Matt-Man and Epiphanies and Apologizes

Hail and well met

Well as the title says this post is about two different things. The epiphanies will come later for now it is time to apologize for something.

Ben, Val, Mel, Todd, Tadd, Kelsey and whom ever else is in Fading Suns I apologize for not being there last night. I also apologize for not calling anyone concerning my absence. It has been an difficult time up here, wrestling with issues that pertain to the future and the present. In all honesty even if I had come home I don’t know that I would have played simply because I have a lot to think about.

Firstly the post office has not called or written me. It is obvious that I am not getting hired. I don’t understand why this is but the truth is simply that it is. So when I get back in town I will swallow my pride and my hopes and apply at the retail hives of scum and villainy again. It will be just awesome to be working in retail again for a large company and in doing so be nothing more then a drone. OH JOY! All this and minimum wage too?! How can I contain myself? YEAH if you take any of that seriously then you need help. It was the last place that I wanted to work but it seems the only damn place that I will find work. OK so maybe not the only place but really who wants to see me in a pasty? Besides I don’t do poles so well anymore. Ha Ha!

No really it is just that any others jobs that I find that I might be able to do are both far away from my home and here. In the end I just don’t know if it is worth it to chuck everything I have just for a few bucks. Yes I know I have bills to pay and damnit I intend to pay them, but why cannot I also have a real job that helps me build a future as well? Is that some unwritten law? Ah what does it matter. I will do what has to be done and that is that. Hey what is the worst that can happen? Oh yeah that whole losing myself in the damn job thing…but the bills get paid so that is what is important…RIGHT.

Enough of that let me get down to the epiphanies that I spoke of earlier.

Ok so this week I have been watching far more TV that I usually do. Wow now I know why I don’t watch it much anymore. It just shows me how far we have really fallen. Ok for starters let me address the most worthless shows to embarres the little screen.

REALITY TV SHOWS.

I have never liked them nor will I ever like them. They are a farce of Shakespearean proportions and only show off the worst that our society has to offer. The leading craptacular example of this is one of the first, Survivor. First off this show is a fraud. These people are in no real danger, cause right there is a fully operating film crew that sure as hell is not eating grubs…not that the contestants are eating grubs either. I am also sure that there is no lack of water or medical facilities on site either. So in the end what danger does our interped band of “Survivors” surviving? Oh right a set of physical challenges and getting voted off…PLEASE! What a load of crap-olla.

Well if I didn’t like the show now, I sure as hell think it has sunk to a new low. This season (which is already in the can in case you didn’t realize how TV works) will center around separating teams based on , get this….RACIAL LINES. Oh yeah what a brilliant idea this is. Oh I am sure that the producers loved the pitch which I can only see going something like this…”Well see we have all contestants there and for a social experiment we will have them take teams with people just like them, you know color and all that. It will be great cause we can increase viewer-ship among the racial motivated segment of society as well as the lagging Asian market not to mention the growing Mexican population. Isn’t it great? Oh what was that? No of course we shouldn’t worry about it stirring up racial tension in America. What are you thinking it is just TV. We don’t have that kind of power. We can’t start a war in our own streets over something as harmless as a TV show. Besides if it does cause riots just think of the publicity and viewer-ship from all the news coverage. What a bonus.”

Yes sir this is going to be so much fun. I just cannot wait for the first time at a water cooler someone make the mistake of saying anything derogatory about one of the winning personalities of a different racial background then the speaker. Even if the contestant in question is a jerk it won’t matter cause some over sensitized individual will jump up and scream “Racist”. The rest will be unemployment history.

This country is far too sensitive over that subject and the so-called leaders that speak “Tolerance” truly only seek to continue the trend. I mean let’s face it with out it would they be leaders anymore? More importantly wouldn’t they then have to turn to real problems and try and deal with them? Of course they would so no they are not going to get rid of their ace in the hole. Now when a real problem rears its ugly head they just jump up and scream “Racism” from the mountain tops and the masses jump with them and chant right along. Not to mention the contributions and fundraisers that go along with it. Enough with this rant and on to the next.

So the highly educated and certainly well paid astrological community got together this week and spent their collective brain power on a subject that will truly reshape the future of us all. They made a decision that has solved a problem that has plagued each and every one of us in our day to day lives.

The decided that Pluto is not a planet……….

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE IDIOTS! I mean are they that bored that they feel the need to pursue a serious discussion about whether a large hunk of rock that obits our sun and is not bound to another heavenly body is a planet or not? I thought that these people were working on figuring out how to transverse the vast distances between our world and others so we could colonize the galaxy. Nope they are sitting around having this discussion.

“Hey Bob what you doing?”
“Nothing Joe. Just watching the sky. You?”
“Same thing.”
“Yup this whole astronomy carrier is really full of excitement.”
“Yeah Joe I am sooo glad for all that time spent getting all these degrees so I could sit and watch the sky all day”
“OH and don’t forget that bull about how star gazers get the girls.”
“Yeah what a load of crap. I haven’t been laid since……DAMN I’VE NEVER BEEN LAID!!!!!”
“Dude I just had a though. We could figure out a way to travel through the galaxy and colonize every planet we find? Sounds cool right?”
“Wait I just had an idea. Why don’t we just sit here and do a whole lot of research to formulate an argument that Pluto is not really a planet? It would be fun.”
“Well I don’t know?”
“Oh come on Joe just think of all fun when we succeed and they have to change all the text book around the WORLD! I mean it isn’t like we won’t be making up most of the reasons cause any first grader knows that Pluto is a planet, so we will be pulling one over on the whole world. Oh and here is the kicker. In about 10 years of so…We turn around and make them change it back! Besides we will have to make like lecture tours and you know what that means…Young coed astronomy students.”
“OH God Bob that would be far more fun then anything really helpful to everyday life. And I can’t wait to start the lecture tour… come to me ladies. Let’s do it!”

Yes there it is. Just a prank set up by some over bored and under sexed astronomers. Please for the love of god will you ladies do the world a favor and shag an astronomer today so we can get the whole colonization of the galaxy thing underway? PLEASE!

So this is what our leaders in the field of Astronomy do with their time. I am so glad that we depend on them to let us know what is out there. I wouldn’t want to take their hours of looking at the sky as a sign of lax intelligence or sloth. But with breakthroughs like this how could I think that? God help us.

Ok well I am done for now. I will be home either Sunday or Monday of next week. The following weekend I am going to the Ren fair again so if anyone wants to join just grab your cash and come along…well let me know ahead of time as well.

I will see everyone or talk to everyone when I get back.

Again I am sorry for missing Fading Suns and for not calling. Please forgive me. PPPPLLLLEEEASEE!!!!!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man Out To Lake Villa

Hail and well met

I am leaving today for an extended stay with my lady up in Lake Villa. The reasons for this are simple. One is the fact that I cannot stand sitting here waiting for the damn Post Office to get off its fat bloated ass to hire me. It is driving me crazy that they hire all these lazy and unmotivated workers every damn day but a guy like me that wants to work and put in his hours the leave hanging. Screw them. If they call I will show up but until then I am going to check out my options else where and enjoy the company of my beautiful and sexy lady while I am at it.

The second reason is...Complicated. I love my parents, I really do. I JUST CANNOT STAND LIVING WITH THEM ANY LONGER! If I have to endure one more dumb ass argument over something stupid I will scream. Oh believe me that when I have to listen to the play back later it was over some big and vague point that is pivotal to the balance of the universe. Oh come on people, it was about the dishes, laundry or something else mundane. Truly it is like watching my parents devolve into 5 year olds again. I just cannot deal with it, nor can I deal with their need to tell me about it 8 hours later as if I wasn't there, which I was. I love them dearly but enough is enough.

OH before I forget. Ben K. this message is for you unless I get to see you first. Terri told me that her company Anixter is looking for some computer people. She printed out the job sheets and you can find them at Anixter.com, I believe it is under personal, but don't quote me. I am sure you can find it. It sounds like it is up your ally and although her office is an hour away you could be out of the Alsip office which is much closer. Take a look and God willing there will be something for you.

So I am out for at least the weekend and possibly most of next week. If anyone sees Neal or if you read this I have not forgotten about Monday I will call you and we will discuss that matter.

Ok well I am out of here for now. Kind of torn over not being around. Have to discuss it with people and figure out what can be done about it. Things are just...Strange.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man Says Good-bye to Summer

Hail and well met

As I sit here in the loft I am faced with the reality that once again it is time for people to head off to collage. It is the heralding of the end of yet another summer. A year ago I was quite depressed over this and to be true it is a bummer to know that in less then two weeks many of the people that I love to hang out with will be miles away. There is something decidedly different this time though. I am glad to see them move on.

For quite a long time I was content with the idea of change for everyone else but not me. It was a stupid idea and I know that it has truly been the cause of a great amount of the pain in my life. I have to really honest when I say that I was a hypocrite over it. Out of my mouth would come the axiom that "Change is the only constant in the universe" but then I would resist the most simple of changes in my life. I never left home because I didn't want to rock the boat. Oh I know that I can come up with a ton of excuses for not leaving but so many others have had the some troubles and yet they did it and made it work. No the problem was not the troubles in the way but it was me.

Now this is where I should insert any one of a thousand rants about how hopeless or pathetic or whatever I am. Well if that is what you are expecting then I apologize because that is not happening. Why? Well the most basic thing I can say is that it is useless. I am who I am and I face the world the same way every day that I have always had. Somewhere out there is the niche where I belong and I intend to find it. Oh yes I am going to find the place where I belong and where I fit in and make things work. There is no doubt. It may take time but so what, what else am I going to do with it?

So instead of sitting here being depressed I am rejoicing in the fact that my friends are moving on and finding their place in the universe. I can and will visit them, and if possible I will be joined by the most amazing woman in the world. Yes I speak of the awesome and phenomenal Terri.

I LOVE YOU BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah I have to say that she has been one of the greatest factors in my recent change of heart. Of course for all that she is if I didn't turn from my depression then I would still be a funk dog and be bringing everyone down. What is the fun in that? Oh it is one hell of an ego trip. believe me. Making ones self the center of the universe where all the bad things going on are pointed at or caused by you is quite the power trip. But once I realized that "Hey shit happens" and it happens to everyone it seemed far too pretentious for me to remain the center of the universe. So here I am just one more average joe (although some disagree with that assessment wink wink Terri) and I am just as unique and special as everyone else.

So what was this all about? Well I just wanted to chronicle the evening...Although I am upset about one thing. I missed a message from my lady. Sorry Terri. I was in the pool and I never bring my phone there because I know it will end up jumping to its death. Stupid suicidal phones. I am truly upset that I missed you call, but I will call you tomorrow as soon as I wake up. I love you so much that it hurts sometimes...ok by sometimes I mean all the time and bye hurt I mean tears my heart out but other then that I am fine ;)

I love all of you but Terri has my heart and soul...and other things but those will remain unmentioned for obvious reasons. :P I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE YOU THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!

Ok well that is all I really had to say so I am going to sign off.

May the Force be with all of you

Excelsior!!!

He's Back! He's Bad! He's Matt-Man and he is Mad!

Hail and well met one and all

The title says it all. I am back from a great weekend. Yes I spent some money but that really has little to nothing to do with my feelings. I went and surrounded myself with the people and minds of the industry that I love. I absorbed those emotions and soaked in the ambiance of the experiance. Just being around all those crazy gamers and the ones that make those crazy games just fills me with a giddy sense of power. OH YEAH!

All in all the experiance was rejuvinating. Now to be totally honest I have to say that there was a bit of a let down in the weekend. All in all there was not nearly the number of new games or companies that I would have expected or wanted. I know that the industry is suffering along with the rest of the economy with the tighting of the belt due to cost increases but still I cannot believe that there is a lull in the creative genius that is out there. Anyway all it really did for me was open the flood gates of determination that my ideas are worth and will be successful. All I have to do is get off my lorals and get them out there.

So let it be known that from this moment until the end of my time here on this rock I intend to devote a sizeable amount of my time to getting these ideas made into a viable reality that I can produce and sell. It may take a year or two but it will be done. This may incroach on my free time esspecially if I get the job but not that much. I will be looking for playtesters outside our group mostly to ensure that my personality is not affecting the view everyone has of the games that I make or have made. Not that I am saying that you all would lie to me but in truth you views are skewed by our relationships. I know every word you have spoken about Camp Deadbidon is true and you meant it but I need to be sure that I have not just glossed over any problems to fix them in just your eyes and failed to address any real holes in the game.

That being said don't think that I won't be showing you every new idea when it hits the prototype stage and involve you.

Ok well I think that about covers it. I am out for now. Typing acutally hurts my eyes.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man takes a Break

Hail and well met

Yeah I said it. I am taking a break. Oh not from a heavy work load or stressfull deadlines, no but a break from being wound up tighter then a 3000 day clock. Worring about not having found gainful employment. Wondering if my P's are pissed that I am still at home. If my Dad is ready to blow his top over the cash I owe him. Sweating those damn creditors deciding to try and sue me or some other stupid move. Trying to not step on anyones toes whle trying to be myself and not being employed.

I have had it will all that crap!

I am going down to Gen Con with the help of my friends. I am going to be totally irresponsible (or as much as I can be) I am not going to worry about one damn thing ( ok well it is me but it will just be about no being with my lady...OK?) whilst I am away. I am going to throw money away like it was water (luckly I only have a small amount this year, but next year watch out).

I intend to party every chance I get and have as much fun as I can. I ain't coming home the same as I left so be ready. This is the last hoorah befor I totally shatter the ceiling and start soaring like the legendary beast that is Matt-Man.

Yeah I am tooting my own horn. Yeah I am spitting out a load of self endulgent ego boosting drivel. SO WHAT? Everyone else gets to do it...then so do I!

Beware forces of complacancy and the mundane. The unmasked avenger of the imagination is priming his guns and is going to BLOW YOU ALL AWAY!!!!!!!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man rides the Weird Train

Hail and well met

Well to say that things have been strange is an understatement. I got home yesterday and said my good bye to my lady for a couple of weeks, which SUCKED. I really liked being with her for the week...sigh. When I arrived I had two letters from the post office waiting for me. They weren't the paycheck that I am waiting for but instead where paper work for me to show up at the Crete post office for an interview for the RAC position that I have been seeking. That was great news, except for the fact that the appointment in this coming Friday...DAMNIT THAT IS GENCON! So I am now faced with a dilemma of epic proportions.

Do I simply not go to gen con or try and figure out a way to do both. I am leaning towards the both but there are complications.

The biggest one is what happened this morning when I drove my car to do some errands. My brake pedal went to the floor and I had to feather it to get any pressure. I am going to call my mechanic tomorrow morning and get my car in toot sweet since I will need it this Friday for the interview. If it cost any amount of cash to fix I can kiss Gen Con good bye since I was planning on driving down after the interview. That will cost me gas money and if the car costs me anything I will have to burn my collateral with my P's to get it fixed. This means I cannot use them for cash for gas. GRRRRRRR!

I am hoping that it is easy..No I am believing that it is going to be easy and cost next to nothing. Time will tell.

Of course money is the other problem but when isn't it.

So I have the good news that I am closer to having a real job. Once I am past the training for being a carrier the Post Master at Mattson can steal me, since I really don't want the nightmare that is the Crete post office to be my long term future.

I have the most wonderful woman the world can offer. I LOVE YOU TERRI!

I just may have to give up the best four days with my friends out of the year.

Oh well some sacrifices must be made if things are going to change.

And I want change!

OH I am posting from my lap top which appears to be internet fluent. My computer is still in limbo. Terri gave me her old computer and said that I can use what ever I want to see if I can fix it. Ben since I won't be out there any time soon if you read this before I see you I am working on getting that copy of windows and see if that computer has a viable hard drive in it. I really appreciate all the things that you are doing for me, I know that things are tough for you and have been for a long time. I am praying that you get a break soon, cause you deserve it. Hang in there cause if it can work for me then it certainly work for you.

Ok well I don't want to tax my lap top any more then needed, but wanted to let everyone know what was going on.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man in the Shite Storm

I would say Hail and well met...but not today

Things have decided to jump on me all at once. I am not in a mood for typing but I do feel the need to tell people what is going on. So in a nutshell...

Terri's dog Jackson bit her again yesterday, a totally unprovoked attack. There was little choice but to put Jackson down. NOT A GOOD DAY!

Ben has informed me that the Matt-comp 5000 has a bad hard drive and it will run close to 100 dollars (not counting rebates) to fix. Ben since you seem to read this and since I will not be home anytime soon as I am keeping Terri sane I will ask you here and feel free to answer. I assume the answer is yes but here goes nothing. Is all the info on the HD gone?

There are some other things but those are kind of personal and private, not for sharing here. All in all let me just say that if anything else wants to kick me in the nads...Feel free! If anything out there thinks that I am giving up or going to get totally self focused and depressed......


HA! NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!

Yes things suck and I am in a pit of sorrow and pain right now. Yes I have never really felt worse in my life. Hell I just watched my bestest buddy of a dog be put down, can it get any worse then that? But I am not giving up.

Things change in time. Nothing stays the same. For everything there is a season. I waited for 36 years to find the one person that I could truly love and who loved me back. And guess what...I found her! So if that can happen then anything else can happen as well. It is just a matter of time and being patient whilst everything falls into place.

Ben I don't have the cash right now, I might soon. When I do we are going to go shopping for the HD. I also want to look into somekind of back up since there were a large number of really important files on there pertaining to projects for games and the like. I can't have this happen again.

I won't be back in town untill probably this weekend. I believe Terri is still coming down Saturday and as such I may just stay and come home with her. I know that this fouls up Fading Suns, unless you can play without me Ben at least for one session. It also crimps Star Wars, sorry but I have to be here for her right now.

So all in all I am out of the loop. My cel still works so if you call I can call back on her house phone. As long as I am here I have acess to her computer and can answer emails and comments on here. I will see all on Saturday if not sooner.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man "There's trouble to the North"

Hail and well met

Well here I sit in the Casa De Terri and I don't know what I am going to post about.

I love her.
She loves me.
We get eachother on so many levels.
I know that things are good and am not going to screw that up.......


But this being unemployeed situation is wearing on my nerves. I don't want to lose her because I in the end I don't live up to the things I know I can do. If that even makes any sense.

I am also just worried that I lack the real foundation to make a relationship work. I mean look at my paterning (My family life for those that don't know what I was saying). My parents barely tolerate each other. Fights over the most ignorant of things are a daily affair. Neither one of them really lives anymore, they just muddle through waiting on the end of their life. I don't want to be that...but I already am.

Yeah that is what I realized before I started posting. I am just like them. I don't do anything or involve myself with anything larger then myself. I keep everything at arms length and never commit myself to any goals. I have to change...and that is going to hurt.

Oh yes change is going to hurt, I don't fool myself on that fact. It is just a matter of choosing when I do it. Now or later. Sooner or farther away. Next week or next month, or next year.

There is no guide books on this subject. Not many have experiance to give advice. In the end all the advice and comments will come to naught cause it is my choice and I am the only one that can live it.

Jeez I hate it when it comes back to me.

Oh well all I have time to type right now.

I will be home tuesday durring the day depending on the arrival time for the train.

Later all.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man on the sly

Hail and well met

Not going to post much...which means of course that this will be a 10 pager. No not really cause there is not much to post (or too much)

I am doing well and the house I am watching is also ok. We have had a few tantrums but I was able to get it in line.

I have been watching Smallville...actually a good show when you see it all in a row. Yet again another show that I will have to keep up with, will it never end.

Having the usual bouts of doubts and run ins with Mr. Depression but that is to be expected.

Terri is coming down on the 5th of august for the day. That is a Saturday and I am leaving things open as to what we are doing. I am hoping to finish up her introductions with everyone.

Oh yeah and still don't know what is up with my computer, but then again I haven't really asked about it. Kind of don't want to hear the news if it is as bad as I feel it could be. Not really in the mood to have yet one more avenue of my freedom stripped from me and another barrier between me and the world put up. Oh well such is the nature of life. If it doesn't kill you it gives you some real neat scars to talk about and twitches can be quite entertaining.

Hope all is going well...not that anyone would tell me if it wasn't...but I still hope it is.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man VS Technology

Hail and well met

Well it was bound to happen again. My computer is on the fritz and this time I have a real bad feeling that it is bad. I will have to get it verified by Ben, but that will have to wait for right now.

I am going to be up at Terri's for a few days keeping an eye on her dog Jackson. He is sick and she is worried that if something happens she won't be there to help him out. So I am stepping up to help relieve this stress. I will be able to get calls on my phone but not answer them as I only have like 3 minutes left before it shuts down. So feel free to call and if I can I will respond via other means.

Anyway I have to go and get ready and the like. Hope everyone is doing ok. I will see you all friday for star wars.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man did not order waffles, Matt-Man ordered STEAK!!!!

Hail and well met

Well let me just get this off the burner fast and quick. I am not working at the Post Office. I have declined the position that was given to me. Why? You ask.

Well first and foremost it was not the position that I applied for in the first place. Second it was a hell position in which I would have been working between 2 and 14 hours a night at the discretion of my supervisor and that could change on a daily basis. Thirdly it is completely a temp position and has not one single opportunity for career advancement. Lastly by declining the position I maintain my status in the Post Office and if something else comes up my action has no bearing on my getting that job.

All in all I would be gaining not one damn thing other then a WHOLE lot of stress and with the gas usage I would have to work at least 25 or so hours to keep the van running. Not worth the effort.

I have some other opportunities and some of them do involve the Post Office(just not the factory). I will be pursuing these over the next few days. Yes I am disappointed but I sure as hell am not giving up or getting depressed. I started to but then the thought of my Lady came to me and BAM! All that dark depression just went away.

Everything happens for a reason and this is no exception. I will find work and it will be gainful and not cause me the kind of stress that I was under at GO in the final days.

The only real bad thing is that this pretty much kills any chance of my going to GenCon. Oh well it was a good run of not missing one but it had to end some time. I will miss it though. tear falls from eye

But there is always next year!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man Gets the Post

Hail and well met

IT FINALLY CAME!!!! Friday at around 5 or 6 I get a call telling me that a priority letter had arrived. With my permission it was opened and a single sheet of paper came out telling me that I am employed with the USPS! Woooooot!

I am to show up at 8:00 sharp on Monday at the Bedford Park facility for my three day orientation. I should find out then what is up and where I am to be posted. I am really hoping for the Frankfort Post Office, cause first off I would be able to get there far quicker then Bedford Park, and I would be able to pick up some days at the Mattson Post Office which means more money!

Any way I am stoked about this and I cannot wait to get back in the swing of things. Just sitting around has been just a bit nerve racking.

Ok well not much else to say except that everyone should remember that next weekend is the Ren Fair! We need to be at Terri's house around 9 in the morning that Sunday so that means leaving from here around no later then 7 and more like 6:30 so we have plenty of time to get there. Also remember that there is a BBQ after. It should be a blast.

Ok well that is all the time I have for today, I will speak to everyone as I see them.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man Takes the Train

Hail and well met

Well it is time for a real quick update.

I still have not heard from the Post Office. Grrrrrrrrrrrr

I am getting ready to head out and take the train to meet Terri at the station near her work for a couple of days with my lady. I am going to be cleaning her house a little in preperation for next weekends festivities. Woot for the Ren fair and the BBQ after.

Other then that I am doing well and things are going ok. Hope to see everyone on Saturday while Terri and myself are in town.

Ok well that is it. Wow a quick one that is really quick.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Meanwhile in the Matt-Cave

Hail and well met

I haven't posted lately simply due to not a lot going on...well except being drivin insane waiting for the damn letter from the Post Office telling me when to show up for orientation. Having to endure their beurocratic bullshit whilst I sit here desperatly in need of "PAYCHECK"! I am so glad that they have all the time in the world, just like God. But as my Lover would say "everything happens for a reason" and she is right. I will just endure this aggrivation and know that on the other side of the screen God has everything well in hand. Human nature is all about instant gratification so I just need to step out of my animal side and embrace the spiritual side again.

Ok well in other news I am still plugging away on my drawing, skills are still rusty but I am hammering them out. I do need to pick up some referance materials soon...back to needing that damn paycheck again...but intill then I am just covering the basics. I have been reading as well. I am just about done with "Beast" by the author of "Jaws". It is about a giant squid that attakcs Bermuda. Not an epic story but a good read. Picked up part of a series the other day I am missing the first two books and I think a book in the middle...but I am not sure and as I forgot to do the internet search before starting this post I don't have that information in front of me. Yes I know that I could pause and run the search in a new tab (I run firefox, AMAZING program, you all should use it) but I am not in the mood to run downstairs and find the book and then bring it back up here just to give you all the details on what I don't have. I do remember the title of the first book. "The Dragon and the George" a story about a contempory man transported into a midevil world where his only saving grace is the power to transform in to a dragon at will. There are either 5 or 6 books in the series as far as I know. I plan on tracking them down sooner or later.

OH yeah everyone remember that we are going to the Ren Fair on Sunday the 16th of July. We need to be up there at Terri's by 9:00 in the morning. The money is due on the day of the Fair and it is 15 dollars per person. Afterword we are heading back to her place for a BBQ and party. Sleeping space is available for those that need to "rest up after a LONG DAY"...yeah ok if you decide to drink then you won't be driving so there will be places to bunk. It should be an awesome time and I look forward to it.

I know that there was something else I wanted to post but right now my brain is feeling like that egg in those commercials, and I ain't on drugs. I hate hot weather, with a passion.

Oh well if it comes to me then I will just have to drop a new post.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

The Matt-Mobile gets an Overhaul

Hail and well met

Yup got the van back today after running it out to my "guy" this morning and it is great. That noise in the rear is gone (wish the same could be said for my rear end). One of the serpentine belts needed to be replaced and he did an oil change. It drives better, handles better and sounds like nothing at all. I am going to see if my mileage goes up at all, hope so given the damn price of gas.

Well I am back from the greatest weekend ever. Spent more time with a certain someone that is the most amazing and phenomenal person in the universe (now some of you will say that I am being fickle since I have use these words for other people, but since I am using both for one it sets her apart from those who only have had one word used in conjunction with their name). I met her friends at their baby's dedication, they all liked me. I met her parents at the wedding of her nephew in law, they liked me. All in all everyone one that has met me has like me. I am so relieved! You probably have had that feeling of trepidation when meeting someone's Parents, but for most of you that was when you were in your teens. I had to go and wait for me to be in my 30's for the first time...GAH the nerves. Oh well I stressed out for nothing, but I figure it is a normal response and not much I could have done to stop it.

Her parents are awesome. Her father is a character. He worked for the FDA for 34 years and he was impressed with my efforts to become employed with the Post Office. He had quite a number of stories he could have told but time would not allow. Her mother is sort of quite but not in a creepy or snooty kind of way. She reminds me of me in some ways. I had a great time and I look forward to seeing them again soon.

Oh and I danced for one of the first times in my life. I mean really danced with a partner and everything. I did the Electric slide and only caused a few pile ups and then shook my booty to "Staying Alive".

Well this week will be interesting with the release of the new Superman movie and the return of Star Wars on Friday. I hope that every one is having a good time. Just a few shout outs to make.

Hey Mike I am sorry to have missed getting together with you when Terri was down. She is heading this way on the 8th so that gives us some time to plan better. Call or write or just throw a rock at my window. I will do the same in the next few days.

Mikey I really want to finish that damn game! Not to mention starting the new one. We have to work out a time to get together. You know my email and I will try and call you. Hope school and work are going well. How is buddy?

James got the watch. Thanks.

Ok that is all that I have for right now. Some things are brewing but not quite right just yet.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man VS the Long Wait

Hail and well met

Well it is official that I am now waiting for a letter telling me when I can show up for orientation. Which I suspect means that I have the job but just "not right now". The people there mentioned that it was probably going to be around July the 10th...Great at this rate I will have to pass on Gencon. OH HELL NO!!!!!!

Nope that is the one thing that I will not pass up. I go there not only for the fun butit is a possibility to keep my finger on the pulse of the industry. I do know people and this is the one chance I have to catch up. No sir'ee I am not giving up Gencon.

Oh the second thing is that according to the people in personal they only need people for "Third Tour". Which is 11:30 pm til 7:30 am or more commonly known as "Third shift" or midnights. It was kind of funny cause they asked me if I that was a problem. My responce was simple..."Do I get paid if I work those hours? Cause unless I don't it is fine, the bills don't care when I work they just want the money." It made the ladies laugh. Anyway I guess that I am working there at the Bedford Park facility cause that is the way they made it sound. That is a bit of a puzzlement as I have only taken the test for either Indiana or Frankfort and neither had anything to do with Bedford Park. It is important to know that the Bedford Park Facility is the distribution and sorting center for the area. Everyones mail is sent their and sorted down to smaller sections and then shipped off to the local offices for individual delivery. The facility is huge and it uses huge machines that sort the mail. It should be interesting if that is what I am doing. Either way it is a paycheck and it gets me in the door. From their I can do whatever comes to mind.

I have been laxs on my drawing as of late, but that will change. I have also been out of the painting habit which is starting to wear on my nerves. Of course there is the workout thing that has been difficult as of late. I have to knuckle under and get this stuff done and organized. I can do it I just have to work at it.

Ok another reminder that Terri can get tickets for the Ren Fair for July 16th, a Sunday. I am going as is she and we are asking anyone that wants to come to let me know so I can get the money to her and so on. It should be an awesome time for one and all. Please come if possible. There will be a BBQ following so fun will be had by all, plus you all get to spend some more time with the worlds most amazing person.

Ok well I am done for now. I will post more when possible...extra curicular activities take so much time :)

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man get Giddy

Hail and well met

Well I must say that I should be asleep right now, but that ain't happening. Now six months ago I would have been sweating the interview that I am having tomorrow at the Post Office. You know the usual rant from me (which I will not go into if you want to know just go back and read some of my earlier stuff).

No the reason for my insomnia is the fact that in less then 12 hours, if the interview is done, I will be seeing Terri and it will begin a long weekend with her up at her place. Now interwoven with our time together is a christening, a band gig at a bar and a wedding reception (where I get to meet her parents...What me worry). I will be heading home on Monday morning with her as she heads off to work.


All in all this weekend is going to be amazing!

OH I almost forgot. On July the 16th, a Sunday, Terri, myself and some of her friends are going to the Bristol Renaissance Fair. She is able to get cheap tickets thru the Jaycees. There was also mention of a BBQ afterward at her house, but that is still up in the air. She and I would love for any and all of you to come along. Costumes are optional but I am going in Kilt and she in her "Beer Wench" costume. It should be a HI-LAR-IOUS occasion. Anyone interested needs to let me know ASAP. The tickets are 15 dollars and I can probably float one or two people. She needs to know by July 1st so get back to me. I intend to keep bothering people so one way or another you will hear about it.

Ok well I now I am hungry as my stomach is growling loudly. I will see all soon and I will post the results of my interview tomorrow night from Terri's computer.

I hope that all is going well for everyone, and if not then why haven't I heard about it?

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man IS...

Hail and well met!

…in love.
Oh yes it is true. I am in love. I have found the person that makes me feel complete and whole. Every moment with her is a moment of perfect beauty. Her eyes are spectacular; her smile is the sun on a cloudy day. Her kiss is the warm wind on the grassy field where I lay. She is sexy and luxuriant in a way that I have never known or dreamt of. Being with her is beyond anything I ever thought was possible. I know I am in love and I embrace it without question.

The craziest thing is that she loves me! Yeah I know most of you are like “Duh Matt” but I had never believed that anyone could feel that way about me. I am still in shock over it. Not wanting to be narcissistic about it I don’t dwell on it, but the fact still remains that she finds me handsome and sexy. It makes me giddy inside.

I LOVE YOU TERRI!!!!!!!!!!!!

…without doubt.
This is another milestone for this one I cannot remember a time when I was so sure of myself. My drawing is continuing to progress. The Post Office is but an interview away. Soon my troubles will be over where my bills are concerned. Heck I don’t even worry about making my games reality anymore. I know it will happen. The only thing left is spending the time needed to do it all. And time is on my side.

I want to thank everyone for all the support you have given me over the past years. Without it I would not be here to enjoy the bright future and present that I now stand in and face. I only hope that I have and can return the favor in the years to come. You have all had a profound affect on my life. I thank God for the opportunity to know all of you and become friends with you. I love you guys and there is not much that I wouldn’t do for you all.

…happy!
…content!
…complete!

And for anyone not getting the reference to “IS”. Well it has to do with a little bottle cap from a Mike’s Hard Lemonade from a couple of New Years Eve’s ago. Thanks Sara for wanting them cause without them I would not know what “IS” is all about.

Well that about concludes my post for now. Oh that job for my friends wife…well let us just say that what I thought would be only a day or two is not possibly gonna be 3 or more. Well after talking to my Dad we are going ahead with the project and he is going to make up the difference if we go over the three days. I mean I have to do the Post Office interview and after that I am going to go and see Terri for the weekend.
Oh the strangeness has continued. My father and I were talking this morning. I mentioned that I wanted to get my income tax check since I need to get the van fixed before I start really working at the post office. I don’t see how it could possibly cost more then 800 bucks…Ok so it could but right now I don’t have the luxury of caring. The 800 from my check should be enough to get the job done and the rest paid in installments. Well anyway the check has not shown up. So Dad drops the idea that he will cover it right now and when I get the check I either just hand it over to him completely or I get the difference back. I was happy and a little shocked. I mean I owe him a TON of money, and although I have made the joke about his ROI (return on investment) being in the crapper and the whole Risk VS Reward thing I do plan on paying him back every damned cent. So to have him be willing to drop even one more dollar on me is a surprise.

So tomorrow I am taking my van over to my mechanics and dropping it off with the express understanding that it has to be done by 4o’clock on Wednesday or no go. But knowing those guys they will be able to pull it off. So then I will be driving one of my Dad’s vans for the time in-between. I don’t plan on missing Vampire tomorrow but it could be difficult depending on if he needs the van back at any time for his job. We will see what happens.

Any way I am getting paid for the job and so all is good. I will see all this week on Wednesday since I am gone Thursday through Monday with the possibility that I start working Monday.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man and the Appointment with Destiny

Hail and well met

Well things sure sped up. This morning I received a call from the Post Office. Next week Thursday I am scheduled to have a meeting at the Bedford Park Office. I have to have all my paper work filled out and ready to go. I have been told that I am looking at an interview. Now it could be a one-on-one or a group. A group is faster and means that I am at a higher percentage for entry. The one-on-one is my personal fav cause it allows me to let my personality shine and I can schmooze. Now for those that do not know I have the ability to be very schmoozie when I choose, but it is not my best trait nor do I like it. It is just not my style.

Anyway either way I am believing in that by this time next week I will be employed with the US Postal Service. WOOT JOBS RULE!!!!!!!!!!

I apologize to all those that are looking for or are stuck in shitty jobs for doing the blog version of the victory dance. Feel free to leave me a comment saying "FUCK YOU". I wouldn't complain one bit. But please don't think that the Post Office is my dream job or that it is going to be a piece of cake. It will totally rearrange my schedule. My average wake up time will be at least an hour before I have to work since I will be out of the Frankfort office. That means early nights and could infringe on my gaming time. I will do my best to maintain but the chance of any new campaigns is pretty much out.

Plus this will allow me to have money to spend on trips to see my number one lady. And believe me I plan on visiting her often... >;) I am so naughty!!!!!

Ok that is only a small part of this strangeness. I get a call from an old friend who is the wife of an other old friend. She needs some help with her Mom's trailer. After talking to my Dad and getting some advice it looks like I will be doing some slight work early next week for them.

My internet service apparently misplaced one of my payments that they said they didn't receive cause I don't owe them anything until next month. AMAZING!!!!

All I need now is to wake up having lost another 75 pounds and have all my skin shrink. Or an old relative could decide to give me a shit load of money. Maybe I could discover that I am old royalty and there is a country with my name on it. I don't care but it seems that things are finally going my way. All since I met Terri..?

Yes finding the other half of your soul is a interesting thing. It makes so many thing clear and in focus. Things that meant nothing before now are precious and things that you could not live without are left behind. No no I don't mean friends! In fact she is strongly against me just picking up and moving out there cause it would take me away from all of you and my roots here.

I argue that I may need to just pick up and move, but she has her points and I have already decided to pick my battles (especially when she is right on this one). Just kidding Terri:) Since I know you read this. I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!

Ok so that is where things are right now. I am getting ready to go work out in Lansing and then Star Wars at the loft. It should be amazing...Although we will be minus one member...DAMN CAMPING!!! I shouldn't complain cause I have to cancel next week...due...to...um...WEEDLE!!!

So yeah that is the state of things. Matt-Man is feeling real good. He is pushing forward on several fronts. He is now part of a team that is unbeatable. (I mean you Terri. I LOVE YOU!)

All in all not one bad thing to report. And this trend seems to be expanding. Believe me I plan on sharing the positive energy while I have it.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man takes a Whiz

Hail and well met

Have to make this one a real short one.

That call from the Bedford Park Post Office was not about working their but for me to come in and fill out paper work and take a drug test. They called again yesterday and today I went up. Have a boat load of papers to fill out and have to provide an extensive work history (God why didn't I pay attention to dates).

The real fun was going to a near by clinic and waiting to go pee. Yup took a drug test today. It was a surprize cause I don't use drugs. Yeah like I didn't know that. Oh well now they do and things will progress from here. I am pretty sure that this is about the test I took for the Frankfort Post Office, cause all the tax info is for Illinois and not Indiana. Which is a load off my mind cause I didn't want to pay double taxes next year.

When I got the call originally I thought ok so the next step. Then I talked to my buddy Jim and he informed me that if I am taking the drug test then it is pretty much a done deal. So now I am just slightly nervous. I don't know why but it doesn't matter. As Terri my beautiful lady said it "things are falling into place". How right she is. I LOVE YOU TERRI!!!!!!!

Ok so again let me remind all that Terri is coming down saturday. I plan on having her meet as many people as I can while also spending some quality time with her. Mike I got your message and we can work out a time and place. Everyone else I will try and catch at GO Games. Chris I plan on visiting you at work, I will try and call you sometime this week to hammer out when would be good. I miss seeing you buddy.

Yup that about covers it right now. I have to get cracking on this paper work. I will talk to all as time permits.

May the Force be with you all

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man Vs Uncertainty

Hail and well met

Well here I sit. I have to say that all in all my life is going well. I am with the most wonderful woman that the creator in his/her wisdom has put on this world. My health is better then usual (although I am fighting something off right now). My car is paid for and nothing is drastically wrong with it. In fact the only real thorn in my side right now is my employment status.

That is just the tip of that ice berg. I know that I have to work so I can get paid, but I don't want to be a drone in someone elses hive. I have my own big ideas and I know that they will produce income. It is just a matter of time and diligence. So in the mean time while those projects are fermenting I have to find work.

I know that I can do what I dream of. I know that it is possible to change reality. I know the three rules of Matt-Man. So why do I find myself hesitating? Why do I falter when I am about to leap from the ledge?

I can only come up with two possible answers. One is that I never really believed in all the crap that I have been spouting all these years. The second is that even with all my belief there is still fear in the doing of it. I have to be honest, I don't like pain, rejection and failing. In fact I have spent most of my life avoiding these things and the risks that can bring them.

Now when I am ready to leap to my heights I find that I am afraid and hesitant. Both are things that will ensure failure, so why do I do them? Bah it does not matter! Thinking about it only makes it worse. I have to act and act in a way that is productive.

Yeah that is it. I can, I will, I am! That's the spirit.

So that trip to the country club was just this side of a bust. Put in an application but there is no guarantee that I will get a call back. Oh well their loss. But it would have been nice to have work.

Got a laugh though. While I was out there my Mom calls and informs me that the Bedford Park Post Office called. The wanted to know if I coudl come out and fill out paper work for them to work there. First of all it was 3:20 and they wanted me there by 3:30. Now even if I was home there is no way to make it from my home to Bedford Park in 10 minutes. Second thing is that I have heard of Bedford Park and the words "shooting", "gang violence" or "violence" seem to accompany it. Now I know I cannot be picky but ain't no way I am putting my health and life on the line for this PART TIME job.

The good news is that it means that my scores are floating around so sooner or later someone will notice me and it won't be a war zone.

Ok well I have exhausted my available words. I am getting ready to go see Terri play soft ball. I really love her and not being able to see her sucks! Nicky find out how far dude is from Lake Villa cause I know what it feels like so I am willing to work something out.

Oh and for anyone that I haven't told. Terri is coming down on the 17th for the day. I want her to meet everyone and see everything, so I have some planning to do. Most of all I just want to spend the day with her hanging around. Should be a good day for all.

OH that really brings up a quandry. Val has reminded me that we were supposed to go camping at Lothlorien over the weekend of the 24th. Of course that is a weekend that Terri and I can get together to do stuff. Now I have to choose. Sorry Val but my Lady wins out. I want to go camping real bad but not at the expense of see her.

Man I can just type like a fool when I let go. Ah well it is all stuff in my head anyway so better out then in I always say.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man in a Nutshell

Hey I'm in a nutshell! Let me out of here I can't breathe! Help!

Oh hail and well met

Well this one needs to be quick and dirty (I like it dirty;)

Tonight was Vampire. I loved it. Didn't feel like I played the character well but I can work on that. The story is interesting so I know playing will get easier.

Tadd stopped by and that was amazing. He finally dumped the psycho chick he was living with. Not going into details but trust me, I am calling her a psycho chick which is something I don't usually do. Anyway he wanted to hang out and basically try and forget her cause he was in love with her. I can understand that problem cause I know that if I lost my Lady I would have to work at living.

Which brings me to a little thing I have to say. Some will say it is not a big deal, but I don't like breaking a promise and when I do I make everyone know about it.

I am so sorry for forgetting to call you Terri. I truly am sorry. I feel like shit right now. I should have borrowed someone's phone for even a few minutes. I am sorry.

Tomorrow Miles, Neal, Nicky and myself are heading to the Merriville Country Club for a meeting with Miles's cousin and the General Manager of the Club. If all goes well we will all walk out as employees of the Club. No I am not giving up on the Post Office but I after 9 weeks I cannot afford to wait for a paycheck. GODDAMNIT! People I have bills to pay a car to fix and the worlds hottest lady to see (no she is not expensive but getting to her is and I plan on seeing a lot of her).

If the Post Office decides to get off its bureaucratic bloated ass and get me my test scores I will consider working for them. Until then they can suck on stamps.

Ok well I am off to bed so that I can get up early and call my Lady and beg for her forgiveness.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man on the move

Hail and well met

I have been riding a whirlwind as of late so if I have not spoken to you don't let it get to you. As I have said in the last post I have found the other half of my soul and it has bowled me over.

Speaking of that I am getting ready to leave right now to go see my Lady play some softball. I bet she looks sexy in her uniform! Sorry to share that but what can I say I am spellbound by her beauty.

I have been doing some sketching and drawing over the last several days. My skills have begun to reform after many years of ill use. I am hopeful that if this continues I may be able to fill the gap in our little group as far as someone to do the web comic. I haven't started using any computer programs to make my are yet that is the next step.

All in all I am happier then I have ever been. Thanks to everyone for your congradulations and support. I wouldn't have made it here without all of you.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man Meets His Match

Hail and very well met

WOW! (and I don't mean world of warcraft)

I just don't have the words right now so I will keep it short and sweet.

I met someone this weekend. She walked into my life at a friends party and and walked out with my heart and soul.

I can say with no hesitation I am in love with her. And I know she feels the same.

Eyes are the window to the soul, and I saw all I needed to.

Yeah I have several phone calls to make.

Just when you are ready to lose all hope and your faith is slipping from your grasp in walks the answer to everything. It may have taken 36 years but I can say it was worth it.

WOW!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man and tjhe Big Empty

Hail and well met

Ok I spent an hour typing here in the loft only to have it eat my damn post so here it is quick and dirty.

Went to the Double Door last night to see "Statements Lost". Drove with Andrea and Amanda. Had an awesome time. Thanks Andrea and Amanda for a great trip and time. Hope to do it again soon.

Statements Lost rocked and I love their music. Props for the TMNT TV vintage theme cover. I love it.

Right now I feel like shit inside. I am alone and it is slowly killing me. I just want to end this pain sometimes and I don't mean that in a constructive way either. I cannot block, ignore or deal with it anymore. OH and as far as quitting smoking...FUCK THAT! When I get this solved maybe but until then I am a goddamn chimney. Sorry for all those that I am letting down but it is either that or other shit.

Ok that is it. I am done and this damn post had not dissapear.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man and The Divinci Code

Hail and well met

Well it is time that I threw my hat into the ring of red faced, raving lunatics who seem Hell-bent on railing against this movie and book. I won’t so much as speak about the movie (which I saw) or the book (which I haven’t read), as I will comment on the social hysteria that is prevailing. If you feel that what I am about to say is offensive then all I can say is simply…LOOK AT SOMETHING ELSE. No one is making you read this and as such the only person you can or should be upset at for being offended is you for reading on when you know it will piss you off. I am not here to appease you or anyone else, what I say is mine and I have a GOD given right to say it. So in the end if you don’t like what I say TALK TO GOD cause he is in charge.

Ok here is your final warning I will begin my rant in 12 lines so last chance to look away and read something else…Hell play FreeCell it is an excellent mental exercise as everyone is supposed to be solvable and is free on almost every windows computer.

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So here is my take on the whole thing. In truth what is everyone so worried about? A man who has some interesting ideas decides to put them into a book Now he takes some names and ideas from history and ties them together to make his STORY. So people are now all upset cause history is distorted. Um have we all LOST OUR FREAKING MINDS HERE! This is a work of FICTION (it is where you will find this book in every library and book store in the world). I don’t think that anywhere in the books description will you find it saying it is factual or based on true events. Yet we are running around as if this is exactly what he has claimed. Again and again I read or hear about how he has twisted facts…again what part of FICTION do we seem to not understand. So if we are so pissed off at the misrepresentation of history in this matter then I wonder where all the hysterics were when a little film hit the screens a year or so ago. Did anyone see “National Treasure”? Yeah that one played havoc with history. Yet I don’t remember anyone saying one word about it. So we can put the cop out of it is not historically correct to rest and realize that the real problem is the lack of faith that people have.

Yes this is the real problem. You are screaming bloody murder because your faith is so shallow that a work of fiction that doesn’t even attempt to proclaim it self as “gospel” (pun intended) can make it crack. It just proves to me that you have no real understanding of God and can only relate to him when someone else tells you what he says and what you should do in his name. Thus it seems to me that the real problem is not with any part of this books historical or theological message but one little concept at the end, which I have to read the book and see if it is there as well (but given the opinion of those that have read it I would figure it is there). It comes at the end when Langdon says something to the effect of “All that matters is what you believe”.

Ah ha here is the heresy that has them in an uproar. How dare they even purport the idea? That an individual’s beliefs are more important than the collective authority of the established church. If the church says it you must obey cause it is the will of god cause we say so. (And I am not just speaking of the Catholics either but all churches) The church hierarchy is closer to god they you so you only believe what we say, you have no right to believe anything else. What a load of unmitigated BULLSHIT. If they weren’t so afraid of losing control, power and money they would see that it really doesn’t matter what this movie/book says.

If that were not the case then would you explain how the “Left Behind” series has avoided your scrutiny? Many churches believe that the “Rapture” theory is heresy. Yet this series has three movies on video and not one word is spoken against it. Why? Because nowhere in it does it purport that the individual can be closer to God then the Church. It does not give the importance to what the individual believes or suggests that we all examine what we believe and test it for ourselves. No this is the reason for the hype people. Don’t let yourself be fooled.

I mean in truth if you find it offensive then okay I have no problem with that. If I find something offensive towards my personal beliefs I do something about it…I DON’T SUPPORT THE PERSON OR ITEM. I don’t go running around carrying signs or holding sit ins at movie theaters. Now I am not saying that you shouldn’t. Feel free to express your dislike for the film. I am sure that the movie company also feels this way, since all you end up doing is glorifying the thing in question. It is proven fact that the more you all protest something the more popular it becomes. No movie, book or personality has every really suffered from such activity. In fact many individuals and franchises have seen record profits because of it.

Andrew Dice Clay was disliked and protested against and it made his career. Not that he wasn’t funny but his was a singular wit that should have passed quickly but held on for more then a year and earned him a movie deal. Would he have been so successful if everyone had just ignored him? No he wouldn’t, he would have had his fifteen minutes of fame and then would have been gone. By going crazy over his obviously offensive humor you only helped fuel his image and made everyone want to see what could drive people to do such things.

Those that protested him only succeeded in promoting him. Bad press is still press and sometimes it is more press then something deserves. Which begs the question; whom are you really supporting? Where is your power going? What is your true faith in?

I mean if your faith can be shaken by a stupid movie, then how strong is it really? Let’s face it people there is no way to be sure that we have a true account of what happened with Jesus’ walk on this earth. The book has been around for hundreds of years. It has been translated and redefined and updated so many times that you cannot tell me that it still is in its original form. Can you say for certain that you know that every word is exactly what was written in the original texts? For that matter can you provide proof that who is said wrote it actually wrote it? If we are to be totally honest, since none of us was there, the answer must be no.

But what does that matter? Is your god so weak that only a written book can reach people? I hope not. My God is a God of miraculous things. He created everything in the universe and Beverly Hills. (Laugh cause it was funny cause some of those boob jobs are suspect) He made every atom, particle and ray that bounces around this place. Which means that the very substance that we are made of came from him. He is in us as any creator is within his creations. And a movie can shake your faith in him?

People, God is not looking for zealots. He has had enough of those proclaiming his will in their slaughter and barbarism to make him sick. If you want to dislike the book then have the guts to simply take responsibility for it and say, “I don’t like the book.” Leave it at that. Let everyone make up his or her own mind. If this work of FICTION can shake the faith of someone then in truth they never had any real faith in their beliefs in the first place.

God does not want parrots and sheep. He already created those on his own. He wants those that will have a relationship with him. It is the driving force behind my belief in the Force (God’s presence in all of us or the Holy Spirit) and my reason for walking the path of a Jedi (have to post on that soon). The Force does not control you; it guides you. The Force does not lead you; you walk with the Force. This is what God seems to keep looking for. All he finds are those that don’t want to be responsible for their lives and use him as the reason for everything they do. God doesn’t need a 4.5 million dollar building, people do. God doesn’t need a TV show that costs 100’s of thousands of dollars an episode, egomaniacs do. In fact God doesn’t want money at all, so why do we keep acting like he does?

Matthew 22

19”Shew me the tribute money.” And they brought unto him a penny.

20And he saith unto them, “Whose is this image and superscription? “

21They say unto him, “Caesar's”. Then saith he unto them, “Render therefore unto Caesar the things which are Caesar's; and unto God the things that are God's.”

It would seem to me that God doesn’t need or want mans money. His desires are of the spirit and soul. I don’t want to digress but we should seek these first and foremost in our lives and let the cares of money pass us by. In that matter let the foolishness of the world pass us by. If you truly know God then you know that this world is of little importance and the goings on even less.

Yes Jesus was the Son of God. But he was also a mortal man. He was sent to walk as we do and as such earn our freedom from the oppression of the devil. He had to face every temptation that man has to face. So to say that he avoided the matter of sex and female companionship seems a little foolish. It is one of the biggest hurtles that a man has to face so it seems only natural that Jesus would have had to face it. And for anyone to think that being with a woman or having a wife and child makes him less divine then they don’t think that much of God’s creation. Since it was God that gave Woman to Man as a helpmate. So if being with a Woman is “dirty” then God is a “dirty” God.

It doesn’t lessen his divinity. He still died on the cross and rose again transforming his dead body into a usable one. This is the Son of God that I believe in. Not the dying victim on the cross but the risen King of Kings and Lord of Lords.

Believe what you will and do what you will. Just don’t do it cause someone else says it; do because you truly believe it. That is what faith is all about.

Hebrews 11:1

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man on Stuff

Hail and well met

Well it has become apparent that something is up. Certain people are having trouble in various forms. Many others are concerned for them in different ways, including me and feel helpless because there is nothing we can do.

It sucks but that is what being a friend means sometimes. Just being there and standing by while a friend smashes their head against a brick wall is not easy, but if they are going to do it they are going to do it. All we can do is be their friend when they are laying on the ground in a dazed state and help them up (after we have adorned them with a mustache and glasses with a permanent marker:) That is what friends are for.

It is never easy to just sit back and let someone do it, but stopping them would not help. No I don't mean leave them totally alone, tell them you don't like where they are going or what they are doing. And if the moment arrives don't hesitate to give them a swift "Stupid in the head" (a smack in the back of the head). In a friendly and loving way of course. We all stumble and fall from time to time, hell anyone that has stuck around with me for the last several years knows that is the truth. All of you stuck it out with me, and I was no picnic to be around.

In conclusion I will say it again and again until my dying day. I am here for you if you need someone to talk to. My ear is always open as is my heart. You cannot burden me beyond my capacity, God gave me really big shoulders so use them.

Either way we, your friends, are going to stress about it. Better that we know what is up and can stress about the real problem not the million that we imagine out of ignorance.

There is no ignorance; there is knowledge
There is no fear; there is understanding
There is no ego; there is fellowship

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man Takes the Test Act 2

Hail and well met

Yup just got back from taking the second test for the Post Office. This one is based out of the Frankfort office and is only for the Frankfort office. They are expanding at an explosive rate and need people badly. I like the area and I know it well enough.

Felt better taking it this time as I had taken a similar test before. The memory part was again the worst part. Still with my system feel that I did good. Don't want to say anything else as I don't want to get caught by the Test Police. It is the government so they take this stuff seriously.

Right now I am off to work off some of this excess energy from the experience. After that I am stopping at the loft to work on finishing assembly of my Hordes army now that I have the missing pieces. Maybe I will paint on some of my other stuff as well.

Studiously compiling ideas and info on the Web-site idea. Thanks Mike for the site, it is helping a lot. Giving me some ideas on content and layout, not to mention some cool things I had not thought of. Not gonna jump the gun on this one. Want to make sure that I know what I need to before taking the first step. Of course money is a big part so I will have to make sure the funds are available or know where I can get them. A lot more is also needed and I am still not sure what it all is. As I figure it out I will probably ask some or all of you if you can help.

Ok well the gym calls and my body aches for it (Yeah it aches alright). Have had a good couple of days with everyone home and hanging out. Someone mentioned a BBQ to celebrate the beginning of summer and I think that is an awesome idea. Of course it would be nice if the weather would cooperate on this and give us a decent temperature instead of this unseasonable cold. Not that I am asking for 90's and humidity to match, I think high 70's or low 80's and reasonably dry would be fine.

Also it would be cool if the pool was operable. I love swimming and getting a tan would be awesome. Just remember that Ben needs help with the start up and some cleaning so keep your ear to the ground for the call.

Okay now that is all I have to type right now. Whew I never seem to be able to make a small post.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man makes some changes....

Hail and...Hey watch where you are putting that! And please for the love of God and your own body stop the DAMN HAMMERING!!! I am trying to blog here people!

Hey just a little warning that I am changing things up here and so it could be crazy for a short time. Please bear with me as I do this and know that I am a professional so don't try this at home...Hell who am I kidding?

Anyway I will be at this for the next few days as I tweek my template and get everything up to my standards.

See you around.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!!

Does anyone know the movie I reference in the opening lines?

Matt-Man has a BIG idea

Hail and well met

Well I have to say that I have one big idea. Yeah it is vague and I don't want to just jump on this one without just a little research first, but I do know that I won't be able to do this one alone. No matter what just one person will not be able to pull this one off.

I mean it is BIG. A real gem of an idea that I got today, well last night in truth. No matter when I got it I did some digging and found that it is something that is lacking. I mean their are things that are similar but much more stringent and formal. I want something loose and fun.

Ok Ok I will just spill the beans. I have been reading CAD and Penny Arcade as of late. I mean really reading them. These are people that know their industries but are not a part of them. They are casual observers who comment on the products and practices of their industry on a daily basis. People read them for this and their opinion matters. Well everyone's opinion matters but they are the ones putting it out their for all to read.

Anyway I was thinking so I did some searching and found that no one does the same thing for the RPG/card/tabletop/board gaming industry. So I have been pondering the idea of such a thing. A website devoted to my hobby that allows me and others (Where you all would come in at some point) to voice our opinions on things.

Yeah Yeah I know that the two sites I mentioned have online comics. So what? Are you saying that we cannot do an online comic? We have talked about it enough. So we all say that we cannot draw, well in truth no one starts out drawing well. Someone out their has to have an interest in drawing. Hell I am going to start sketching and see what happens.

All in all it seems a good way for me to express my love for imagination and creativity. After all is not Matt-Man the un-masked defender of such things? I think so!

Well I hope to hear everyone's opinion of this harebrained idea. Please don't be silent for the sake of my "feelings" I am far to old to have any of those. I would prefer if someone just kicked me in the head right now instead of waiting for me to make another mess of things and then do it. Not that I am saying it wouldn't work, cause I know it would. I just don't want another Gameopolis happening with someone saying afterward "Oh hell I knew it was a bad idea" cause this time I will kill you! YOU BASTARD! You know who you are...grrrrrrrr.

Okay well I have to get started on several thing and of course have to run errands...YUCK! Why cannot I just be allowed to do the shopping on my own? I can get it done in like 20 minutes by myself. Oh well it is the price of free room and board. GOD I WANT TO MOVE OUT!!!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man versus the Retail Machine known as Wizards of the Coast

Hail and well met

I just had to post this cause it will cause great consternation, weeping and gnashing of teeth. It will also empty the wallets of many before it is done. You have to read it for yourself so here is the link in the form of a teaser...

Star Wars Spaceships

Yeah that says it all. I just don't know if I can handle that. The mini game wasn't to bad because the figures were small and crapy. But this is different. It is space ships. They almost always look good. GRRRRRRR I am still broke people so stop making shit I want until I am broke no more.

Oh well just had to share the grief.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man and the alarm clock of DOOM!

Hail and well met.

This is a quick post to say nothing really important. I hate over sleeping. Yes I said I hate it. I like sleeping and I like sleeping in but not when I need to get up. I had a plan for today and it required me to get up at 9. My alarm was set I know that cause I double checked it last night. So I can only assume that when it went off this morning I turned it off and crawled back into bed.

I knew that I needed to get up. On many occasions before I have woken up before the alarm has gone off. Why doesn't it work the same way all the time? No nothing I was going to do was earth shattering. All I had planned was doing some stuff around the house and then working out before going to see "Silent Hill" with Todd, Impervia, Chris and some others.

Oh well just a moment of bitching to vent my frustration. I will live. I can work out either later or tomorrow. I just don't want to slip into complacency about it cause it is a good thing. I enjoy my workouts. I feel better for them. So why all of a sudden am I shying away from going? See I guess that is the real problem. I was supposed to go on Saturday, but that didn't happen. I decided to go on Sunday then...Nope. I need to figure out why I am all of a sudden just not going.

Grrrrrr I just have to make myself go. Once I get back at it I know I will keep it up again.

Ok well enough of that diatribe. Wasted enough of you time on stupid shite. Must get ready to go see the flick.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man Reunited

Hail and very well met

I know, I know. This post is a week in the making, but things take time and they take as much as is needed. Besides if I had posted any earlier I would have made a fool of myself and damaged something that is precious to me, a friendship.

As most of you have probably saw with my last post someone left a comment. First off I want to thank everyone for not jumping all over the commenter and rushing to my aid. Next I want to say that I have spoken to him and we have made peace.

I would like to introduce him to all of you here on my blog as I expect to hear from him regularly. Everyone say hello to Mike. He is an old and dear friend hailing from my high-school life an has been a part of it every since. I was a groomsmen in his wedding. We have been on several adventures together. All in all I have to say that we are soul brothers.

Which was the problem. You see during the talk last night I realized that our relationship was one where I look up to him as a big brother. I have always looked up to him, and for the last several years I pulled away because I wasn't living up to example that he set. He has always been a hero to me and he always will. I was ashamed of what I wasn't doing which was STUPID. That is over now. I know what is up and I will deal with it cause I am not losing him.

I know that I have said this many times before and I will say it until the breath has left my body. I love all of you and always will. Just please feel free to kick me in the ass or smack me in the head if I am being stupid. If any of you need anything just ask. No matter how big or small I will do all in my power to help cause that is what really matters. In the end all we have is each other, nothing else matters cause it won't last.

Ok well on to some updated information. I am still waiting for my test results, no big surprise. The real big surprise is that I received a test packet from when I applied through the Frankfort office. After checking it out I have decided to go and take it as well. Apparently it cannot hurt my standings or come back to haunt me so why not. I would prefer to go to work in the Frankfort area anyway. So given that it arrived sooner then the Gary one I wonder if the results will arrive sooner as well...Who knows.

I am deciding on something else but it is taking a great deal of processing cycles and the decision gate is still a ways off. No reason to dump it here until all the committees have chimed in.

Iron Kingdoms is going well and we should be in position to go on hiatus in a week or two. After that is Star Wars. I hope everyone is as excited as I am. I promise that it will be good this time. I have a good story lined up and it is simple. It should be fun.

Jeez this was a long one. But there was just a lot to say. Hope everyone is doing well. I am looking forward to seeing all soon.

There is no ego; there is fellowship

OH yeah I am still working towards that Jedi thing. Probably will post on that soon.

Until then...

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

He's back, he's bad, he's Matt-Man and he is...

Hail and well met one and all

I am sitting at the Matt-comp 5000 in my place to sleep and keep my shit.

The trip was in a word...AMAZING!

I think I have said that to several people already but it deserves to be said again.

I will give a play by play of the trip sooner or later but not now. I am just posting to say hey to all and to let the world know that I am back.

I don't have much time to type right now as I have stuff that I have to get done. You know pay bills and get stuff and see people. The usual kind of thing when you have been gone on a vacation.
I do want to say this though. Everything looks different since I got back. I don't know if I can explain it in words that will make sense, but I will try. Everything seems in focus for the first time. The colors of things seem...I don't know...Clearer or cleaner. Sharper is the word I think that best fits the bill. I feel different I think. I hope it makes sense to you, cause if it does please feel free to explain it. I like it but I want to understand it.

Ok well that is all I really have time for right now. I really need to get this stuff done so I will go and hope to see everyone sooner then later, unless you are at school or somewhere else. Then I hope to see you as soon as possible and I will type at you when possible.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man does Florida

Hail and well met

Man I have to say that I have had one amazing time. My gratitude is overwhelmed by the generosity of my friends. I owe them big time.

Florida was amazing. Busch Gardens was fun, lots of animals to look at whilst they slept the day away (Hyenas look funny when they sleep).

Orlando was unbelievable. I want to go again. Like soon. Of course money is a prohibitive factor but I still want to go back. The park is just amazing. I was so entertained whilst my two buds hit all the coasters. I even did the Mummy ride, which whilst a "Flat" ride was crazy. We went up and down and into turns and curves and WE WERE INSIDE A BUILDING. I have to say that I felt ok after and that gives me hope that I will once again be able to ride the rides. I am still overwhelmed by the magnitude of the parks.

All in all it was far more fun then I thought.

I WANT TO GO BACK!

Ok got that out of my system. I will be coming home Monday and I should be in town by 6 or 7. I will see everyone at the first possible convenience. I have to buy Hordes!!!

Oh man I need to find a woman...WHAT?

I am out out here cause it is weird.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man alive and well in Atlanta

Hail and well met.

Just a shout to say that I am doing AMAZING down here. Having a great time(although I miss all of you). Seen a couple of movies and eaten at some interesting places.

Got my friend moved in and his house is great.

Leaving for Florida tomorrow and coming back on either Friday or Saturday. Plan on being back in the area either Monday or Tuesday.

Yeah kinda taking it easy and playing it by ear.

Hope all is well with all of you.

Mikey cannot wait to hear how the interview went. Hoping it went well.

Well that is all the time I really have right now. See all soon.

OH yeah I got Hordes waiting for me.....

AWESOME!!!!!!!!!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man: A minus 11hours!!!

Waoh wait a minute...I only have 11 hours before I leave?



AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Ok well that now that I have that out of the way I can inform you all of the important things...Which I seem to mostly have covered in previoius posts...So that means that I have nothing much to say that really matters.

In other words nothing new.

Ha that was fun. In actual fact I have some news. My car is fixed. I am picking it up soon. So I am set to get to Iron Kingdoms.

I also have to thank my P's. First off my Father who has come to my aid, yet again. A situation that I am getting sick of on a deep level. Next my Mother who has seen fit to do something that makes this trip easier.

OH and I have to post this picture! It is amazing! And I get them! LOOK SEE.....


Well it is a small picture but a bigger one is at the privateer site. Anyway I have a load of things to do so I will bid you all adieu.

I will be posting from Atlanta next time I type.

May the Force be with all of you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man: A minus 2 days

Okay well things have gone to shit...

My unemployment has run out. I was certain that I had one more check to go but apparently not. My car is in the shop. My back still hurts, at least it is getting better.

And you know what?



I don't care one bit!

Oh hell yeah I was so ready to jump in the pit of despair, but then I realized that there was not one damn thing I could do about any of it so worrying would do nothing.

So I am going to go ahead and leave tomorrow as planned. I am going to go to Atlanta and hopefully Florida. I am going to have a damn good time. Why? Cause if I didn't go it would not change one damn thing. So if this is going the way of a Greek Tragedy then I am going out with a smile. I mean I could stay home and brood about this situation, but again it would not get me anywhere that is better then I will be after going and having a kick ass time with my friends. In fact it could be said that I will be in a better place by going. So there it is. Yeah it sucks and it puts me in a tight situation, but I knew it was coming just not this soon.

Ok well I have a bit of trivial but good news. I finished reading a book that I have had for...Yeah too long. I, Jedi was finished earlier today. So Nicky you can have it back when you get back. It was a kick ass book and I thank you for letting me read it. Oh I have to say that I would love to see a book in which Mara and Mirax got together. It would be the end of the universe as we know it but it would be a kick ass ride. OH wait that did not come out right! I meant...Of forget it you sickos. The important people will get what I mean. So if you don't get the reference then....



READ A BOOK!



Ha I haven't gotten to put that one up in a while. Feels soooo good.

I hope that everyone is doing well, cause if you are not then why haven't I heard about it? Well don't start now cause I am gone in two days...Just kidding, my door is always open to a friend.


May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man: A minus 3 days

Hail and well met.

Let me get this out of the way now. I am in serious pain. Back pain that is. Not sure what brought it on but it has kept me down most of today.

But can stop Matt-Man? I don't think so.

No what can stop Matt-Man is his breaks going to shit. Yup with only three days until I roll out for Atlanta my breaks decide it is a good time to start making with the grinding and jerking. I had hoped that any car repairs would do me the favor of waiting for my to have work, but the best laid plans of mice and Matt-Man so often go astray. So tomorrow I am hoping to get my car in and have it looked at. If not tomorrow then Friday. Either way I am side-lined until it is fixed.

Which means that here I sit in my tabernacle of empirical failure. Oh what fun it is. No I am not going to start downing myself, it is just that this place holds nothing for me except memories of what I didn't do, haven't done and what never can be. It is a place with nothing but echoes of my past and wraiths of my present. Every moment I am forced to be here only cements in my heart an soul the fact that I have to get out or become something not worth talking about.

So for anyone that might have pondered my incessant trips to Lansing or other places, there is the reason.

I have tried to come to terms with this place, if only to survive situations like this one. In truth if I ever did come to terms with being here I would never be able to leave. I am a creature of comfort and as long as I am comfortable with something I don't change it. Rocking the boat and all that just is not my thing. So I endure my stay here only in the fact that I am unable to leave.

So with the pain I am feeling and the stress of having to yet again go to my father to bail me out of a situation I am frayed beyond words.

Bah it is not something I should be dumping on anyone but this is my soapbox.

Well onto something less depressing, in some ways. For the last several weeks I have been visiting a local thrift store. My major reason for going is to check out the selection of used books that they have. In total I have acquired close to 18 books of various topics. Now all I have to do is start reading them. Of course there are the books that others have leant me that still sit unfinished or un-started. I remember when I would devour books in hours instead of months. Many a happy moment can I remember reading a book outside at the cabin my Grandparents have.

Well I expect to have my test results by the time I get back. Well to be honest I am hoping they will be here, cause it will only have been 4 weeks of the 4 to 6 I was told at the test. Given that I was supposed to hear from them about said test in 30 days and it took six months I am just a little worried. No that is not true, I am FINE with it.

Of course FINE stands for...

Freaked out,
Insecure,
Neurotic and
Emotional

I will survive.

Not much more to say here. Pain killers are starting to kick in so I had better stop typing.

Just 3 more days and I am off on an adventure. I cannot wait.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man: A minus 4 days

Hail and well met.

In four days I am off to Atlanta for a week to ten days. I am so psyched for this trip. My buddy Bill and I are leaving Friday night around midnight. So yes everyone that reads this there will be Iron Kingdoms that night, just not the following Friday night as I won't be back. Which is amazing since I get to have one of the greatest role-playing experiences and then spend an 11 hour road trip with one of friends on the way to seeing one of my other friends. It just doesn't get any better then this...Or does it?

Yeah I was informed that there is a side jaunt in the works. It appears that my friend James is not content with hanging around his new house for that week, so he and Bill have discussed a trip...TO FLORIDA! Oh hell yeah! Not only will I be spending time with people that I haven't for the longest time, but we will be visiting a state that I have never been in before. I am so geeked over this trip I cannot put it into words.

I have never seen the sea. I bet its beautiful.

Kudos to anyone that gets that line. Oh man I get to swim in the sea! Awesome is just not a word that covers it right now.

Ok well still waiting for the test results, but that is no big surprise. I have been working hard on a story for the Star Wars game over the summer. Trying to keep it simple and short so we can cover it all in the time allowed. I am suspending Iron Kingdoms for the summer so Friday nights are free for it or anything else we decide to do. Other then Star wars I am still thinking of running a special short game that I have been working on, it still needs some work but if I can get it ready I will run it.

I really am looking forward to running Star Wars. It should be interesting. I am positive that it won't end up like last time. I am keeping things closer to my plan and not making things so rigid that you, the players, can't do what you want. The story may be important but you guys make the story.

Ok well I have to get stuff done off-line so I will type at everyone later.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man for Warmachine!

Hail and well met

I saw this on the web and although it is on Privateer's web site I just had to put it here to show all.



Yup one cool miniature. I will own one. And it is for Hordes no less.

Ok well trying to keep busy until the test arrives. Otherwise I will go STARK RAVING MAD! So glad that in a week I am off to Atlanta. Really looking forward to the time away.

Also hoping beyond hope to pull hitting Carbondale and Econ before I go. Not a lot of chance of that right now, but who knows.

Well that is all for now.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man Forever!

Hail and well met.

Well it has been a short time since I posted. The major reason is there is not much to say. Things are what they are. I am still waiting for the results of my test to arrive and the more I talk to people the more I feel that I did a good job. I am really hoping that I get a good score.

Well there is one thing on the horizon that has me pumped. I am going to see my best friend in the world. The other half of the baddest team up in the history of team ups, The Running Buddies. Also the founding member of the infamous Zoo Crew. Who is this marvel among humankind? His name is James Salmond.

He has been a friend for longer then I care to remember. From way back in high school. I have seen little of him since his move to Atlanta many moons ago. I have visited only twice and he has come up when work allowed. Well now he has a house, dubbed "Mt.Olympus" and Bill (another friend of mine) and I are heading down there around the 22nd of April for a week to 10 days to help him clean up his apartment and move in. It is going to be a blast.

Also I should report that Iron Kingdoms is going well...Ok it is going great. The story is moving along and things are progressing well. I am using the Witchfire Trilogy as a skeleton for the events but as always adding my own special flavor.

Which brings up an interesting thing that I have been thinking about. As most of you have read here or lived, I once upon a time ran Star Wars. Well after closely considering the possible consequences of my actions I have decided to once again don the mantle of GL (George Lucas) and will be running it over the summer. Now for anyone reading this that is going to jump out of their seats there are a few points that I should make perfectly clear.

1) This is set in the time from the end of Episode 3 and Episode 4.
2) There will be no FORCE USERS!
3) It is not going to be the usual fare of one of my games. No galactic threats from beyond. A much simpler and saner game will it be.
4) I am changing things up a bit with character creation. I am merging D20 modern with the Star Wars system (both are D20 so they work together) to allow the creation of characters that I feel will better serve the players.

So there you have it. Yes I know I will get some light grief over the no force users but it is just one less thing for me to have to deal with and opens up some avenues of conflict that otherwise would be at best mundane.

Wow for not having much to say I have filled up quite a page. That about covers it right now. I will have more to say soon.

Again hope that everyone is in good health and spirits. If not then why haven't you called or emailed? You know that I am always willing to listen.

That's a wrap people!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Matt-Man tipping the vessel of hilarity

Hail again and well met

Yeah I know I just posted a long one but then I found this on a friends blog and as I don't know if you all read it I decided to repost it here. These made me laugh out loud as I hope they do for you.




Attending a wedding for the first time, a little girl whispered to her mother, “Why is the bride dressed in white?” “Because white is the color of happiness, and today is the happiest day of her life.” The child thought about this for a moment, then said, “So why is the groom wearing black?”

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A little girl, dressed in her Sunday best, was running as fast as she could, trying not to be late for Bible class. As she ran she prayed, “Dear Lord, please don’t let me be late! Dear Lord, please don’t let me be late!” While she was running and praying, she tripped on a curb and fell, getting her clothes dirty and tearing her dress. She got up, brushed herself off, and started running again! in. As she ran she once again began to pray, “Dear Lord, please don’t let me be late…But please don’t shove me either!”

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Three boys are in the school yard bragging about their fathers. The first boy says, “My Dad scribbles a few words on a piece of paper, he calls it a poem, they give him $50.”

The second boy says, “That’s nothing. My Dad scribbles a few words on a piece of paper, he calls it a song, they give him $100.”

The third boy says, “I got you both beat. My Dad scribbles a few words on a piece of paper, he calls it a sermon, and it takes eight people to
collect all the money!”

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An elderly! woman died last month. Having never married, she requested no male pallbearers. In her handwritten instructions for her memorial service, she wrote, “They wouldn’t take me out while I was alive, I don’t want them to take me out when I’m dead.

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A police recruit was asked during the exam, “What would you do if you had to arrest your own mother?” He answered “Call for backup.”

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A Sunday School teacher asked her class why Joseph and Mary took Jesus with them to Jerusalem. A small child replied: “They couldn’t get a babysitter.”

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A Sunday school teacher was discussing the Ten Commandments with her five and six year olds. After explaining the commandment to “honor thy father and thy mother,” she asked “Is there a commandment that teaches us how to treat our brothers and sisters?” Without missing a beat one little boy answered, “Thou shall not kill.”

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At Sunday School they were teaching how God created everything, including human beings. Little Johnny seemed especially intent when they told him how Eve was created out of one of Adam’s ribs. Later in the week his mother noticed him lying down as though he were ill, and she said, “Johnny, what is the matter?” Little Johnny responded, “I have pain in my side. I think I’m going to have a wife.”

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Two boys were walking home from Sunday school after hearing a strong preaching on the devil. One said to the other, “What do you think about all this Satan stuff?”

The other boy replied, “Well, you know how Santa Claus turned out. It’s probably just your Dad.

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Okay well there it is. Type at you all later.

May the Fo...Oh heck already said it once no need to beat a dead horse.

Later