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Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Matt-Man Comes Back From The Brink!

Hail and well met

It has been a short time since I last posted, ha that word holds new meaning now doesn't it. In fact I have been posting every day just not here but in Crete and I have been posting mail. HA I slay myself sometimes. Ok enough of the bad plays on words.

In fact I have been working almost every day up and including today. Which was by far the hardest day I have had so far, well not so much in the day itself but the lead up to it. Let me explain.

Shortly after I started my leadership support group went on vacation. The primary carrier went on vacation Tuesday of last week and just got back yesterday, my supervisor was gone since Wednesday till yesterday and the Post Master is still on vacation. So as I was in training I had little feedback from up above letting me know if I was doing a good job or not. I was left to stew in my own mind, which is never a good place to be. All of my life I have always held myself to a higher standard then those that were over me and this was no different. When Sue and my supervisor came back yesterday I was expecting to be told "Thanks for nothing have a good day" or at least get a good talking to because in my opinion I had done a lousy job. I didn't think that I was fast enough and was forgetting tons of important things.

Well no big surprise they were ok with the job I had done. Today I was to do the entire route with Sue riding with me to evaluate me. That stressed me so much. Driving for me is something I take seriously especially when someone else is in my car, cause it isn't just my life but theirs as well. Now I know I am a good driver but driving on the left side of the car is totally new so yeah it stressed me a lot. I also had my doubts about my in car routine and that it would be ok.

Well as you should know and by now I should as well, everything went great. Sue was happy with the way I did everything and said that she didn't see much that I could do to improve other then gaining experience. So starting Saturday I will be running the route on my own. So I have planned to take some small amount of time to recover and get into the flow before I jump into a new route but I am on my way.

The really strange part about all of this has been that for all my stressing I didn't get overly depressed. I teetered on the edge of despair but something was there to give me both hope and strength to pull through. That would be my more wonderful lady, Terri. Baby I love you so much. I hope I tell you enough that you mean the world to me. Thank you for being there for me and I hope that I am returning the favor (If not then hit me in the head or kick me in the ass cause I am falling down on the job).

So now that I am past all that stupid stressing I can hunker down and prep for Friday, Saturday and Sunday. What is happening on those days you ask? Well Friday is the return of the most awesome campaign I have had the pleasure to run; Iron Kingdoms! Oh yes boys this Friday begins the return to the Roaring Goat. I am getting geeked! Oh man it is in like my pinky!!!!

Saturday and Sunday I am heading up north to visit my lady. Oh baby I'm coming for you! (oops that could be naughty if you take it the wrong way...;) I love you and I am counting the minutes!

So that is all I have to say, oh wait. I get paid Friday! YEAH I get paid!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Friday, November 24, 2006

Matt-Man in the Meat Grinder

Hail and well met

WOW WTF!!!

It has been quite a ride since I last posted. I have been working at the Post Office almost every day since. Now I am not complaining cause I am guessing that after next Monday it will be down to the one day a week I am supposed to run the route. It is just that to go from no work to everyday up at 5:30 to be at work at 7 and going nonstop till 3:30, 4:30 and even as late as 5:30 is a bit of a shock to the system. I am still not entirely caught up on life.

I did go to see Terri for Thanksgiving and that rocked, although it was a trial. I was going to head up on Wednesday after work and figured it would be a normal day like it had been. Nope they decided to give me 90% of the route and had me run it off the normal carrier time sheet. I believe that it means that I only get the evaluated time that the route should take, not the actual hours I worked. Now I am not compalining cause it is a good pay for the time put in, I just don't think they will like that I was there from 7 till 5:30 and took almost 5 hours on the route proper. It was quite stressful as I was trying to get done so I could leave and see Terri.

I finally got up to her place at around 8ish and we went out and had dinner. We came back and crashed until the next day. Cut and prepared some pumpkins to make pies with, hung out and then went to her parents for dinner. It was a good meal and it was good to be with her and her family. It was a good Thanksgiving, one of the best I have had for a number of years.

Mostly cause I had more then just my health and friends to be thankful for. Not that they are not good things to be thankful for but after awhile it seems hollow. Well this year I added two things. One of course is my beautiful sexy lady Terri and the other is my job.

I could never have expected to find someone so smart, fun, strong, understanding, patient and beautiful who so totally love me for who I am. I am the luckiest man on this planet and I don't exaggerate. Not to say you all haven't found your luck in your partners but this is me we are talking about. You know the man that could need only roll a 2 or better on a D20 and manage every time to roll a 1. But all that has changed now and I am thankful for having her in my life. I cannot thank the Man upstairs for sending her my way. I guess waiting 36 years paid off in spades (I still don't quite know where that comes from or what it means exactly).

My job is...Well my job. It is a paycheck and should allow me to do some things I have been waiting to do that have not been possible whilst broke.

So here I sit. Tired both physically and mentally but at the same time I feel quite content and happy. I know that in time all things are possible, well that and the Force being with me.

Ok well I am quite tired and I don' t want to start rambling aimlessly.

voices scream off screen "TOO LATE!"

Ha very funny. Eat me!

So on that note I am out of here.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Matt-Man - Unleashed

Hail and well met

Well as you probably have figured out at this moment I have tossed out the template I was using. I figured out that no one could comment at all. I tried to figure out the coding for putting them back but all I did was make things a little crazy. I am not giving up though, just need to be able to get any feedback you all leave me. So for the time being I will be using one of the standard templates from Blogger.

Yeah I know who give a rats ass. It is just a blog, but I look at it as an learning experience. So let me have my delusions, ok.

Anyway on to more important news. I have as of today worked four days consecutively at the Post Office. Two of those days I was out on my own driving a part of the route. Yes all by my lonesome.

I like it, which seems to puzzle my coworkers. But like most situations I realize that half of the problem is your point of view and the other is the reality of the situation. Which is not so hot.

The two managerial positions in the office are held by people that at first glance appear to be knowledgeable and competent. Then you watch them work and see what they do, or don't do and their ignorance becomes apparent. They seem prone to micromanagement and are driven to control every thing. In the process they overlook some rather simple managerial duties that would normally get people in trouble. Like...I don't know, making sure to PAY YOUR NEW GUY!

Yeah I am going to have to remind them on Monday that I should have a paycheck for all the training I have done. In fact I am depending on it to keep my car running, an important part of doing my job. Now this is the first time in my life that I have had to chase after management to get paid and it seems that this is the only place that it is a problem. I have been told by more then one person that I should watch my hours cause they love to forget days you work. Oh trust me I am watching them like hawks. I may take my job seriously and I know it must be done, but in no way am I giving up my paycheck.

So all in all it is fun. Casing the mail (sorting it) is kind of like a memory game and I take some enjoyment from it. The driving part is...strange. I can do it with not much problem but it just takes a lot out of me. Which is funny cause everyone else says the casing is harder for them and driving is the easiest. But then again I am no mere mortal....

I AM MATT-MAN!!!

On some other fronts I am going up to Terri's parents for Thanksgiving. I am also thinking about making a trip up there the following weekend. As I get my work schedule worked out I am going to be returning to the gym. With the onset of capitol liquidity I hope to resume some of my usual habits, but I am giving up several. I do have some bills to pay off and I have to do it. All in all I am doing well.

Oh and for everyone to remember and hopefully show up I AM STARTING IRON KINGDOMS A WEEK FROM THIS FRIDAY!

I had intended to start last Friday but between starting work and fighting off a pseudo cold I was glad that everyone seemed to forget my announcement. But don't do it this time! I mean it! Friday the 1st of December Iron Kingdoms starts again!!!

ALL HAIL THE ROARING GOAT!!

Ok well that is all the time I really have for today. I hope to post more soon,

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Matt=Man Mixes It Up

Hail and well met

Well as you can see I have made some changes here at the Closet of Lost Dreams. Tried my hand at altering a template a little to fit my style a little more. Still working on it so let me know what you think.

I start at the Post Office tomorrow. Oh and to answer the question posed in a comment, it pays by the hour.

Well I have tons of things to get done before tomorrow so I am out of here.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Matt-Man Recieves His Orders

Hail and well met

Ok so today I finished up Carrier Academy. I am now qualified to sort and deliver mail. Woot!

I start working next Wednesday at 7:00 AM. I should be in for three days of on the job training and after that I am on my own. Now according to the instructors we should not be surprised if we work only our one day. It is complicated but there are different routes and some of then only have one day off every two weeks while others are every week and some even have no days off. Sucks for them. As far as I know Crete has the one day a week routes mostly. So I will have at least one day a week. Now understand that I am fine with that to begin with so I can ease into the process. But believe me that once I get the hang of doing the sorting at the office and get to know the area I am going to be learning my two other routes as soon as possible and as soon as possible after that I am going to be offering my services to several other Post Offices. If I play my cards right I will be able to pull down four or five days a week. The great thing is this I ONLY HAVE TO WORK DAYS MY PRIMARY CARRIER IS OFF OR SICK OR ON VACATION.
That means that unless they are calling me in for him/her I can refuse with no problem. I can control my work schedule and that is something I have to say makes me happy. Now I am in control and it feels good again.

So I am off till next Wednesday and I will know more from there.

I have a ton of things lined up for me to get done between now and then. It seems funny that I had all that time to get things done but not until this was resolved could I seem to be able to do most of it without getting a splitting headache and stomach pains. Must have to do something with my Subconscious or some other hidden part of my sick little mind.

Ok well this is just a sort of quick post to let every one know where I stand. I will post again soon and maybe even try out a little fiction.

I SAID FICTION NOT FRICTION!....What a buch of sickos. Yeesh!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Matt-Man Gets Surveyed...

Hail and well met

Well it has been a short while since I posted something completely useless and frivolous. So here is my entry in "Most useless entry of the Year award". Enjoy.

An Adult Survey - Be honest.
If you aren't honest, then what is the point?
Fill it out and re-post as a bulletin. Have fun.

I'm not much of a bar person

6) Thrown up from drinking too much?
No not yet but my life is young

7) Had sex in a car?
no yet but one never knows

8) Had sex in a park?
No but see above

9) Had sex in a movie theater?
Hell no. Not against it but I usually want to see the movie… I mean I paid for it and well I am going to leave it at that

10)Had sex in a bathroom??
Public- Not on a bet but Home(hers) yes and it was quite clean.

11) Had sex at work?
Hmmm I wouldn’t be against it but no

12. have u ever been in an adult store?
Not yet but one never knows

13) Ever bought anything in an "adult" store?
not yet but again who knows

14) Have you ever paid more than 100.00 in adult store?
No and I don’t know what you could spend…Oh wait I don’t want to know

15) Is there someone you wish you never had sex with?
Nope wanted it with every last one…Oh wait it has only been one and I wanted it…A LOT!

16) Is there someone you wish you could have had sex with?
sorry nope I got the one I want

17) Is there anyone on your friends list you wish you could have sex with?
I don’t have to wish.

18) Is there anyone on your friends list you have had sex with?
Oh yes and it was amazing!>
19) Have you ever kissed a stranger
I don’t think so. But aren’t we all strangers until we know each other?

20) Have you ever had a one night stand?
Nope never came up

21) Does anyone have naughty pics of you?
Nope but she hasn’t asked for a photo shoot…at least not yet

22) Have you ever been to a swingers club/party?
No and since I don’t want every disease on the planet I don’t think I will

I've come to realize that my ex...
Doesn’t exist

2. I am listening to...
Music…Evanescence, Lose Control from The Open Door.

3. I talk...
so little that at time I can seem like a ghost and some time try to talk as fast as I think.

4. I love...
Terri.

5. My best friends...
are some of the best parts of me.

6. My first real kiss...
took place on May 28/29 in Bills brothers room.

7. I lost my virginity...
with the perfect person.

8. I hate it when people...
aren’t patient

9. Love is...
something I thought I would never find.

10. Marriage is...
not a piece of paper.

11. Somewhere, someone is thinking...
of doing to me the things I am thinking of doing to them.

12. I'll always...
be me.

13. I have a secret crush on...
nobody cause they all know how I feel... Wait sorry I forgot that Jillian Anderson doesn’t know how I feel about her… Sorry Terri but you have Johnny I have Jilly.

14. The last time I cried was because...
I couldn’t make it better.

15. My cell phone...
is more like a complicated pager right now.

16. When I wake up in the morning...
I want to find her here and when I do it is wonderful.

17. Before I go to sleep at night...
I take pain pills.

18. Right now I am thinking about...
Ha this survey, Terri and that my cell phone is going off and why is my Dad calling me at home on my cell phone?

19. Babies are...
something I never thought I wanted until I met Terri.

20. I get on myspace...
a lot less now then I did.

21. Today I...
typed a lot of things in my computer, including this survey.

22. Tonight I will...
go to sleep missing Terri.

23. Tomorrow I will...
go to Lemont to start Carrier Collage.

24. I really want...
to get paid.

25. The person most likely to repost this is...
Jillian Anderson (Hey I can dream can’t I) Ok Terri (I don’t have to dream with you baby, although you are in most of them ROWRR). Ok well there it is. Yup probably not what you wanted to see or hear in your lifetime, but hey its my blog so MEH. I had some fun doing them so at least I hope that they can solicit a laugh...
OH HELL the sign says no soliciting, I am so screwed.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Friday, November 03, 2006

Matt-Man makes the Grade

Hail and well met

Well it is finally official with no signs of them changing their minds or trying to call do over. I am a Federal employee in the Post Office. WOW it only took me almost a year.

Oh I should clarify something. They did try and pull something similar to last time. In short I thought I was hired by Matteson since they kept in touch with me and communicated. What a concept. Well I get almost done with orientation and I get paper word that indicates that I am Rural Carrier Associate in Crete. I asked and they once again said that was the information that they had on hand.

Not willing to make the same mistake I got hold of Carmen at the Matteson Post Offcie and told her the story. She called the Bedford park office and left a message for the person in charge. I went home pending her calling me back once she got the call back and the information. I wasn't home more then 25 minutes when Crete calls wanting to know what up. I asked the lady if they had hired me and she said yes. Well that was the first I had heard of it but since I wanted the job and now that I knew I took it. I mean it is better money and a real job. So after several calls it was all straightened out and I go to carrier collage (or academy which ever is in favor right now) starting next Monday thru Wednesday in Lemont Illinois. Then I start at Crete.

Ok well that is out of the way. I am employed and that is the big hurdle.

Of course good news is always followed by bad, it is just the way of this imperfect world. Wednesday I learned that following a series of events between Jen and the people she is living with she is/was going to return home. It is tearing her and Ben to pieces cause they really love each other. I can relate in some small way with the situation with Terri. But being the kind of guy that I am I had to try and think of a solution. I had some ideas but they needed outside input before I could offer them.

So after calling Terri and talking to her last night telling her all about the situation she came to the same conclusion that I did. She is looking for a roommate and has a available vehicle that could be used. Thus I am trying to get a hold of Jen or Ben to get the ball rolling cause there is a lot of details that must be covered before this either is shelved or becomes reality. So if anyone reads this and can get a hold of Jen PLEASE DO. This is important and if it wasn't for my lack of gas and my desperate need for it next week I would just make a run out the loft. DAMN GAS EATING CARS!

Ok well in other news I am working on a couple of ideas concerning my WOD adventure that I lost when my comp crashed and my hard drive got fried. There are some rather interesting coincidences with my research. But anyway I do hope to run it some time. First I have to get some better idea of the social ecosystem of the early 1900's. If anyone has a simple resource that I could look at with my mind like a really smart and talented bowl of rancid banana pudding that used to be deviled ham please let me know where it is.

Ok well I am going to be posting a couple surveys here and on myspace soon. I have been a little remiss as far as my written adventures of Matt-Man on my myspace blog so maybe I will script one of those today...Oh yeah you don't know. I am off since I don't need to know how to drive one of those funky postal trucks, I am driving my own vehicle. Yeah for unclunky minivan with radio and CD playing ability.

That about raps it up for this installment. Not much more damage I can do around this popsicle stand.

Again if anyone knows how to get a hold of Ben or Jen PLEASE DO SO AND TELL THEM TO CONTACT ME ANYWAY POSSIBLE.
My cell phone (or my really complex pager) 312-320-0839
My home phone (which is my internet connection so call my cell first so I can get off line)
708-747-4630
My email is xens@gmail.com, xens2003@yahoo.com
comments on this blog work as do messages to myspace.

I am out of here.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!