doing/did for your birthday?
Probably forgetting it.

24. What should you be doing right now?
Well cleaning, laundry, dishes, finishing up a ton of stuff in my room.

25. What is your favorite tv show?
Jeez just one is not possible I love to many, right now Big Bang Theory is at the top of the list.

26. Color?
Black and white

27. Are you attracted to girls/guys that smoke?
Doesn’t really matter.

28. Would you want a chilled laid back gf/bf or a party animal?
I am not sure I could live with one or the other. I would love a hybrid that likes to chill with bursts of Party animalism.

29. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
My butt, nope. My face, several times.

31. What do you do when you're at home?
Well I watch way to much TV with bursts of chores and internet then I run out and do errands.

32. What side of the bed do you sleep?
When I sleep alone (which is almost all the time, I am so lonely) I tend to travel towards the middle. If I am with someone then I tend to let then pick and I take the other. I seem able to sleep on any side of a bed.

33. Scariest thing you've ever seen?
In real life I have to say deep ocean, in not real life zombies.

34. What annoys you?
Me

35. If you had one super power, what would it be?
The power to rearrange matter. If that is to vague then I would have to say fly.

36. Ever gone to saturday school?
No I was a good kid, not that it did me any good.

37. Been kicked out of class?
Um I don’t believe so but I tend to have a bad memory from those days.

38. Ever got arrested?
No

40. Who's your bestfriend?
So many would fit that description but I have to put one at the top and that one is James.

41.Whats your last text message say?
Mine as in one that I typed…I think it was “I am here, where are you”

42.Do you live with your mom and dad?
Not any longer.

43.Who annoys you the most?
Anyone who is both an egomaniac and arrogant.

Matt-Man on Questionaires and Videos

Hail and well met.

I should be in bed but instead I find these things to put here for your consumption. Enjoy.




1. What is your occupation? Rural Carrier Associate
2. What color are your socks right now? naked
3. What are you listening to right now? The computer fan
4. What was the last thing that you ate? Chocolate cake
5. Can you drive a stick shift? Yes
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?Probably one of the retired ones
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Um that would be Terri
8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yes
9. How old are you today? 38
10. Favorite drink? Tequila Sunrise
11. What is your favorite sport to watch? Don't really have a favorite sport but I have come to like Hockey
12. Have you ever dyed your hair? NO
13. Pets? Right now none, unless you count my roommates cat-Duke, in the past had a cat - Rumbles and a dog - Max
14. Favorite food? Orange Chicken
15. Last movie you watched? Happily Never After Funny movie
16. Favorite Day of the year? Just one? Well I like Memorial Day cause I met someone then but I also like Halloween
17. What do you do to vent anger? Heh clean and organize
18. What was your favorite toy as a child? My Bike or if you mean younger then Optimus Prime
19. What is your favorite season? Fall
20. Hugs or kisses? don't they really go together, I mean come on.
21. Cherry or Blueberry? Cherry
22. Do you want your friends to email you back? yes
23. Who is most likely to respond? What am I a mind reader...Wait let me try...Grrrrrrr *POINK* Oww now I have a headache
24. Who is least likely to respond? Again with the fortune telling? Always in motion is the future
25. What happened to: this question?? My guess is that a dimension traveling evil doer stole it to wreak havoc with the space time continuum, or someone forgot it.
26. When was the last time you cried? January
27. What is on the floor of your closet? a lot of boxes I need to go through
28. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this to? James
29. Who is the friend you have had the shortest that you are sending this to? Um probably like Todd
30. Favorite smells? Vanilla or cinnimon
31. Who inspires you? friends
32. What are you afraid of? spiders and not doing what I know I can
33. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? spicy
34. Favorite car? Toss up between the GTO from XXX or a PT Cruiser with the same paint job
35. Favorite cat breed? cuddly
36. Number of keys on your key ring? To darn many
37. How many years at your current job? 1year and two months with some change
38. Favorite day of the week? Saturday - Role Playing
39. How many states have you lived in? 1
40. Do you think you're funny? Right me funny? Who are you kidding. Have you even read some of my answers?

now play along - forward and fill in your answers

Matt-Man, One For All

Hail and well met!

It has been a few weeks since I last updated. Been somewhat busy but mostly just didn't feel like it. Things are going OK. The new van works great. Work is work. I am working somewhat fervently on stuff for a upcoming trip down to see the guys in St. Louis at the end of February.

Last night I played D&D with the group for the first time in many weeks. It was good times and I feel better. We are going to play every weekend we can until Val's surgery in April at which point we will have to take it easy as he will be recovering.

On a personal note I discovered that there is a small gym literally next to the Post Office in Crete. I am considering signing up and getting back into a workout regimen. I liked working out and I know it made be feel better. The cost is a concern but I will figure something out.

My computer is pissing me off. The system dose not like Windows NT unless it has Service Pack 2 built in and no one I know has a copy that has that. So I am considering just chucking Windows all together and putting Linux on it and working all the kinks out. The big problem is no internet yet for that computer so going online for programs and the such is complicated. In the end all will work out of that I am sure.

Most days are livable but still have those days. Of course I am sure that is true of everybody so I will adapt and learn to live with it.

I miss seeing everyone. I hate having to curtail my trip plans. Again I will persevere because things will work out.

It may be early in the morning but I feel quite tired. So I am going to have some breakfast and get my butt moving.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!