Hail and well met
To all my good friends and anyone else that reads this blog (I know there are some out there which is weird) I am sending out a summons. A few years ago while sitting with a friend of mine I came up with an idea. You see he as well am myself had discovered that no matter what we always seemed invisible to women. In a moment of inspiration I came up with something of a support group/sarcastic release for this feeling. After several hours of thinking about it I have decided to chuck my pride aside (it just keeps getting in the way anyway) and put it out there.
In the next few days or even weeks (depending on my schedule) I will be unveiling a Blog where I will start posting on my feelings concerning this. I also plan on creating a group of products on Cafe Press based on the theme. I may even look into a web site for it as well, but right now it is just the beginning and I don't want to overwhelm myself.
So with out any further ado I introduce to you...
The Justa Friends League!
May the Force be with you!
Excelsior!!!
Friday, March 28, 2008
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Who Wouldn't Fight for Matt-Man?
Hail and well met
I must thank both Nicky and Ferric for their responses and their support. It does mean a lot to me.
I said I was going to post about my trip down to Carbondale. I went with Neal for two days. We got down there late Tuesday night and stayed through Thursday. It was a blast and I had an awesome time. I got to see Nicky, Chris, Joe and the whole gang. Being down there went a long way to rejuvenating me both physically and spiritually. Of course when I came back is when I had that fun conversation that was mentioned in the previous post, but it does not nor shall it every over shadow the great time I had.
I want to thank everyone down there for their hospitality and generosity. I only hope that one day I can repay the kindness.
When we got back on Thursday, we went over to Val and Mel's where some of the 37 inch gang had gathered. Miles, Kristin, Todd and NICK were there. Yes Nick was there and in good health. I really missed seeing him over the last couple of years. Much fun was had by all and it was rather late when I dragged my but to bed.
Not sure when I can make it down again or even if I can but I will keep it in mind. I also want to catch a trip out to Monmouth to hang with Miles before he graduates. Have to contact him and make devious plans.
MUUUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Other then that not much going on. I will see all when I can and hope to talk to anyone I cannot see.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
I must thank both Nicky and Ferric for their responses and their support. It does mean a lot to me.
I said I was going to post about my trip down to Carbondale. I went with Neal for two days. We got down there late Tuesday night and stayed through Thursday. It was a blast and I had an awesome time. I got to see Nicky, Chris, Joe and the whole gang. Being down there went a long way to rejuvenating me both physically and spiritually. Of course when I came back is when I had that fun conversation that was mentioned in the previous post, but it does not nor shall it every over shadow the great time I had.
I want to thank everyone down there for their hospitality and generosity. I only hope that one day I can repay the kindness.
When we got back on Thursday, we went over to Val and Mel's where some of the 37 inch gang had gathered. Miles, Kristin, Todd and NICK were there. Yes Nick was there and in good health. I really missed seeing him over the last couple of years. Much fun was had by all and it was rather late when I dragged my but to bed.
Not sure when I can make it down again or even if I can but I will keep it in mind. I also want to catch a trip out to Monmouth to hang with Miles before he graduates. Have to contact him and make devious plans.
MUUUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Other then that not much going on. I will see all when I can and hope to talk to anyone I cannot see.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Matt-man for the Future
Hail and well met!
Well it has been a long time since I have been able to post. Mostly it has been because of technical problems but that should be no longer a problem very soon. So what can I say.
Well it has been rough on several levels. I feel very alone and I don't mean like having people around alone but the other kind of alone. Everyone keeps telling me that I am good looking and a great guy, so why is it that no matter what I do no one notices me. Of course I know that I don't really jump out there throw myself into the ring so to speak but that has never been my strong suit. Gah I hate trying to figure out what to do in these situations. I even tried to fill out the stuff for Yahoo personals but I found that it kept asking me to define what I am looking for. Wow was I sitting here with that deer in the headlights look. I have no idea what I am looking for and what they offered as way of options really didn't help. So I left it unfinished like so many other things in my life and moved on.
On another front I spoke to a couple of people whom probably thought they were helping me by tearing me down. I was speaking about my work on both my games and the ones for the guys down in St. Louis when I was stopped. I was informed that I was wasting my time and should wake up, grow up and dump these pipe dreams. All I was doing was proving I was a loser and setting myself for failure since there was no future in any of them. Then I was regaled with how I was seen as a lazy mooch who was living off others like some kind of leech. In their opinion I was slowing some people up and would only succeed in taking them down with myself. In fact when I boiled it all down I really don't know why they would have ever been my friends.
To say I was devastated would have been an understatement. I say would have been because I didn't stay depressed. I got pissed off. I mean really angry. Now I know that no one that reads this are among those that were involved with what was said or how I feel but I have to get this off my chest in a forum that will not allow me to speak out loud because every time I do in the privacy of my own space it devolves into swearing and throwing things.
So here is my diatribe and please don't take this to heart.
When I boiled it all down I came to a conclusion.
I DON'T GIVE A FLYING F@#K WHAT YOU ALL THINK!
As far as I can see you only say those things because you are scared to death of me and what I am accomplishing. You see while I am fighting for my dreams you sit there in your drunken stupor with not one dream at all. In fact your idea of a dream is where you can go on your vacation so you can get drunk and forget your pathetic so called life. I don't need to get drunk because I don't need to forget my life. No it may not be perfect but by God it is filled with more then you have. Oh and as far as not having a house, what has it done for you? As far as I can see all it has done for you is tie you down and suck the money out of you. Not to mention the wasted time and money on those stupid techno crap gadgets you have to run out and buy to try and fill your void of a life. You call me a loser well let me tell you something, when it comes down to it you are the loser.
When I get my games published and I will!, Millions will know my name. I will affect those lives and bring fun into their lives. The only people you will affect are the liquor store owners and the Bust Buy corporate accountants, oh and not to mention the credit card companies. They will mourn your passing only as a real parasite mourns its host.
I would go on but as I said before I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK.
IN FACT EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT YOU DON'T READ THIS I CAN ONLY HOPE YOU FEEL THIS. GO F@#K YOURSELVES AND HAVE FUN SPENDING THE REST OF YOUR LIFE DRINKING YOURSELF INTO OBLIVION WHILE SURROUNDING YOURSELF WITH USELESS TECHNO CRAP. I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT ME.
IN FACT IF ANYTHING HAS COME FROM THIS IS THAT I HAVE DECIDED THAT I DON'T CARE WHAT ANYONE THINKS OF ME AND I MEAN NO ONE!
Ok I am going to stop there. It feels good to get it off my chest. If my new outlook upsets anyone, well I would normally say I am sorry but in truth I don't care. It is where I am at and that is that.
I will post on a trip down to Carbondale later cause it was an amazing trip and I loved it.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Well it has been a long time since I have been able to post. Mostly it has been because of technical problems but that should be no longer a problem very soon. So what can I say.
Well it has been rough on several levels. I feel very alone and I don't mean like having people around alone but the other kind of alone. Everyone keeps telling me that I am good looking and a great guy, so why is it that no matter what I do no one notices me. Of course I know that I don't really jump out there throw myself into the ring so to speak but that has never been my strong suit. Gah I hate trying to figure out what to do in these situations. I even tried to fill out the stuff for Yahoo personals but I found that it kept asking me to define what I am looking for. Wow was I sitting here with that deer in the headlights look. I have no idea what I am looking for and what they offered as way of options really didn't help. So I left it unfinished like so many other things in my life and moved on.
On another front I spoke to a couple of people whom probably thought they were helping me by tearing me down. I was speaking about my work on both my games and the ones for the guys down in St. Louis when I was stopped. I was informed that I was wasting my time and should wake up, grow up and dump these pipe dreams. All I was doing was proving I was a loser and setting myself for failure since there was no future in any of them. Then I was regaled with how I was seen as a lazy mooch who was living off others like some kind of leech. In their opinion I was slowing some people up and would only succeed in taking them down with myself. In fact when I boiled it all down I really don't know why they would have ever been my friends.
To say I was devastated would have been an understatement. I say would have been because I didn't stay depressed. I got pissed off. I mean really angry. Now I know that no one that reads this are among those that were involved with what was said or how I feel but I have to get this off my chest in a forum that will not allow me to speak out loud because every time I do in the privacy of my own space it devolves into swearing and throwing things.
So here is my diatribe and please don't take this to heart.
When I boiled it all down I came to a conclusion.
I DON'T GIVE A FLYING F@#K WHAT YOU ALL THINK!
As far as I can see you only say those things because you are scared to death of me and what I am accomplishing. You see while I am fighting for my dreams you sit there in your drunken stupor with not one dream at all. In fact your idea of a dream is where you can go on your vacation so you can get drunk and forget your pathetic so called life. I don't need to get drunk because I don't need to forget my life. No it may not be perfect but by God it is filled with more then you have. Oh and as far as not having a house, what has it done for you? As far as I can see all it has done for you is tie you down and suck the money out of you. Not to mention the wasted time and money on those stupid techno crap gadgets you have to run out and buy to try and fill your void of a life. You call me a loser well let me tell you something, when it comes down to it you are the loser.
When I get my games published and I will!, Millions will know my name. I will affect those lives and bring fun into their lives. The only people you will affect are the liquor store owners and the Bust Buy corporate accountants, oh and not to mention the credit card companies. They will mourn your passing only as a real parasite mourns its host.
I would go on but as I said before I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK.
IN FACT EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT YOU DON'T READ THIS I CAN ONLY HOPE YOU FEEL THIS. GO F@#K YOURSELVES AND HAVE FUN SPENDING THE REST OF YOUR LIFE DRINKING YOURSELF INTO OBLIVION WHILE SURROUNDING YOURSELF WITH USELESS TECHNO CRAP. I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT ME.
IN FACT IF ANYTHING HAS COME FROM THIS IS THAT I HAVE DECIDED THAT I DON'T CARE WHAT ANYONE THINKS OF ME AND I MEAN NO ONE!
Ok I am going to stop there. It feels good to get it off my chest. If my new outlook upsets anyone, well I would normally say I am sorry but in truth I don't care. It is where I am at and that is that.
I will post on a trip down to Carbondale later cause it was an amazing trip and I loved it.
May the Force be with you
Excelsior!!!
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Matt-Man Bids Farewell to a Real Hero
Hail and well met.
Yesterday morning co-creator of D&D and so much more, passed away at the age of 69. I was informed by a good friend last night and this morning I have been reading many of the reports and posts concerning this.
I was going to try and type my feeling on this matter, but that will have to come later. Right now I just want to say that this man has touched so many and by doing so has made this world a better place. If not for his creativity I know I would not be where I am today or the person I am either. I know I owe him so much that words cannot begin to express.
Good friend you will be missed.
May the Force be with you.
Excelsior!!!
Yesterday morning co-creator of D&D and so much more, passed away at the age of 69. I was informed by a good friend last night and this morning I have been reading many of the reports and posts concerning this.
I was going to try and type my feeling on this matter, but that will have to come later. Right now I just want to say that this man has touched so many and by doing so has made this world a better place. If not for his creativity I know I would not be where I am today or the person I am either. I know I owe him so much that words cannot begin to express.
Good friend you will be missed.
May the Force be with you.
Excelsior!!!
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