Hail and well met
Things have gone down hill as of late. I won't go into details just yet as some things have yet to be resolved and as such I don't feel comfortable revealing anything just yet.
First of all I screwed up with Terri. It is all my doing. Things are strained between us right now but I am praying we can come out of this stronger then we ever were before. Of course there is the other possibility which I don't wish to talk about but think about every night, which makes sleeping rather hard. I just feel so stupid. I have broken something that was perfect and complete. There is no turning back or fixing it, all that I can pray for is that what was sundered by my act can be
reforged.
Secondly my father decided to let me know that the family is in rather tight financial trouble. That means that I will have to do some quick thinking before things really the fan. That also has been weighing heavy on my mind.
Again I won't go into details more then I have said here, at least not until things get a little more resolved. But as you can guess not the best formula for a good nights sleep nor a good field to cultivate a positive mind set.
I ain't getting down or depressed. Fuck that noise! That will only make the things I fear come to pass. So take that fears and go bug someone else.
We all should never forget that we are the creation of the Creator, Maker, All-Father , Universe or whatever you call it. He don't make things that are flawed or weak and powerless. So all the power we need is within us. That means that there is nothing that any of us can't face and overcome. In other words we are invincible!
So to the world I say bring it on! Cause I am just in the mood to kick some fucking ass! (sorry for all the swearing but it seems appropriate to the situation and mood)
That being said it has taken its toll on my mood and mind so if I seem a little withdrawn or more quiet the usual (if that is even possible) you now know why. Feel free to ask me about it if you like but don't expect a moping, whining, rant. Nope none of that crap from me. I may wane melancholy and a bit morbid but not beaten or defeated cause I am INVINCIBLE! I still feel pain and I suffer for my stupidity but it can only make me stronger.
So I endure. I continue. I plod forward along my blind path to God knows where.
Won't you join me for a stumble?
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
I AM INVINCIBLE!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Friday, April 13, 2007
Matt-Man behind the counter again
Hail and well met
Have to make this quick. Mr.S the current owner of GO Games had surgery on his knee. He was in a lot of pain so he called for help and Matt-Man answered. So here I am behind the counter again, it feels so weird. Not the same as if I ran the place but it does bring back memories.
So the short of it is that I here during the Magic tournament and no Iron Kingdoms...not sure that this was a good idea, but it was the right thing to do.
May the Force be with you...wait what do you need it for I am the one facing down dozens of crazy magic players. May the Force be with me
Excelsior!!!
Have to make this quick. Mr.S the current owner of GO Games had surgery on his knee. He was in a lot of pain so he called for help and Matt-Man answered. So here I am behind the counter again, it feels so weird. Not the same as if I ran the place but it does bring back memories.
So the short of it is that I here during the Magic tournament and no Iron Kingdoms...not sure that this was a good idea, but it was the right thing to do.
May the Force be with you...wait what do you need it for I am the one facing down dozens of crazy magic players. May the Force be with me
Excelsior!!!
Matt-Man and the Something
Hail and well met
Yeah it has been kinda strange as of late. Not really sure what is up in the mind and heart of Matt-Man but it is out of whack. At first I thought I was getting depressed but I know what that feels like and it ain't like that. It could be apathy but I want to figure it out and either accept it or deal with it so I don't buy into that one either.
Here is what is going on. I have the thoughts about making my games and other stuff but find that when I try and work on them I lose all energy. I mean it really drains me to even try and work on them for even a little bit. It has gotten to the point that I can almost put myself to sleep working on them for too long.
What is up with that? It is starting to affect my mind set as I almost want to avoid working on them because of the way I feel when I do. But believe me when I say that my thoughts and desires are strong and I won't let go of this so easily.
Is most confusing.
Well other then that little problem everything is going well. I trained on a new route this week so I can be of more use to the office. Which would mean more hours except that I learned that they just hired new RCA substitutes which will give us a full compliment and leave no route uncovered. That could drastically reduce my hours which is a REAL bad thing. All that said I know the life expectancy of more RCA's in that office and it should prove interesting to see how long it takes for the first one to walk.
Yeah have to say that things have been strange for me as of late. Not sure that I am dealing with it well but I am dealing with it. Sometimes you just have to say "Fuck the bullshit, where's the Hostess?" (the snack cake brand not a female host). Yeah there is a quote from my heady days of youth. Remembering those as of late. Not missing them or pining for them just remembering them. Was I ever that young?
Hey James, don't know if you make it around this blog anymore but if you do, what was I talking about and why? I cannot for the life of me remember. Maybe I will drop you a line and ask.
Oh on a side note saw two movies as of late.
The first is Grindhouse. That movie was FUCKING AWESOME!!! I loved every minute of it and am looking forward to seeing it again at least two or three more times. Yeah I cannot even begin to explain how it was awesome just take my word for it and go see it if you haven't already. If you have then see it again and call me when you do. Now that said I should state that it is no drama or serious piece of cinimatic art. But it does capture the feel of the 70's bad double feature but delivers it with the panache of Tarintino and Rodriguez action and dialog. The trailers in the begining and the middle were amazing, funny and totally over the top. I cannot say enough about the film.
The second is TMNT the new movie. I had heard from some friends that saw it that it sucked. Well I have to put my two cents in. No it did not suck. Did it follow the preconceived notion of where the turtles and April would be in the future? No. Did it try and cover two much ground whilst reliving the same inner struggle that exists in between the 4 ninja? Maybe. Did it leave information out that would have answered all the questions I have raised? Yes.
But the most important question that needs to be asked is: Did the movie feel like a comic book? Yes it did. I have many of the turtles original comic compilations as well as issue #2 in great condition. I have recently read some of them and to tell you the truth it felt like watching a issue of the comic book.
Ok I will say that Casey seemed a little pussy whipped, but lets face it most hard core guys end up that way when they find a woman. Oh and April being a bad ass? Come on after dealing with Shredder, the mousers (not in the movies but in the comic books, alien invasions and the advent of supernatural creatures every other week one is bound to feel the need to 1) get out of a job that has you running into those situations when you should run out and 2) develop those survival skills needed in such situations. As far as being like Tomb Raider I have to admit that they did little to properly explain that. Although it could be noted that with her investigation skills it would be a good lead into a job of finding what people want, not just 3000 year old statues.
All in all I enjoyed the movie and hope they do make more. Maybe they could go back and fix the ASS LOAD of problems with the first two movies (No do not mention that there was more then two films, cause to any TMNT fan there was not, the second one was bad enough). I personally would like to see the Triceritons and the T.G.R.I aliens story lines.
Well enough of my rambling. I must get ready for the rest of the day.
May the Force be with you.
Excelsior!!!
Yeah it has been kinda strange as of late. Not really sure what is up in the mind and heart of Matt-Man but it is out of whack. At first I thought I was getting depressed but I know what that feels like and it ain't like that. It could be apathy but I want to figure it out and either accept it or deal with it so I don't buy into that one either.
Here is what is going on. I have the thoughts about making my games and other stuff but find that when I try and work on them I lose all energy. I mean it really drains me to even try and work on them for even a little bit. It has gotten to the point that I can almost put myself to sleep working on them for too long.
What is up with that? It is starting to affect my mind set as I almost want to avoid working on them because of the way I feel when I do. But believe me when I say that my thoughts and desires are strong and I won't let go of this so easily.
Is most confusing.
Well other then that little problem everything is going well. I trained on a new route this week so I can be of more use to the office. Which would mean more hours except that I learned that they just hired new RCA substitutes which will give us a full compliment and leave no route uncovered. That could drastically reduce my hours which is a REAL bad thing. All that said I know the life expectancy of more RCA's in that office and it should prove interesting to see how long it takes for the first one to walk.
Yeah have to say that things have been strange for me as of late. Not sure that I am dealing with it well but I am dealing with it. Sometimes you just have to say "Fuck the bullshit, where's the Hostess?" (the snack cake brand not a female host). Yeah there is a quote from my heady days of youth. Remembering those as of late. Not missing them or pining for them just remembering them. Was I ever that young?
Hey James, don't know if you make it around this blog anymore but if you do, what was I talking about and why? I cannot for the life of me remember. Maybe I will drop you a line and ask.
Oh on a side note saw two movies as of late.
The first is Grindhouse. That movie was FUCKING AWESOME!!! I loved every minute of it and am looking forward to seeing it again at least two or three more times. Yeah I cannot even begin to explain how it was awesome just take my word for it and go see it if you haven't already. If you have then see it again and call me when you do. Now that said I should state that it is no drama or serious piece of cinimatic art. But it does capture the feel of the 70's bad double feature but delivers it with the panache of Tarintino and Rodriguez action and dialog. The trailers in the begining and the middle were amazing, funny and totally over the top. I cannot say enough about the film.
The second is TMNT the new movie. I had heard from some friends that saw it that it sucked. Well I have to put my two cents in. No it did not suck. Did it follow the preconceived notion of where the turtles and April would be in the future? No. Did it try and cover two much ground whilst reliving the same inner struggle that exists in between the 4 ninja? Maybe. Did it leave information out that would have answered all the questions I have raised? Yes.
But the most important question that needs to be asked is: Did the movie feel like a comic book? Yes it did. I have many of the turtles original comic compilations as well as issue #2 in great condition. I have recently read some of them and to tell you the truth it felt like watching a issue of the comic book.
Ok I will say that Casey seemed a little pussy whipped, but lets face it most hard core guys end up that way when they find a woman. Oh and April being a bad ass? Come on after dealing with Shredder, the mousers (not in the movies but in the comic books, alien invasions and the advent of supernatural creatures every other week one is bound to feel the need to 1) get out of a job that has you running into those situations when you should run out and 2) develop those survival skills needed in such situations. As far as being like Tomb Raider I have to admit that they did little to properly explain that. Although it could be noted that with her investigation skills it would be a good lead into a job of finding what people want, not just 3000 year old statues.
All in all I enjoyed the movie and hope they do make more. Maybe they could go back and fix the ASS LOAD of problems with the first two movies (No do not mention that there was more then two films, cause to any TMNT fan there was not, the second one was bad enough). I personally would like to see the Triceritons and the T.G.R.I aliens story lines.
Well enough of my rambling. I must get ready for the rest of the day.
May the Force be with you.
Excelsior!!!
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Matt-Man ugrades the page
Hail and well met
Not much time to type but just wanted to say HEY.
HEY!
I made some changes and added a news bar on the side. I will add keywords as I think of them, if you have any suggestions please feel free to comment. I like the color scheme but I still think it needs some tweaking.
Well the only other thing is what I found the first time I hit Star Wars on the news bar.
One Man Star Wars
Take a look. It sounds interesting enough to make me want to take a trip to Australia just to see it.
Well off to the races.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Not much time to type but just wanted to say HEY.
HEY!
I made some changes and added a news bar on the side. I will add keywords as I think of them, if you have any suggestions please feel free to comment. I like the color scheme but I still think it needs some tweaking.
Well the only other thing is what I found the first time I hit Star Wars on the news bar.
One Man Star Wars
Take a look. It sounds interesting enough to make me want to take a trip to Australia just to see it.
Well off to the races.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
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