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Thursday, April 05, 2007

Matt-Man ugrades the page

Hail and well met

Not much time to type but just wanted to say HEY.

HEY!

I made some changes and added a news bar on the side. I will add keywords as I think of them, if you have any suggestions please feel free to comment. I like the color scheme but I still think it needs some tweaking.

Well the only other thing is what I found the first time I hit Star Wars on the news bar.

One Man Star Wars

Take a look. It sounds interesting enough to make me want to take a trip to Australia just to see it.

Well off to the races.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Friday, March 30, 2007

It is not Matt-Man vs the Mail Man, Matt-Man is the Mail Man

Hail and well met

Well much has happened since I last posted. First of all you should wonder why I am back typing on my computer when I am supposed to be in Carbondale. Well that is the crux of this post so I will get to it.

First of all the trip down was boring as usual. I left around 12:30-1ish and arrived around 5:30. Went to Joe's place for a minute before we headed off to role play where I got to play a cameo as a multi personality rogue. It was a blast and I had a lot of fun. Then we broke early so Josh could get to bed for work in the morning.

Nicky took me back to Chris's apartment where I would be staying. It was a nice apartment with ample space to live in, I was impressed. The guys (Nick and Joe) were cool and I appreciated their hospitality. I mean Chris had to put up with me cause Nicky would probably have gotten upset (I kid I am a kidder). No all of them showed me kindness that I was starting to think was absent from the world on a whole. Anyway the next day I was left to fend for myself, with the only hitch being I was sequestered in the apartment building since no one (Nicky) left me a key. No biggie I made my self busy by reading some stuff and then doing some cleaning, mostly vacuuming the floor and the dishes. Then I watched some West Wing, AMAZING show. Anyway had a good day and went to bed with the idea that Joe would have his paper/presentation finished and we could spend the day together.

Woke up and as habit checked my phone. First mistake (if you care to look at it like that). There was a phone call from Crete. I cringed and had to make a split second decision. I could have ignored the call and just gone about my day (really tempting but there was the possibility that I could lose my job for such an action) or I could do the responsible thing and call back.

Damn my ethics cause I called.

Yup I had to come in to work. Which meant I had to pack and run right then and there. I was somewhat pissed (although I must admit now that as I look back at it I was more acting pissed then really being pissed, the word that best fits my feeling is disappointed) So ran upstairs to the room packed my stuff (forgetting my phone charger damnit) and made a mad dash for Crete.

So here I sit typing and really not pissed off at all. Everything happens for a reason and I think I am starting to really live by that mantra. I had to come back up here for something. Don't know and really don't care. The universe is quite capable of taking care of itself so if whatever it is didn't happen don't blame me.

Well I am going to jump off line, call Terri, change my clothes and head over to the gym. Then grab some lunch and go to the loft and paint. Maybe see a movie tonight or maybe not. Who knows I don't.

May the Force be with you


Excelsior!!!

Monday, March 26, 2007

Matt-Man and the Long Walk

Err I mean drive.

Hail and well met!

Yeah I am getting the final things put in order so I can head out of here tomorrow to Carbondale to see everyone.

Not much to say. Had an amazing weekend at Terri's (well except for Grizzly barking all of last night keeping me up). Yeah apparently her neighbors kids or friends of theirs or evil henchmen of some new megalomaniac super villian have been sneaking around her house for nefarious reasons and agitating Grizzly. It made for an interesting evening and a very long day.

Other then that not much to report. The gig is the gig. I am well and healthy. Yup not a whole lot new.

So enough of typing for the sake of typing I will talk to all sooner or later. Love to all of you.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Matt-Man VS.The Darkness

Darkness comes
Darkness spreads
Darkness lives
Darkness grows
All those that face it find only dread
Why it is so powerful no one knows
That is the way it has always been is what they say
but I don't believe it is that way
It only get stronger if we fail
To shine as bright as we can
not flicker pale.
So do not despair
and your hope do not loose
Raise you spirit up and the light you must choose.

Hail and well met

Well not the best of my compositions but it just seemed to roll out. I have been combating the darkness of late. Yeah like you couldn't figure that out by my lack of postings. Seems that I don't want to dump my self endulgent crap here anymore. Besides all it does is fuel it.

What I need is a fresh perspective. I have to give the creator a chance to give me his message and direction. I have found the source of this chance and I will endeavor to avail myself of it.

All in all life is going well. Work is going good, in fact they allowed me to take off to Carbondale next week as I had hoped to. Well almost, I didn't get Saturday off but with the loss of regulars and lack of subs it was impossible to cover all routes. Which is something I can understand. That may be why they like me so much over there. I am not selfishly looking out for my interests only, but seeking to co-exist with them and in the process getting what we all want.

Terri is as amazing as always. I love her so much that it hurts sometimes. I am going to see her this weekend. In fact it is going to be a busy week for me. Leave Saturday for Terri's, stay there till Monday then coming home doing washings and packing. Then Tuesday off to Carbondale till Friday when it is back here to work on Saturday. Wow it is quite overwhelming when you look at it like that.

But I need to get away (yeah who doesn't).

I am looking forward to the refreshing of the spirit and mind by spending time with good friends in good places making for good times. The only thing missing will be Terri. God I wish she could go with. Oh well we will have to see about the wedding.

Hmmm that about wraps it up for me right now. I will hopefully see everyone in the next couple of weeks.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Matt-Man and The Trans Axle of Destiniy

Hail and well met

Five days have passed since I last posted and to be honest I just haven't known what to post about. Well that and I have been working so much that by the time I could post I was so tired that I couldn't form a complete sentence if I tried.

Well current events are a good place to start. Work is going FINE (as in fucked up insecure neurotic and emotional). Now that is not to say that I am feeling FINE cause I am not, no it is the rest of that office that needs a good healthy dose of reality.

In the gruff voice of a man that has smoked filter-less cigarettes since he was 2 years old

In a world were drama runs rampant only one thing can relieve the pain and annoyance.

Take a dose of reality, the anti-drama.

Warning : side effects include situations that are really drama and not make believe including but not exclusive to: pregnancy, love, hate, loss of job, loss of significant other, possible loss of job and other real life shit.

voice fades away

Yup I find it rather funny when I am not there to think of all the childish shit that is going on. As I usually do I tried to not fall into the rumors believing them to be the total truth, cause they never really are most of the time. Well in this case they are closer then most but there are a lot of other problems in that office.

The biggest is the other carriers. So many of them are of the opinion (which I have found to be common among union workers that have lost the perspective of reality) that things are their right, when in fact those things are a privilege. Something that has to be earned and maintained. Now based on this misconception they run around with expectations that are impossible in the real world and as such they end up being pissed off all the time or close to it. So every day that I am there I get to listen to the latest rant on how things are not right or fair or whatever.

Get over it and do the damn job! I mean for me the reality is still less then a year away. Being unemployed, broke, worthless (well in the eyes of the world, stupid world)all of these things were all too real and the pain that went with them. Apparently they don't remember or have never felt them.

I guess the other biggest thing is that I just don't understand the mentality of "I really don't like my job at all but instead of doing one damn thing about it I am just going to do it badly and bitch about it".

Just realize that you have the power to change things if you want but that choice is fraught with difficulty cause change is never easy. It is often worth the effort though.
If you choose to not change things then accept you choice and do what needs to be done. You will find that life is more enjoyable and things smooth out when you accept those things you choose not to change.

Again it is not easy to change but don't bitch about that fact. That is like bitching about the fact that you will get a sunburn if you stay out in the sun with out taking precautions.

Will this change my plans for the future? Well maybe a little. I like the area and the routes are not bad. I really prefer the true rural routes to those that are more in the suburbs. Which makes the future a interesting place cause if I plan on moving in with Terri in some form or another I have to find a place that fills my needs.

Well this rant has gone on long enough. It seems that I got away from current events and indulged in a soapbox rant.

I will just have to post again sooner then later so I can get everything updated.

There is just one thing that needs saying...

300 IS AN AMAZING MOVIE!!!!!
GO SEE IT IF YOU HAVEN'T YET...
HECK GO SEE IT AGAIN IF YOU HAVE!!!



WHY AM I SCREAMING LIKE SAMUAL JACKSON?!

a terrible grin crosses his face and his eyes get shifty


I AM TIRED OF THESE MOTHER FUCKING SNAKES ON THIS MOTHER FUCKING PLANE!

Sorry I just couldn't resist. Still haven't seen that film...yet!

Ok that is all for now.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Monday, March 12, 2007

Matt-Man and the Phantom Post

Hail and well met

Well I thought I had posted on Saturday whilst at the loft...but it appears that I am mistaken cause there is not such post anywhere here. Well no biggie just hoping that this one makes it.

Truthfully I don't have much to post about. Saturday was awesome. Nicky had fun getting well her 21st birthday on. Drinks flowed free for all. Fun was had by all.

I broke away from the party around 12ish and headed over to Terri's. We grabbed some sleep and got up in time to head over to her parents for Corned beef and cabbage (love corn beef but not so much the cabbage cuz it gives me gas)Then off to the game it was. The Wolves won, YEAH. I was worried because it was looking that I was bad luck. Every game I have gone to with the exception of last night they had lost. But that is all behind me.

Then we headed back to her house and I grabbed a nap while she made dinner. Then it was goodbyes and tears and I was back on my down here. Yeah it was a lot of driving but she is more then worth it.

So now I sit here typing and as soon as this is done I am heading over to Lansing to hang out. Tomorrow will be more of the same. Yeah not the most exciting life but then again that can get annoying.

I love you Terri!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Thursday, March 08, 2007

Matt-Man does a BoneHead Manuver but Terri Belle steps in to save the day

Hail and well met

It is a long title but it is appropriate to the situation. I am referring to this weekends festivities.

You see I managed to get my head wrapped around something that someone said and of course the dread captain Oblivious stepped in and blinded me the complete picture.

In a nutshell someone mentioned your birthday and celebrating it last weekend, which of course was not possible cause you weren't here. So logically I should have filed that under things to come and stamped this weekend with a question mark. Nope I filed it under things that have happened or things that didn't happen and moved on. Well that means that all this work to get everyone up to see Khaos Theory and Terri has been counter productive to everyone partying with Nicky for her birthday. When I finally kicked oblivious out of my office and looked at things I felt rather crappy.

Now of course everyone is going to say it is ok, no harm no foul (well most of you...some? Thank you sir in the back I appre...Oh the bathroom is the second on the right). Nicky I am sorry for forgetting about your birthday celebration.

I mean it is your 21st and you only get one of those.

Well Terri and I talked. I love that woman so much. I was ready to go up and see the band with just her and then she blind sides me. And I wanted to cause I said I would and the band kicks ass and all that jazz, but down deep I was going to be pissed that I missed your party. She told me to stay down here and celebrate, that seeing her is important and so is seeing my friends. She is the one that said the line "you only get one 21st birthday". She is so amazing. I just wish she was able to come down here.

So Nicky if you will have me at your celebration I would like to come.

What can I say I am love struck. She blinded me with ...well we will leave that blank for now (don't want to get slapped).

No it is all my doing. Not a biggie but if I don't nip it in the bud it will blossom into a damn lemon tree. don't need anymore of those.

Ok well that is all I really have time for now I will talk to everyone later, some in person some in print and some by the powers of my mind!!!

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Matt-Man..Who Else?


Hail and well met


Had to share that one with everyone.

Ok someone asked me when the show is Saturday. It is around 10 in the evening and there are three bands playing. So it is going to be a late night for anyone coming out. Still haven't gotten a solid price so figure around 10 dollars should make sure you are covered (again I can spot if needed)It is at a bar..Oh wait that shouldn't be a problem anymore, YIPPEEE!

Ok well not much else to report. I need to get my ass in gear on several things so I can move forward. I cannot just sit here wasting time (no I am not referring to doing this blog either it is important).

I can be successful
I will be successful
I am successful.

I am siting behind my desk in my office of my game company. I am rolling in money and things are amazing. I have the car of my dreams (1969 GTO with the paint from XXX) and I have a fully full on relationship with Terri.

Oh that? That is just an exercise in visualizing what I want and where I am going to be. Long story short it is putting the form to the universe so it can take shape in the future (not as far off as you would think). I mean what good is it to be a super hero if you don't flex those powers once and a while.

Consider it a discipline of the mind which puts the spirit over it. Cause to my mind I am nowhere near that vision, but I do believe it and will act on it every day. How does Qui Gon Jin put it in Episode 1.

"Your focus determines you reality."

That is either a exact quote or a close proximity.

Oh yes I am still on that path as well. Kind of funny how they seem to work so well together. Never would have thought it was possible but they dove tail rather well.

OK so that is about it for now. I have to go and take of some things.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Monday, March 05, 2007

Matt-Man finally gets conected

Hail and well met

Well it took almost an half an hour to get blogger up and running. I just love dial up. Well not much to report on as of right now.

Gamed over the weekend and it was fantastic. Friday saw the long awaited return of Iron Kingdoms and Saturday Quinlan made his return to Grey company lite.

Sunday Todd and myself went to see "Pan's Labyrinth". To put it in words I was stunned. I was expecting a good movie not a life experience. To simply say it was good would be a disservice to the movie. I will probably see it when it comes out on DVD so I can stop it and really get a good look at the sets and costumes. I also look forward to the commentary from Guillermo del Toro. It was moving and deep and rich, there are just not words that really do it justice. So to say it was worth going to see is an understatement. If you haven't seen it and you have the chance. do it. Just be ready for a heavy movie experience.

Well this weekend I am heading up to see Terri via Ye Olde Town Inn for a Khaos Theory show. We are going to meet there and head up after the show. Val and Mel are going as well (Yippieee) as well some of the other 37 inch gamers. If you are interested let me know. I believe it is a 6 or 7 dollar show (if that is a problem I should be able to cover a couple of people). To make a day of it I am planning on going up earlier to stop at Games Plus (a real kick ass game store just across the tracks from the venue). Again anyone interested let me know and we will go from there.

Not much else to report. Working a lot of hours which is a good thing. Just have to make sure to make the time to work on all the things that need to be done.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Matt-Man is FINE on Route 9

Hail and well met

Well as you can see I haven't posted in awhile. It has been quite hectic around the Matt-cave lately. Mostly it has been working. With the passing of one of the regulars and recent sickness and family troubles around the office I have had to step up. Specifically I have had to learn another route. That is the route mentioned in the title, route 9.

It is roughly the same size as route 7, maybe a smidge bigger. The driving is a bit longer in my opinion but that probably just me. None of which is a big deal, the problem was/is that I got blind sided with it. When I came into work Tuesday I was supposed to work on 10(the baby route)but as I was walking in Laura (my supervisor) stopped me first of all to inform me that route 10 starts at 9:00 not 7:00 like the rest of the routes. This was the first annoyance since I don't feel like waiting around the house for 2 more hours and trying to sleep the extra won't happen. Not to mention that I still don't have the route mastered so the extra time helps me get out and back at a decent time. But I digress from the subject.

Then she tells me to start casing on 9, no explanation other then I will be taking some of it out. So over I go and start working the mail. Well of course I am hunting and pecking since I don't have a clue of the layout for the cases. Then after an hour or two I learn I am taking the whole thing out, this after seeing the 7 trays of mail for the route. I freaked just a little.

So after working my self into a basket weaving class (meaning crazed frenzy and thus needing time at the house of white coats) I hit the road, around 1ish. Of course I am sweating it cause the truck comes at 5 o'clock and if it leave I am making the trip up to Bedford Park with the mail.

Now I have been rather humble of my skills but I cannot avoid the truth that I ran the route in good time, just over 3 and a half hours. So I made it back before the deadline. I was so relieved.

Today I ran it again and with a little help from Laura (that supervisor person again) I was on the road by 11:45 and back in the office by 3:00 (that is 3 hours and 15 minutes for those the don't want to do the math). Now I have not looked to see what the evaluated time on the road is but I know that I am not that far off. I am getting good at this. YEAH for me!

So again I run route 9 tomorrow. I hope to beat my time from today but breaking even will be fine as well.

Ok enough of that and on to other things. I am not sure which day was the last that I posted but it doesn't matter. This Friday Iron Kingdoms is happening at Val's. He is running Mel to Michigan and back so it won't happen until he gets back but it is happening.

Also I am sending out the call. MATT-FRIENDS ASSEMBLE! That band that Terri knows (Khaos Theory is playing at Ye Old Town Inn on March 10th. Everyone is invited albeit they will need to provide their own transportation cause I am going up to her place after the show. The details are on the Khaos Theory My Space page as well as here.


Khaos Theory

March, 10 2007 at Ye Olde Town Inn
18 W. Busse Ave, Mount Prospect, Illinois
Cost : (no price is listed so I don't know if it is free or they didn't post the cost but don't let that stop you from coming cause I am willing to cover anyone that wants to come)

Also it is good to note that this is located literally across the tracks from Games Plus, a kick ass game store. So I was thinking of heading out a little earlier and stop on in and pa ruse the goods. Again anyone that is interested is welcome to come along for that as well.

Just leave me a note letting me know what is up and we and communicate from their. Well I have to get up so...


May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Matt-Man? Who is Matt-Man?

Hail and well met

That is the question that seems to be floating around in my head as of late. Finding my fingers nearly raw from my chewing and my stomach on perpetual spin cycle. My dreams are far and few between when I used to do it every night.

Things are going good...ish. I keep working but the hours are starting to fall off, greatly. I know that if I went in and learned more routes I would get more hours but that is a double edged sword cause it won't be with any regularity or consistency. It is kind of hard to do anything when you could be called in at any moment or any day. Not what I had planned for when this all started. I thought I would be able to schedule a little better which days I work. So now I find a majority of my life is on hold every day until 6 when I know that there is no chance of getting called.

But even that is not the root of the problem. I can deal with that cause besides wanting to visit Terri and stay till Monday or Tuesday and visiting friends out of town for weekends I don't do much in the day time.

I think I just need to get out and game. I mean really game. Not just a little bit here or there but seriously sit down and play a couple of games of Warmachine or several hours of serious RPGing (well as serious as we can be).

I guess I never really understood how much gaming meant to my life. I know that I have not been doing much of that for over a month, about the same time all this started. Well sort of I mean I haven't gamed with any regularity for close to six months.

That is it! I am gaming again and I am going to drag people with me.

Iron Kingdoms next Friday. Period. Write it in the calender and set your watch by it.

Wednesday I am going to be up at GO and I am going to play Warmachine.

Be there or be somewhere else where Matt-Man is not, doing different stuff then Matt-Man is doing with other people which are not Matt-Man. At least I hope they are not me, cause that would mean breaking some laws of physics or some such. If I am there remind me that I need to game and make sure to pick up a gallon of milk on the way home.

I do feel better I guess. Won't really know if I am on the right track until I actually game and see how I do after.

Ok enough of this and that. It is time to make circles with mints. I will haste no longer!

I really do love that fortune it is so off the wall.

Well I am off to GO and maybe Stand Up Comics and from there who knows. Later I am heading up to see Terri. I love you baby!


May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

If Matt-Man Can Dodge A Wrench, Matt-Man Can Dodge A Ball

Hail and well met

It has been awhile since I posted. I originally was going to apologize for this but realized that was wrong. As I sat here pondering what to post and forming a script in my head I found this line troubling

"I am sorry for not posting sooner"

Why should I apologize for being busy? Since when was it polite to take on guilt for living and being busy? As I thought about it I realized an analogy that made sense and fit the feeling I was sensing.

Such foolishness is like running a race and doing really well. Then stopping and thinking that it is too easy for you and to hard for the other racers or the audience and taking a rock and putting it into your shoe to make it seem more fair or OK. Now if anyone here has ever done any running (Hi Ace) I am sure that you know that having a rock into your shoe is not fun nor does it improve your running style. So to make our perception of how others see us feel better we lessen ourselves, how can that be better then being a leaf on the wind?

More over it seems we are trained by society and the "polite" people to apologize for all of our success and as such we are placing more rocks into our shoes. In the end all we do is find ourselves unable to wear our shoes at all and walking down the track of life going far slower then we could while others are passing us by and all we get to say is how "rude" they are.

Now to make this analogy fully understood I should explain that I went to Rich East High School (or Bitch East as I knew it) and we had a track like most schools. Our track was made of crushed lava rock. If any of you have had to walk barefoot over lava rock at all you know it is not fun (um yes there is a bit of personal experience in what I say here but lets just leave that for another time). That is what I imagine in this analogy.

Well fellow runners take up hope and follow my lead. For I am taking off my shoes and dumping all the rocks out, lacing them back up and becoming like the wind.

OK well now that is out of the way let me update everyone on what I have been up to.

The weekend of the 10Th I went up to see Terri. We went out and saw Khaos Theory, a bad that started out as a Godsmack cover band and has evolved into their own entity. It was at Penny Road Pub and was a blast. I like their music and the guys are nice and friendly. Terri has known their drummer for a long time and knows all the band members. I myself am just blown away at the acceptance I get from them for just being there. If you are interested in learning more about them (yes a shameless plug but that is what I do, creativity and all) you should check out their Myspace page.

Khaos Theroy MySpace page


Well then I stayed there until Monday when I returned so I could prepare...

For Valentines Day!!!!

Now of course the forces of the universe decided to test my resolve but I showed them. I mean I worked that morning at Matteson and then through the snow made the drive up to see my lady. Now I had to adapt and could not meet her for lunch but that did not matter. I made it up to her house and immediately started fixing dinner. Oh man I was so good. I made chicken breasts marinated in some orange juice with rosemary, ginger, basil and ...um...crap I cannot remember what the last seasoning was. Oh well it doesn't matter cause they were awesome. I then set about pan frying some vegetables. I had zucchini, protobella mushrooms and asparagus. For the last part I made, or more truthfully tried to make gnocchi. I had the recipe and followed it but they never turned out just quite as they described them in the recipe. I made it work and she seemed to like them but she is not big on dumplings. For beginners I made salad with little shrimp. Oh it was great and she loved it. It was the best Valentines day I had ever had. Of course it was truly the first one I had ever had so I have already began planning next year so I can make it bigger and better.

I stayed until Friday and when I left I headed up to Kenosha to pick up Neal. Why would I do that? Well you see we had plans to go over and visit Miles in Monmouth for the weekend and with me already at Terri's it was only a 30 minute drive to pick him up and then we both headed back down here. So his campus is small and really is right off the lake. I mean you can throw rocks at it and if you have the arm you could probably hit the beach if not the lake.

SIDE NOTE - I have to say that I really like the feel of small campuses over big ones, although I do like Carbondale. What a dichotomy.

Well finding the place was not a problem so after a slight delay cause I could not be found by Neal we packed up and left. On the way back we stopped by Chipotle for lunch were Neal got a free meal for some reason. When he went up to pay the cashier told him she was told to pay for his meal and would not say by whom or why. So I was ticked cause she had asked if we were together and if I had said yes I would have had free Chipotle as well. Oh well it was good anyway.

Then we headed out for home. But we found another delay. Game Plus. I couldn't help but tease Neal that we would be passing near it and he asked if we could stop in. I was in no hurry so we did.

I like that store cause they have a lot of everything. I mean if you cannot find it there then it probably is long gone, but they may know where to find it. It is a cornucopia of gaming stuff. I managed to refrain from spending anything (yeah what a feat of control and will power) while Neal walked away with only spending 10 dollars. Yeah for Neal!

After that it was a straight shot home. I stopped off at home and dropped off my stuff then headed out and took Neal home. From their I spoke to Todd and learned of the plan to go and see Ghost Rider with the guys from Stand Up Comics. WOOT!

Now I have to stop here and say that I was disappointed with the weekend in one way. I had hoped to pull off the trick of being able to see Nicky as well before I left. Well she didn't get in till after we were off to see the flick. I am sorry for missing you and your Wing man/copilot Ace but that is the way of things. I will see you when I am down for E-con. So Matt-Man has spoken so it shall it be done!

Now onto the film. I don't feel like giving it a full review cause there are more talented people out there who get paid for this kind of thing. So in a Matt-shell here it is. I liked the film. Nothing screamed "SUCK" but at the same time nothing screamed "AWESOME" either. In many ways I think that it was a lot like Fantastic Four. A good foundation to build from and as such make better and better sequels.
Speaking of the Fantastic Four...The next movie looks AMAZING!!!!!

OK well not to lose sight of this post I will leave it at that. After the movie we left and said goodnight. I was glad cause I had to work the next day. So off to beddie bie land I went.

Now things took a turn for the annoying. I went into work and learned that they had been trying to reach me since Wednesday (Valentines day for reference). They wanted me to come in and start training on a new route and then my regular Sue needed the day off on Friday since her daughter was sick. Well I didn't get a single phone call all week. No messages nothing was on my phone. I was pissed and upset. I mean I know that it was because of my phone but I still knew that it caused problems and I hate that. I take my job seriously. I am the relief for Sue and am supposed to be available when she needs me. I don't know but in the end I spent a lot of time apologizing to everyone over the whole thing. But I didn't hold onto it and left it when I went out on the route. Which I did in good order even with the SNOW!!!!! I promise I won't go into my usual rant on snow but I don't ever think I will ever really like living with it.

Well with the route done and everything ready for Sue on Tuesday I left, only to be told that I was going to be doing a new route on Tuesday. I was not upset in the least I was already planning on being home so it was no big deal. Besides it was the Aux route (which means it is small and does not warrant a full time carrier. I was off and packing (quite literally my clothes). In the end I picked up Neal and we were on the road by 6ish. So we rolled into Monmouth around 9ish (yes I was flying). Miles met us and we parked. Then we visited Kristan and saw her realm of "Hello Kitty". We stayed for only a moment and then off to Miles room. His roommate was gone for the weekend and wouldn't be back until Sunday so we camped out in his room Saturday night . But not before playing Arkham Horror.

I LOVE THAT GAME! IT WAS AMAZING, PHENOMENAL AND AWESOME!

It is set in the Mythos of HP Lovecraft's wittings. You play an investigator trying to stop the old one from winning. Oh it was so much fun. I will own it soon and all of its expansions as well. So 37 inch games be ware!

We got to bed around 3ish, it was so much fun. Morning came at around 11:15 for me. Roused myself into his private bath...Yes you heard me right he has a private bath in a dorm. After the shower we went out to lunch at a place called The Maple City Candy Company/Coconuts. I have to say it was one of the coolest places I have been in in a long time. It feels like an old home with lots of rooms and stairs and cubbyholes packed with different themes of merchandise not all of witch is hokey. Not to mention the fact that they had wired the rooms for sound and each one had different music to got with the theme. I wondered for a long time and then I found something, they had a tigger stuffed animal wearing a Hawaiian shirt and sunglasses. Terri loves Tigger and as such I could not resist getting it for her. Lunch was good as well. Coconuts is a Mediterranean style restaurant.

Lunch finished we headed back to campus and got a full on tour of the buildings. It was cool wandering around seeing everything in the different rooms and floors. After that we headed over to Kristan's room with our stuff as we were staying there for the night. After a slight hiatus in her room we went over to the building in which the anime club meets and watched three episodes of "Fruit Basket" a story about a young girl who gets involved with a family that is cursed. Whenever they come into close contact with a member of the opposite sex they transform into one of the animals of the Chinese zodiac. It had a blast watching it and want to see the rest of the episodes.

We then went off to see a movie. Miles and Kristan went to see Ghost Rider while Neal and myself went and saw Bridge to Teribinthia. I liked the movie which is not what is portrayed in the trailers. I won't go into detail as this is long enough as it is but if you think it is a LOTR/Narnia kind of movie as I did, think again. A good movie and I like it alot. Good acting and a good story made for a good night.

Well then it was off to Steak and Shake for some grub and conversation with three of Miles and Kristan's friends. Good times ensued and I remembered all the times we had done the same thing in one form or another. I could wax sentimental but I will simply say I have many good memories of those times and am glad for them.

So after that we went back and sleep found us. The morning came and Neal and myself entrained ourself for a short time as Miles had class. Then lunch at Mac Donald's and the long trip back to Kenosha began. I dropped off Neal and headed back to Terri's for a few hours then home so I could sleep and go to work.

I did find out one more bit of information Tuesday that troubled me. One of the women that worked at the Crete Post Office passed away the week prior, while I was up at Terri's. Her name was Jan and she was 51. A nice lady that always had a smile and a hello for me when I came in. Now I am not depressed but it is just a little sad since she was a bright light there. May she find her place in the after and the peace that she deserves.

Well that brings everything up to speed. I don't have much more to say so I will bid all a fond farewell. Until next time...

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Matt-Man Sets HIs Sights

Hail and well met

Yes I have decided to test my ability to make what I want a reality. Before now it has mostly been achieving goals that were needs not wants. May not make sense to anyone but it makes sense to me. Sometimes we all need to set our sights on a goal that may not be practical or relevant to our day to day existence. Something that is purely a thing that we want for not other reason then we want it. If asked we couldn't really provide a rational that makes sense to anyone but ourselves.

Well I have done that by deciding that I want and am going to work towards buying myself a Wacom board. For those (like myself only a few weeks ago) a wacom board is a device that allows you to draw on the pad and it make it appear on the computer. I have some research to do on what exactly I want in one but rest assured that I am going to save up and acquire one.

WHY? You had to ask didn't you. Well to be blunt and to the point, I want to draw again. As of late I have been trying to draw and keep having the same problem every time I do. I see the picture in my head and as I try and draw it it doesn't come out right. I try and redraw it only to have to erase again. With the Wacom board I can do that a billion times and not have any damage to the paper or other such shit. I believe that it will give me what my brain wants and paper and pencils cannot. So that is why I am going to get one.

Now yes I have responsibilities to look to. Believe me I cannot forget them but I can save for this and take care of them as well. It all comes down to budgeting and discipline, something that I do believe I lack.

So that is the sum total of what I have to say. Not a great earth shattering post but just something I wanted to say.

Oh and thanks Joe I appreciate your stopping by and commenting.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Matt-Man Can't Find Them So He Grinds Them

Hail and well met

Well just sitting here at 12:30ish in the evening and to be honest I don't have any idea what I am going to put here.

To put into words I am sitting in neutral and just spinning my wheels. Cannot seem to go forward and no way in hell I am going back. So here I sit, slowly going insane.

As I figure it no one still reads this thing so why do I bother? Well for one thing I ain't doing this for you. Sorry if that seems crass or blunt but it is the truth. This is a way for me to vent what is going on in my life and get it out of my head. I do appreciate those that do stop by and read. Thanks for the consideration.

How can I go forward, every time I try something seems to crop up and SMACK I hit the new wall. All I can figure is that I am missing something that needs to be dealt with in the here and now so I cannot go forward until it is put to rest.

Of course that being said I don't have a God blessed idea what that would be. But then again nobody ever does. Just have to back up and inspect the world around me (thanks Mikey for that advice cause it always seems to help).

I sat down today and really looked at what I had on my games...Yeah I lost a hell of a lot of work when the hard drive crashed. To be honest it almost got me depressed cause I don't know if I can get all of it back. That was kind of the point of putting it in the computer so I didn't have to remember it. Well now it is gone and I have to start from scratch. Well that ain't going to happen again cause I am going to take steps. Probably have to just hard copy all of it so that I have it on hand.

That was probably the worst I had felt all day...well except for reading something that brought up real sad memories.

Wish I hadn't already talked to Terri cause I really wanted to call her and talk about it. Not that she needs me dumping my emotional baggage on her door step. She has enough trouble right now, don't need to add to it. I would go into it but don't know if she is cool with me telling tales here so suffice it to say her life is getting real hectic.

At least I have two things...no three. First I have Terri in my life and that counts for a lot right now. Two I have all my friends and what she doesn't count for they do. and I have Iron Kingdoms.

Listen guys lets get this going again soon. I have tried to put my foot down before and it didn't go far. So I am going to take a more laid back approach. I would like to play next Friday unless this Friday will work (although I am not nearly prepared enough for this Friday) lets just play. I really need it and I know that everyone has fun. Of course the Loft is a freezer right now so I am going to talk to Val and see if the Possum Lodge is available. If not then maybe we should find another place cause I don't want to lose any extremities.

Ok well that is almost all I have to say. I am also preparing a survey of sorts for you all to look at for the upcoming BMM (beyond mere mortals) game this summer. It is a series of question for you character that may help in formulating his/her creation, well their personality that is.

There that is all of it. I will be posting the survey on the 37 inchers forum so look for it in the next couple of days.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Matt-Man Scrubs the Cortex

Hail and well met

Yup giant frogs. Nothing else to say. Back to you. -big smile-

So it appears that we are finally geting all that snow that we have been avoiding for the last few months. WOOOPIE! Personally we could have avoided it until...oh say the year 1000000000000.

It is not a big secret but I hate snow. It is the most annoying of precipitation in my opinion. It gets in the way and has to be shoveled or cleaned off your car. Instead of rain which just gets absorbed into the ground. It gets you wetter cause it don't just run off, no it just sits there and slowly melts into your clothes and then you. Plus it is cold out and then what does it do? Oh it freezes! Yeah right it FREEZES, WHY DIDN'T JUST STAY SNOW IN THE FIRST PLACE? Cause it sucks ass that is why. Oh yes and the other thing is that not only does the temperature fall but so does the average driving IQ. I swear people are half as cautious as they should be in snow and three times as careful as they should be in rain. Oh that makes perfect sense.

Ok enough of my rant.

So this weekend I am going up to see Terri again. We are going to see a band that she knows some of the members at a place called Penny Road Pub. The band is Khaos Theory,they started out as a Godsmack cover band but have evolved into their own stuff. ANYONE AND EVERYONE THAT WOULD LIKE TO COME OUT IS INVITED. So just give me a call on my cel or home phone and we can arrange from there.

Next weekend I am heading out to see Miles at Monmouth with Neal. Then I am (I think that is) running Neal back to Carthage and then back to Terri's on the return trip. After that I am taking a break for a couple of weeks and hopfully getting Iron Kingdoms back up and running. The time thing just got easier as I am no longer working on Friday so starting earlier is possible, I still can't go late but it is better then not playing at all.

Other then that I am fine and dandy. I sent out an email earlier that I got from Nicky and hope that you all find it worth at least a good giggle or guffaw. And if anyone decides to respond all the better.

Not much more I can put here.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Friday, February 02, 2007

Matt-Man is not the Glue that holds the world together!!!

Hail and well met

Ok so here is all that I have to say. I am sorry for not making sure that everyone knew about Ben's surprise birthday party. I have mentioned it several times over the last couple of months though and every time I got the same MEH response. So Todd I am sorry but I was informed that you were out of town and that is why I did not call you. Nigel I figure you were being somewhat joking but even so you were up at collage and that is why I didn't call you. Ok that is done and over.

I have to say that trying to talk to people about this party was difficult cause we usually hang out together and with school it was difficult to keep in touch. Be mad at me if you wish but I don't care. I did the best I could and that is all I can do. I may be a superhero but I ain't perfect.

So as of late I have been having some trouble. At first I thought it was due to the situation with work and how it is somewhat unreliable and random. But that has proven to be a red herring.

It came to a head yesterday whilst I sat right here and tried to do stuff only to discover that I couldn't concentrate. Then I would decide to go out and do something but no matter how hard I struggled I just sat here. All time my insides were in turmoil over it. It came to a head when I had a dream.

Now I have had some real nasty dreams in my past (Yes Joe I know you can beat me but this is not a pissing contest) and they were pretty bad. Zombies eating me alive adn the like were the flavor of the year last couple of years running. Before that was a trend that for some reason really scared me instead of sickening my. They all involved something that I thought was long out of my life.

HIGH SCHOOL

Yup I would dream that I was late to class or unprepared for class or would get to class and no one would be in class. Often I would be all ready and in the halls when I would realize that I didn't know my schedule and have to run around trying to find someone who could give it to me.

Well I had one of those dreams Wednesday night. Only this one was way different. I had all my stuff and all expenses were covered. I had my schedule and was ready to go. The hang up was that I didn't have my locker assignment and locker inspections were going on. Now I wasn't scared or creeped out I didn't wake up sweating beads as I normally would have. In fact although I remember the dream rather vividly I don't get the same sense of foreboding that usually comes with this type of dream.

All in all I knew that something was not quite right in me. No I ain't going down the "I am all screwed up" path but something is defiantly not firing in my iginition system. So I began to do some searching and something jumped out at me.

Since I was young I have been equated to a Bear. I liked Bears and collected a number of bear themed items, not many but a few. I also had a love of Unicorns, Dragons, Lions and Eagles. Funny I have never met a Dog or Cat that didn't like me, really and often they act different around me then the they do around most people. Of course I have also had a facination with Spiders, sort of a love hate relationship.

Well I got the idea to look up what these animals meant in the totem world and see if maybe it was a matter of sliping out of one realm of influence and gravitating towards another.

My research is still proceeding but it appears that I may be stepping away from my close walk with the Bear and next to another animal. I will keep all informed as I discover what is going on.

Yeah ok so now I get the hackles rising as I know someone out there is going to read this and have a hissy fit over me talking about animal totems. Listen up God created EVERYTHING so the animals are here for a reason. Even the Bible says that "All of creation is waiting for the sons of God to be revealed". I see this not as a religion in front or in place but along side. It was a talking donkey that saved Balaam from the sword of the angel. It was not Gods will that Balaam be saved it was the action of the donkey that saved him. So it seems that the precedent for animals being messengers and teachers as well as guides is there in the bible. I know that I could find more if I looked but I don't need to validate what I know by Faith is right.

Anyway I have things to do and information to digest. If anyone knows of a good resource on Animal totem information and meaning let me know cause I find the internet a little questionable at times.

Hope all is well with everyone. I am looking forward to the next couple of weeks as I will be visiting Miles up in Monmoth and...I know there is something else but I cannot think of it.


OH YEAH VALENTINES DAY! It is the first year I have a sweetie I get to dote over.

Speaking of which I have to get off line so I can talk to her. No offense but affairs of state take prescient over affairs of state.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Matt-Man....What else?

Hail and well met

I have run out of things to put as titles for this blog, but no fear I haven't been avoiding posting because of it. I have been rather busy for the last couple of days, between working and being up at Terri's.

Not much to post I guess. Things have been ok. Hours at the PO are getting a little scarce but that can change at a moments notice. For now I am enjoying the time off trying to get things done that I didn't have the spirit to do earlier.

As of late I have found myself gravitating towards a very Zen view of life. Not to say that I totally understand the Zen belief system but I am researching it. One funny point so far is that I don't see it being a religion for the most part. Buddha is not God but instead an enlightened man that Ascended. Now of course every "right minded" Christian out may have just cringed but I will remind then that Enoch walked with God and was not. What do you think that meant?

Much of what I read about it so far seems to follow a strange parallel to the things that I have been feeling as of late. You see long ago I choose to not follow any man but instead to allow the Force (Spirit of the Lord, Holy Spirit) to guide me to the truth, which is what I see a true Jedi's walk to be. Since then I have found that many of the things that the Straight Christians stand for I do not. I could go into detail but I really don't feel the need to dump it here. If you are interested ask me. I cannot promise that it will make sense since I am still figuring it out myself but what I have I will share.

Wow didn't intend to go down that road. So I am in good health and feeling good... Oh heck I have to tell all of you about the special thing that happened over the weekend.

We threw Ben a surprise 37incher Birthday Party. Most of you know that he hates his birthday, being on December 28th. I have to agree that is the worst B-day ever. Not on either holiday so it gets lost in the mix. Even if someone tries to set up a party it ends up being derivative and mundane, with X-mas and new years right there. So I decided to give Ben a party when he wasn't suspecting it. It was almost a month later being on January 27 but that was close enough.

It was a total success. Val,Mel,Sara,Jack,Nicky,James,Jon and myself were there. Well there was one other person there and it was important. Jenniy was there all the way from Michigan.

It was amazing. Ben had a day from hell and it went from Suck to Awesome in a flip of a switch and the opening of a door. You see Jenniy hid in the Dead Room and waited until Ben had come to grips with the party as it was before she jumped out. That was a magical moment. To see that look on Ben's face was so worth it.

All in all it was an amazing night and it only got better. The next morning I went over and took Val,Mel,Nicky and Kelsey to a place in Crestwood called Sancuary Crystals (I think I may have the name mixed up). A rather cool store with real cool stuff. Then I took off from there and met Terri at home, her home that is. Spent Sunday evening and Monday with her then met her for lunch on Tuesday after which I came home.

This was a weekend that rocked.

Ok so anyone that is in the area and is interested in coming up to Lake Villa Terri has extended an invitation to watch the Super Bowl and hang out Sunday. I am going to be making calls to most to extend the invitation in a more personal way. But this is a safety net in case I miss someone. Hey if you cannot make it no biggie just throwing out the invite.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Matt-Man Defenestration for Life

Hail and well met

Well the old adage "A door doesn't close that a window doesn't open" is as true as ever. The regualr at the Matteson PO is acting the fool and it shouldn't be long before he is gone. Not to mention that I called in to the Crete PO today to fill in for my regular who was sick.

So things are looking up, as always. How does that saying go? Regret looks back, Worry looks down while hope looks forward and faith looks up. Nice one I think.

So I was talking to the most amazing person in the whole world the other day and she (Yeah like you didn't know that it was Terri) sent me a real funny email she got. So instead of trying to send it to everyone that I want to see it I have decided to be a little egomanical and since all of you come here anyway I will put it here and let the mountain come to Matt-Man.

Here it goes...

NEW PREAMBLE TO THE CONSTITUTION

"We the sensible people of the United States, in an attempt to help everyone get along, restore some semblance of justice, avoid more riots, keep our nation safe, promote positive behavior, and secure the blessings of debt-free liberty to ourselves and our great-great-great-grandchildren, hereby try one more time to ordain and establish some common sense guidelines for the terminally whiny, guilt ridden, delusional, and other bed wetter's.
We hold these truths to be self evident: That a whole lot of people are confused by the Bill of Rights and are so dim they require a Bill of NON-Rights."

ARTICLE I:
You do not have the right to a new car, big screen TV, or any other form of wealth. More power to you if you can legally acquire them, but no one is guaranteeing anything.

ARTICLE II:
You do not have the right to never be offended. This country is based on freedom, and that means freedom for everyone -- not just you! You may leave the room, turn the channel, express a different opinion, etc.; But the world is full of idiots, and probably always will be.

ARTICLE III:
You do not have the right to be free from harm. If you stick a screwdriver in your eye, learn to be more careful, do not expect the tool manufacturer to make you and all your relatives idependently wealthy.

ARTICLE IV:
You do not have the right to free food and housing. Americans are the most charitable people to be found, and will gladly help anyone in need, but we are quickly growing weary of subsidizing generation after generation of professional couch potatoes who achieve nothing more than the creation of another generation of professional couch potatoes. (This is one of my pet peeves.) Get an education and go to work.. don't expect everyone else to take care of you!

ARTICLE V:
You do not have the right to free health care. That would be nice, but from the looks of public housing, we're just not interested in public health care.

ARTICLE VI:
You do not have the right to physically harm other people. If you kidnap, rape, intentionally maim, or kill someone, don't be surprised if the rest of us want to see you fry in the electric chair.

ARTICLE VII:
You do not have the right to the possessions of others. If you rob, cheat, or coerce away the goods or services of other citizens, don't be surprised if the rest of us get together and lock you away in a place where you still won't have the right to a big screen color TV or a life of leisure.

ARTICLE VIII:
You do not have the right to a job. All of us sure want you to have a job, and will gladly help you along in hard times, but we expect you to take advantage of the opportunities of education and vocational training laid before you to make yourself useful.

ARTICLE IX:
You do not have the right to happiness. Being an American means that you have the right to PURSUE happiness, which by the way, is a lot easier if you are unencumbered by an over abundance of idiotic laws created by those of you who were confused by the Bill of Rights.

ARTICLE X:
This is an English speaking country. We don't care where you are from, English is our language. Learn it or go back to wherever you came from!
(AND LAST, BUT NOT LEAST....)
ARTICLE XI:
You do not have the right to change our country's history or heritage. This country was founded on the belief in God. And yet, you are given the freedom to believe in any religion, any faith, or no faith at all; with no fear of persecution The phrase IN GOD WE TRUST is part of our heritage and history, and if you are uncomfortable with it, TOUGH!!!!
Well there it is and it made me laugh...ALOT! So hope all find it funny (cause lets face it if we don't we cry).

I have some work to do for somethings coming up so I will see all later when the opportunity presents itself. If you miss me that much let me know and I will see what I can do. I want to and am planning on visiting some people in Febtober and Marchurary. Yeah just watched celebrity Jeopardy with Sean Connery. Good times.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Monday, January 22, 2007

Matt-Man Running Up Hill

Hail and well met

Ok I should be furious and pissed and depressed right now. Or I should say the old me would have been all these things. Maybe it is a sign of my aging or maybe something else but I got some bad news today and I have to say I am ok with it.

In a nutshell. I have been working days for my friend and fellow RCA at Matteson as he is covering the route for his regular whom was out for reasons that are not important. The regular came back to work today and that means that Jim loses those extra days and so do I.

I mean a loss of over half my weekly hours right now. That is a huge hit to my future budgeting.

And right now I am not the least pissed or angry. All things happen for a reason. I belive that I am truly walking one of the precepts of my Neo-Jedi code.

There is no fear;there is faith.

I know that the situation will work out. Then I got home and saw todays Far Side daily calender comic and had to laugh cause it so totally says it all on how I feel right now.



Well I am being called by Criminal Minds so I am off.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Matt-Man Vs The Great White Menace...

Hisel and Wisel Misel my Brosisels....

OH HELL NO!!!!!!!!!

Hail and well met

I was not referring to race relations or "The Man" by "The Great White Menace" I was referring to a four letter word...


SNOW

Yup for anyone not around or that has not yet stuck their heads out, it has snowed. At first I was starting to get pissed but then realized that it was a good thing.

1) It is Sunday and as such there will be plenty of time for the road crews to clean up (and they will do it fast so they don't miss "Da Bears")

2) With a little insulating snow on the roof the loft will be much warmer (mental note need to buy more fuel today)

3) It looks pretty! HELLO SNOW MAKE ME A SAMITCH!!

Ah yes there is a warm glow as I bask in the warmth of total whimsical Gir-ness. I was up at the loft last night working on some mini's...Yes I said mini's, so what? Oh yeah I see what you are saying. Thanks it feels good to be doing that again.

Anyway I was working on them and didn't feel like music so I look around for something that would not suck my attention away but still entertain me. That is when I say volumes one and two of Invader Zim. I was so happy!

I love this show. :p

I was able to get a whole bunch of stuff assembled and ready to prime. So today after I finish posting, eating, grocery shopping and working out I am heading over to do just exactly that.

Yeah I am going to work out. What is it with all this questioning? Why do you plague Matt-Man?
Oh again with the "hey good for you"? Well I thank you, but STOP INTERRUPTING! People are trying to read this thing and don't need to be distracted or bored by listening to me explain stuff like this to you.

Who are you anyway?

WHAT?!

Are you kidding me? My "inner-child". You are my inner-child? What are you doing here now? Why aren't you in my....head or emotional center or my...my...my squidly smooch?

OH I see. Wow that was close. Glad to have you back on board. Feel free to interject whenever your little heart decides.

Well that clears that up. You see it appears that I had abandoned my inner-child for awhile there and that was the center reason for losing some of my gaming spirit and creative juices. It appears that he is a strong little cuss and managed to kick down the door and get back in. Yeah for little inner-child! I think I will refer to him as TBT (Tiny But Tough). I could refer to him as Tiny Is Tough but that acronym is TIT, which might distracting (not to mention giving me man cramps, I MISS YOU TERRI ;)

So I sit here enjoying the flow of creativity and imagination all around me. I type with vigor as new ideas beginning to form in the ever expanding luminescent nebula of neurons firing like a million exploding stars that I call my brain.

But I need tacos, I need them so bad. If I don't get them I will explode. I do that some times.

I guess maybe tacos are not enough to jeopardize my mission. I will have to get a giant buritto.

BURITTO!!!!!!!!!!

I love this show.

That is about it for this ride through my psychosis... I mean psyche.

May the Force be with you

Excelsior!!!

It has chicken legs :)